in my country it is very wide concept that adults who have hard time adjusting to world or can’t adjust and function in society and who are very sensitive, are considered as “spoiled” and called “infantile” and are heavily looked down on by people.
That adds more to me feeling very bad about myself, because I can’t help but see myself the same way as society does, even if I find it unfair
It is a very very popular idea in my country that people who cant read cues and can’t fuction in human society are immediately seen as “silver spoon” aka people who always had everything given to them on a silver platter their whole life and who were very spoiled and had everything and grew up to be arrogant and full of themselves. So every time people see me they straight up assume Im an arrogant spoiled jerk rich kid who had everything and was always priveleged, they assume that only by seeing me not being able to function in society and failing. I’d hear being accused of “having too much pride” and “having a napoleon complex” only because I didnt do something right bc of me not knowing how it works in society, and that hurt. This whole idea that Im seen as spoiled infantile adult judging only by me not knowing how to talk and not making eye contact etc, feels unfair.
I find it very unfair that so many people assume I am a jerk who has an overinflated ego and who wants to get more than I deserve, when in relaity I am always confused and scared and literally don’t know anything and what to do, and im just trying to do what im demanded to.
The only times when people wouldnt assume that was when they’d assume Im a foreigner who doesnt know my language, or asssume im a lowerclass race person who can’t be smart and only do labor intensive jobs bc of my race, which only feels better by a little bit, or doesnt feel better at all