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  • yeonjuns-anti-romantic
    23.10.2021 - 12 hours ago

    Thoughts about her are dangerous.

    Why do I even care? That's what you keep asking yourself.

    She hates you. You fucked up when you overreacted. She said it herself, you aren't special.

    That night in the closet was a month ago now and everything has changed. You had noticed how close the two of you had been getting, how she'd grin and bite her lower lip any time she teased you. The way her face lit up when you teased her back, gently flicking her head and calling her a little dummy. You caught yourself too many times lingering your gaze on her when she wasn't looking so when it all became too much and she pulled you in that closet it was an amazing feeling to know she had been wanting you too.

    You loved your little game of I Hate You But I Want You.

    Her point was made that nothing about that night was anything more than a distraction and maybe that's how you felt too, at least that's what you keep telling yourself.

    So why the fuck are you thinking about her now?

    Feeling your head hit your pillow as you lay down, your right hand was splayed on your stomach.

    Trying to close your eyes, you could almost hear her intake of breath, all those little noises she made. The thought of it made your dick twitch.

    What were you doing?! Stop thinking about her!

    Her thighs were so soft, if things had continued instead of that fight then you knew you'd have nibbled at her soft flesh, relishing in how her hips would circle in want. You'd slowly kiss up each leg, watching her eyes as your tongue darted out to lick over her panties between her thighs. How would she taste?

    "Fuck! Yeonjun, get a grip!", you mumble to yourself but it was too late.

    Tugging down your sweats and boxer-briefs, as your cock sprang free it ached for more. She was in your head.

    "Fuck it.", you hiss, gripping yourself and giving into your thoughts.

    Did she think of you too? When she touched herself? Would her little fingers rub frustrated circles on her clit, her tits bouncing with the effort, with her mind filled of you? Did she think about how you finger fucked her?

    By now you were pumping your length, you wished it was her hand around you, her mouth, her pussy. All of her. That's what you wanted.

    Circling your hand around the head of your cock, you shuddered, sensitive, a bit of precum making the tip glisten.

    Your eyes opened and you were so deep in your fantasy that you saw her, those bright eyes and that grin as she was in your bed, hovering over your lower half.

    "Yeonjun...", she coos, a bit of drool falling from her heart-shaped lips and onto you, her hands reaching to pump you with both hands, "You feel as good in my hands as you did inside me..."

    "Yeah?...", you say, gazing at her with heavy lidded eyes, almost panting, your hips thrusting up.

    "That's feels good, hm? I miss you making me feel good. I miss you making me laugh.", she tells you, pouting slightly as her hands went faster, circling you at the tip and coming all the way back down to your base.

    "I miss you too. Ahh-fuck-fuck-", you hiss out, your teeth clenching as your heart hammered in your chest. Just as you were coming her warm lips took you in and you exploded, feeling her tongue circle you while you got off.

    Your hand fell away from you, your cum warm on your hand and stomach, you almost felt a little dizzy.

    The fantasy of her melted away. You were alone in your dorm room. And you still knew the truth of it all, she hated you.

    (I hope this didn't suck. A little part 3 to this still untitled writing.)

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  • dimplehyunn
    23.10.2021 - 17 hours ago

    Pairing: Student!Choi Beomgyu X Fem!reader | Genre:College AU,fluff | Wc: Less than 1k | Warnings : a kissing scene maybe? Or maybe not *winks*

    It was just another day of you tolerating Beomgyu's mischieves. He was sitting beside you in the cafeteria,the kids were talking and being loud all around but you really don't think that anyone could ever be louder than your adorably annoying boyfriend. You were pretty much of a quiet kid although you were pretty loud around your comfortable company of people but your boyfriend was just LOUD. At this moment,he was teasing you by immitating that one face you had made almost 3 months ago when you jumped up on his lap after seeing a cockroach.

    I mean this boy never forgets anything,does he? You do something,he notices and then he never forgets it. This was your life and although sometimes you wanted to beat the shit out of him for annoying you and being loud all the time,you couldn't deny the fact that these behaviours of him made your life very much fun and loveable.

    "Shut up gyu!",you yelled in annoyance making Beomgyu stop as you got up from your seat and made your way out of the cafeteria to your empty classroom. Beomgyu followed you to apologize. As you got into your class,he grabbed your hand and stopped you,"Okay okay I'm sorry, don't be angry!". "Don't talk to me,do you know how gross cockroaches are?",you yelled in frustration. He sneakily laughed at your question,"I get it. Fine I'm sorry", he apologized again as he held his ears with both hands.You kinda melted at his cute apology.

    "It's okay",you mumbled out and turned around to sit on your bench but he suddenly grabbed you by the waist,turning you towards him and pulled you closer to him. His breath was falling upon your temple as you looked up to him. His lips were only inches apart as he kept decreasing the distance between you two. You were so close to him that you could almost feel his lips on yours so you closed your eyes while waiting for his lips to meet yours completely. Your lips unknowingly formed a pout on their own. Suddenly you felt the warmth dissapear and a soft voice saying,"Do you know how you look right now?", As you flashed your eyes open only to see him making a duck face.

    You pushed him away with your hands,"Gyu! You're so irritating! I so fucking hate you", you yelled out loud and hit his arm as he kept laughing breathlessly at your reaction.

    A/N : I actually saw one of my friends being a situation like this once and I just remembered it today. It was actually hilarious so I decided to make a drabble out of it. Your feedbacks will be appreciated! Have a nice day !!<33

    Reese ☆ Dimplehyunn

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  • xysthe
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago


    choi soobin / catholic high school AU

    “Hail Mary, full of grace. the Lord is with thee. blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, jesus. holy mary, mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.”

    SUMMARY: moving into a new school life isn’t easy at all, being dropped into the religious and (not-so) prestige lifestyle was certainly nerve wracking for you, especially considering the incident at your previous school and with the worry of secrets and rumours getting out. however, when confiding in a certain person, he somehow takes all your worries away. what happens when your past incident is reflected onto another person at your new school? after promising yourself not to love someone again so easily, will he be the exception?

    PAIRING: choi soobin x fem!reader

    WC: 16.7k+

    CONTENT: fluff, suggestive, angst, religious themes (catholicism)

    WARNINGS: suggestive scenes, cursing, a little blasphemy, mentions of nude leakages, smoking & death, some plotholes

    FEATURING: yeonjun & kai (txt)

    A/N: in no way shape or form am i trying to force a religion down on people, this was only for fun and fictional purposes only !! nude leakages is something that’s brought up quite a lot in this, so if you are triggered by that i suggest not to read this. also, this story may often stray away from its catholic theme at points. i will proofread this again soon for the 1836th time later ! ALSO IM SORRY THAT THIS IS QUITE LONG MY BAD, i tried splitting it into parts so it would seem shorter when reading it :) lastly i hope you enjoy this fic because this is genuinely one of the best things i’ve ever written and i spent a lot of time on this, so i really hope you'll have fun reading this <3

    PARTS: 1 - intro, 2 - same but different, 3 - the party, 4 - confessionals, 5 - cliché, 6 - together, 7 - redemption, 8 - mother meredith, 9 - OMG, 10 - only just the beginning

    feel free to tell me your favourite moments/chapters from this fic, i would love to hear them !!

    1 - INTRO

    you were sent to a private catholic school, and you weren’t saying that it was due to your ‘bad behaviour’ in your previous state school, but it was exactly because of that. you weren’t particularly a terrible nor rude student, you were very good academically actually, but you just so happened to be centred around a terrible and rumoured ‘scandal’ at your previous school, which made your life a living hell there.

    in addition you hated arguing with your parents, so you just sucked up to the bitter idea of moving to a new school. a private school with also a religious institution at that. since you did well academically, you managed to snag a scholarship at a high ranking school. however, a religious based private school being the pick chosen by your parents was one totally out of your train of thought.

    you’ve attended here for almost a week so far, and let’s just say that you’ve hated the experience.

    of course, you tried to maintain a good sort of behaviour so you could somehow fit in nicely, and not only were you attending a catholic school, but you were also boarding here too. luckily, the boarding house was super cosy, it was even better than your own house if you had to tell the truth, so you had no problems with staying there.

    however, you wanted to return back home, but also not at the same time. you missed waking up in the morning to the town’s signature and ominous, foggy haze and you missed your walks to your favourite park. but, going back to your hometown would mean meeting the people who you grew to hate; people who recognised you to be someone who you were not.

    you’ve really tried your best to leave a somewhat reasonable impression here in the past few days, but some people were really testing your patience. the students here were either extremely, spoilt rich kids or firm church kids and there was no in between. it was terrible.

    many have tried to pry into your business about why you had moved here during a random term so suddenly, but you persistently rubbed them off.

    today was your first sunday at dorms and you didn’t expect that you would actually have to visit the local church (more like cathedral rather) for mass, which was just a walk down the block. your parents didn’t even give you any pre-warning about it.

    did they think that suddenly forcing a religion down your throat would make you clean completely from something you didn’t do?

    you were framed, but they failed to listen to you about that.

    they were already ridiculed with so much shame from the situation that they even refused to listen to their own daughter.

    you had no idea of what was going on anymore nor what was happening with you mentally, but your main motto at the moment was to just suck it up.

    so after the boarding supervisors woke everyone up, you got dressed and remembered how your mother told you to at least pack nice and formal clothing in your bag. you looked at her baffled that afternoon, but simply complied without questioning her, but now you fully understood why.

    you were all called to the main room after a beforehand breakfast and then made your way to the cathedral nearby, in a formally manner as directed by your supervisors.

    you had never been to such a grand place before, of course you’ve been to the normal type of communal and small churches in your local area plenty of years ago, but this foundation had a whole different atmosphere.

    as you entered inside the strong scent of incense hit you instantly and as you continued to walk further inside you made notice of the finely painted tapestry of imageries that covered the ceiling of the grandiose building. there were many other people and families scantily sat at different pews.

    the students in front of you had automatically clasped Bibles and hymn books in their hands from the stands at the side and you followed them as so. afterwards, your teacher calmly directed all of you to designated pews somewhere around the middle of the various rows on the right column.

    observantly, you continued to look around the majestic yet captivating building. you noticed on the side there was a vast area filled with lit up tealight candles stationed next to one another. a statue of mary was also in between the two stands of candle-lit trays. her hands were laid open and out in an inviting manner. one or two people had stood in the area with their eyes shut and hands put together benevolently murmuring a silent prayer.

    you looked down carefully to your fingers which were calmly splayed across the holy book. the whole ambiance was so otherworldly and serene it made you nervous.

    if only you could feel this. you’ve rarely had a connection to any sort of God but you hoped maybe being here could sort that out. maybe your mind could be in the clear from everything. maybe you would no longer feel that the world is against you if you did end up staying connected to God.

    you continued to look around like a fish, completely mesmerised by the place until your eyes catch on a certain person. he calmly sits down at a pew alone, clad in a white button-up shirt and black slacks. he’s sat diagonally in front of you in the opposite column of the congregation. you can’t make it out to see his face fully but his side profile was completely entrancing to look at.

    his deep black hair, which shone so silkily under the rustic chandeliers of the cathedral, was neatly parted to the side and his jawline was sharp. the boy’s skin looked as smooth as soft porcelain and the side of his eye glinted just a little. his round and glimmering eye was keenly focused on the large altar at the front.

    he looked so damn good that you almost forgot about everything around you. stay focused, you opted.

    as you continued to be mesmerised by no longer the church but the boy, who looked roughly about your age, your fellow boarders and classmates suddenly stood up beside you. a few grand notes on the organ had began to play and your heart raced. shit. did you miss something?

    quickly, you stood up too following their doings. they all had their hymn books opened on a specific page and started singing collectively and you stood there completely confused.

    you noticed a few stares coming towards you from a supervising teacher and you quickly decided to avert your eyes elsewhere with embarrassment. immediately, you looked over to see what page number the hymn book was on so you could flick to it in your own book.

    the mass proceeded onwards and there were a lot of words that the congregation were supposed to say collectively and eventually you got the hang of it, especially with the help of the peer on your left. you didn’t know her name but she could tell you were a sort of newbie to this. bidding prayers soon came around and then a prayer which wasn’t on the sheet was suddenly being spoken.

    “as we say… hail mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.”

    “where the hell is this prayer on the sheet?” you asked the helpful girl beside you whilst flipping over your sheet and scanning each word attentively.

    “this prayer isn’t on the sheet, it’s usually one that people have memorised.” she mentioned quietly.

    it was definitely hard, you were brought up in a catholic household, had communion and all that but then your family gradually stopped attending mass for a few years until it was no more. you never asked why, but now you were curious. did they lose faith? or could they have just not been asked to attend anymore? it could’ve been neither.

    you haven’t been to a mass like this in actual years. but as if you were compelled by some sort of spell, you started to remember some of the words to this specific prayer. the hail mary. it was one of your favourites if you were to be honest.

    “pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.”

    after some more time you went up for communion, being thankfully reminded to place your left hand on top of your right. then mass eventually wrapped up and honestly you learnt a few things. one, was that these people liked singing a lot. two, never kneel down for too long otherwise you won’t be able to stand up, and that was actually something you remembered from those years back. the kneeler cushions were not comfortable to endure for long periods of time at all. nevertheless, the whole service honestly brought an unusual yet comforting sense of nostalgia to you.

    despite learning the few things and following the mass accordingly, your eyes had continued to stay glued on the one particular boy you had noticed from the start.

    he was so attractive and for what? your brain completely went wired when even taking a single glimpse at him.

    he had this aura about him that was so alluring for some reason. he had a lean figure and looked really tall actually, his height making you fall head over heels for him even more. he was now picking up his books and making his way out of the pew.

    “hey, does he come here often? like, is he a local to this church?” you asked your peer nudging her shoulder gently. she glanced in your direction of view and instantly her eyes widened and a slight shade of rose tinted her cheeks.

    “he goes to our school, actually.”

    “what? are you for real?” you asked with your jaw hung open.

    “yes, that’s choi soobin. surprised that he’s at mass, to be honest.” she admits and brushes a strand of hair behind her ear. there’s something up with this guy that you feel like you don’t know, but everyone else does. how comes you haven’t seen him around?

    “he wasn’t in all of last week, and the week before that. apparently he went abroad for a family funeral… but some say it was just some prolonged rendezvous, but i guess he’s back now.” she stated.

    “come on girls, let’s go.” your teacher prompted interrupting your conversation, the both of you collected your books and left the pew.

    “you’re going all rosy when i’m talking about him. who is he really?” you whispered over to her as you finally made your way out of the cathedral with the others.

    “choi soobin, as i said before. he’s something alright. that’s all i can say.”

    “he’s somebody that everyone is dying to date at some point in their life. word around is that he’s quite a risqué person but also a frequent churchgoer. strange isn’t it?” she said turning to you before quickly catching up with the rest of the girls ahead. you quickly jogged over to her in order catch up as well.

    “yeah i guess. so you said everyone? does that make you too?”

    “i mean, yeah.” she admitted and you nudged her once again.

    “he’s a sweetheart too. i’m partners with him for history class.” she goes on and on and you two continue to have a long conversation even as it strays off to a different topic.

    “oh, i’m dani by the way. you’re y/n aren’t you? newbie prepping was quite the bit.” she smiled.

    “yep, that’s me. nice to meet you dani.”


    monday came around soon enough, and you were gently cruising around the school with your backpack slung over your shoulder eloquently. after last week’s tour around the school you finally got the hang of navigating around the school blocks.

    the uniform for this school also wasn’t that bad, the blazers were a dark crimson colour with matching plaid skirts. furthermore, the school in itself was absolutely stunning. there were numerous classrooms, a vast and clean outside compound, ceilings with swirled structures and pillars. the floors were always polished and the school garden was a whole forest of botanical beauties. there were so many facilities and clubs too, you felt spoilt for choice.

    everything about this place said ‘private school’ all over it though. it was no surprise that you had entered here through a scholarship, because there was no way your parents would’ve been able to afford the sumptuous fees for this school.

    as you continued to walk around you noticed a poster on the notice board stating that there were confessionals open with the school’s chaplain every monday and friday after school. maybe you should make a stop by, it seemed like a good idea anyways. you continued to think about it and before you even knew it you were running late for your first period.

    quickly, you made your way to your pshe class and slipped past your teacher who seemed to let you off the hook. this was your first pshe class so you were kind of stuck on where to sit. however, your wandering eye faltered to the only spare seat in the room. next to a certain someone… that someone being a person you recognised from the mass yesterday.

    his beautifully sculpted face was in full view before you as his eyes locked on yours too. gosh, he was even more handsome than you expected. his head was lazily rested against the palm of his hand and you were lost for words as he continued to gaze you down.

    “ah, newcomer. i’ve assigned for you to sit next to soobin, which is the only spare seat in the room. so please take a seat and don’t be late again.” the professor stated making a gesture towards the empty chair. you only gulped and carefully walked over to the spare chair muttering a small ‘thank you’ to the teacher.

    the classroom was dead silent watching your every move, except for the boy you were sitting next to. he hadn’t spared you a single glance except from when you had entered inside the room.

    you really wouldn’t have expected a moment like this to even happen at all. from thinking you would find him unapproachable at church yesterday, to now being his partner for a class.

    to be honest, you had no idea on what to even say to him but you just mentally reiterated the face he had when he gazed you down. damn, he was so fine.

    carefully, you placed your hands down on your lap fiddling with the cotton material of your skirt. there goes your nerves again.

    “so what’s your name?” he asked. you didn’t know how to capture his tone, it wasn’t unfriendly neither open to you.

    “y/n.” you replied and you briefly noticed the very small yet awfully cute smile that showed up on his face. not only did he have killer looks, but also a killer smile too… oh goodness. you didn’t even notice his dimples that indented both of his smooth cheeks at first.

    “nice name you have.” he stated before sitting up and turning to you shortly then looking back at the whiteboard to copy down notes. surprisingly his notes were all neat and cute, well you couldn’t really say that was a surprise.

    was dani really telling you the truth? this guy, is the same one who performs indecent acts on school grounds? you wouldn’t believe it. you won’t believe it, mainly to satisfy your own needs.

    occasional looks and glances at each other were often shared and when he explained some of the work to you, you didn’t fail to notice the brush of your bare knee against his clothed one. it shouldn’t have affected you in such a way, but it certainly did. plus, you couldn’t tell if the action was deliberate or not.

    “and i was thinking that’s more ethical.” he continues to go on about God knows what and you’re only focused on the contact between you two. class ends before you even know it and he’s packing up his minimal things.

    “nice meeting you, y/n.” he said and smiles as your name rolls of his own lips. he can’t lie, he really likes your name.

    not to mention how you loved the way he said your name. your heart thumped tremendously the moment those words left his mouth.

    “i’m soobin by the way.” he said before sauntering off.


    the tiresome school day ended and you headed straight off to the school chapel. surprisingly, the small hall was emptier than you would’ve expected it to be. you’ve been in here before for assembly on wednesdays, which you attended last week, however it was so strange to see no sign of anybody in here, it felt more tranquil like this though.

    although the chapel wasn’t as grand as the cathedral, it was definitely pretty and neatly yet respectively decorated. you had time to kill since you were boarding here, but either way you wanted to make this thing as quick as possible. you noticed the lit green light over the brown wooden door, so you guessed it was vacant. carefully, you knocked on the door and a taller woman in a long floral dress and a white rosary dressed around her neck greeted you with a wide smile.

    “welcome! come in, come in.” she repeated with enthusiasm and a dear smile, her voice radiated the energy brought here; nothing but calmness.

    “you must be the new student, how are things going for you here?” she asked.

    “not so bad.” you stated honestly whilst taking a look around the room.

    “it’s just i’m not used to these catholicy things that much anymore, you know.” you continued and she nodded. you respected her for not questioning you at the word ‘anymore’, since you weren’t in the mood to talk about your previous religious life because that’s not what you came here for.

    “ah i see that’s perfectly fine. as you spend more time in such a blessed environment i’m sure you’ll become more accustomed to it.” she smiled sweetly and you only hummed. maybe this change could be for the better. you can start on a new leaf and focus on something else for a change.

    “so, i assume you came here for confessionals.” she stated and you nodded.

    “great, let’s start with the sign of the cross first and we’ll get talking.” she says whilst doing as so and you followed what she did.

    “also just a reminder that i’m not permitted to tell others about what you confess to me. it’s something between you and i, and the Lord of course.”

    well that’s a relief.

    so you told her. you told her a lot about your past situation at your old school. you almost started losing composure at remembering the story. you spilled more than you intended to spill and although you were quite nervous, she managed to help you quite a bit. your thoughts slowly began to run wild too. you were in between asking yourself, what if these walls weren’t soundproof? to what happens if rumours spread round here too?

    she really talked you through it to calm down your nerves and you started to feel a tad bit better.

    “i’m glad that you’re confessing all this, y/n. i truly am, but remember you must come to confessions if you want to reconcile for a sin you’ve committed. to me, it’s looks like you’ve done nothing wrong at all.” she smiles and those words hit you softly.

    “but if you still want to ask for forgiveness for anything else, which you don’t have to feel obligated to talk about, we can reconcile for them.”

    “i would like that, please.” you replied. you don’t remember anything necessarily bad you’ve done, except for arguing with your mother shortly before you left to come here.

    you still felt bad about it up until now. the chaplain made you read out some words from a manuscript, almost like a prayer and she said a few words, then you were called to respond back.

    when exiting the confession room you felt slightly better but you didn’t expect for someone to be waiting outside.

    especially for that someone to be none other than soobin.

    you kept on running into him today and it was driving you crazy. briefly, you made eye contact with him for a split second before smiling then quickly walking away and leaving the chapel.

    if he was up for confessions, that means he has something to confess. something to hide. something that needs to be repented for. maybe it wasn’t as bad as you thought it out to be… but dani could’ve been possibly right about him.

    but, you didn’t even know him properly and you were already following these assumptions about him. you needed to stop hopping to conclusions. plus, what if he was entirely different from what everyone thought? after all, you new better than anyone else to not jump on rumour bandwagons.

    that feeling of tranquility and peace you felt when exiting the chapel was long gone after noticing soobin’s presence at that point. what if he heard what you were talking about? oh gosh, you prayed to God that that wasn’t the case. without no second thoughts you made your way to your dormitory room.


    “soobin, so nice to see you. how can i help you?” the chaplain asked kindly.

    “hi, miss jenkins. well… i’m asking for forgiveness from God. i’ve done a lot of things i regret to be honest.”

    “where do i even start?” he sighed, half-chuckling at his own words and flashing through all the memories that gave him a cold shudder down his spine.


    dinner at the dormitory dining room was somewhat interesting tonight. it was nothing new having to share gossip around at the dinner table, but tonight everyone was huddled in small groups with their phones out. the screens illuminated their faces whilst they continued to observe their social platforms.

    “yeah and i heard she sent them to multiple people on the football team.” nadia, who was sat down next to you, had stated to the girl on her opposite side. instantly you froze at the delivery of her words. they came out cold and bitter, not a nice tone to it all.

    surely you weren’t the problem… right? if you were though, nobody would’ve sat next to you right now. you also probably would’ve been given dirty and dismal stares.

    “what’s going on?” you pried to nadia. who turned to you and brought out her phone showing you her social media timeline.

    “nudes, is what’s going on. this girl in our school sent nudes to the whole football team. what else would she have expected if she sent them to the whole team?” she exaggerated.

    you made a note-to-self to stay far away from the football team.

    but nobody knows the girl’s story anyways. she could’ve been pressurised, blackmailed or even threatened to send out those pictures and you hated even thinking about it.

    why weren’t you saying anything? you’ve been through a similar dilemma but you couldn’t bring yourself to say anything. you felt like a coward.

    you wanted to say something so badly but it would only stir up confusion with the majority of the ignorant girls here. honestly, you wouldn’t have expected a school such as this to have such controversies occur.

    “do you know who the girl is?” you asked nadia.

    “nope. but she’s completely done for if anyone ever finds out. they’re lucky they kept her identity a secret.” nadia responds and you bite the inside of your cheek. suddenly, you had lost your appetite to eat. your eyes flickered around the table noticing people continuing their conversations. however, you noticed someone sitting there alone eating her food uncomfortably. dani. it didn’t take long for her to calmly drop her cutlery and excuse herself to the toilet.


    “honestly, i would never come back to school if i was that girl.”

    “this is what happens when you get too close to those annoying jocks.” another girl retorts and starts pointing fingers at some people at the table specifically.

    “hey, it wasn’t me in the photo. seriously!”

    “natalie, come on we know how much of a slut you are for the football team.”

    “come on, they are hot though. you can’t lie about that, but the swim team is the way to go.” someone else adds.

    “oh yeah, speaking of swim team have you heard that soobin’s back in school?”

    “all hell’s going to break loose soon, huh?” nadia adds and a few others end up chuckling together.

    oh fuck off, could everyone just shut up for a moment.

    even though the upbringing of soobin’s name caused you to listen a little more intently, everyone here was out of their damn minds. someone’s confidential photos just got leaked out on the internet and the current talk is which sports team is better than the other? they had no sense of decency. you scraped your chair out and left the table immediately.

    “leaving so early, that’s a waste of food you know. you not hungry?” nadia asked and you fought back a small scowl.

    “yeah, i’m not.” you said and carried on walking before you were called out to again.

    “wait can i have your potatoes?” fiona asked.

    “yeah, just have whatever’s on my plate.” you stated loudly before walking into the bathroom to encounter a crying dani. she was leaned against the sink looking up at the mirror to meet your unexpected gaze. she only wiped her tears away quickly and looked away.

    “are you okay?” you asked her.

    “yeah, i’m fine. just an… allergic reaction from the food. but it’s okay now.” she sniffled and you gave her some tissues from the dispenser. you almost believed her for a second upon noticing her puffed red cheeks and welling eyes, but you knew better than that.

    “you can always talk to me if anything. anytime that you feel comfortable enough, i’ll be here.” you said and she came closer a few seconds after to give you a small hug. her tears softly dropped on the shoulder of your t-shirt.

    “thanks y/n. but i’m fine, really.” she smiled weakly.

    you knew something was wrong here, but you weren’t going to pry into her business. you decided to give her some space but somehow you felt disappointed in yourself. like you should’ve done more to help her out. and if your speculations were true… that it was dani in the photos, you really could’ve done more to help her out.

    after all, you had went through the same experience as her.

    3 - THE PARTY

    it immediately became the talk of the school and you seriously wondered when it would die down, but it looked like it wasn’t going to happen anytime soon.

    however, your main priority was trying to find the football team members, especially the captain, as it seemed that they had links to the situation. you needed to corner them and make them fess up somehow, knowing people like them it would be extremely hard though.

    “aye, party tonight at raphael’s. you coming?” you heard a boy ask his friend by the row of lockers.

    bingo. that should be a hotspot for all students specifically the athletes, but first you needed to know the location. as much as you hated interacting with nadia, she’s quite popular so she’ll know a lot. walking aimlessly in the hallway and being completely lost in your train of thought caused you accidentally bump into someone.

    “you. i keep bumping into you.” soobin softly chuckled, holding you into place so you didn’t topple over. instinctively, you grabbed his shoulders and stayed like that for a second or two as if paralysed in the moment. you didn’t know how to describe it but the feeling of his hands on you felt so right. it felt like they belonged there.

    quickly, you took your hands away and he slid his away to dip into his pockets before biting on the inside of his lip cutely, his dimples waded both of his cheeks.

    “i’ll see you later. are you coming to the party tonight?” he asked and you paused for a moment.

    “party, you say?” you asked raising a brow and he smiled.

    “yeah, uh i’ll text you the address or i could pick you up? it’ll be fun, you should come.” he prompted. oh it won’t be fun for me. but at least you had a way of getting there now. even though you were falling for this boy even more, you felt like prioritising this current mission of yours was more important.

    “i’ll find my way there. i’ll most likely go with some of the girls in my dorm since i bet they are going, but it would be nice if you could text me.” you smiled sweetly. the main reason why you chose this method was to indeed grab his number. however, you were slightly oblivious to that fact that he wanted your number just as bad.

    quickly, you wrote down your digits on a small piece of crumpled paper and he thanked you before heading off to class. gosh, tonight was going to be rough.


    even though soobin had messaged you the address, you were still being driven by some of girls in your dorm. all of you were arriving later than expected due to your quick and reluctant outfit swap. claudia, another boarder, had urged for you to borrow one of her dresses especially after nadia made a remark on your bland crop top and jeans.

    after many of the other girls prompted for you to change as well, you eventually found yourself wearing something that was a casual navy blue dress that hugged your sides and all your of curvature. you didn’t like it at first but the amount of gushing compliments eased your uncertainty. you weren’t used to their friendliness but they were treating you as if you’ve been living here for years, like a sister or good friend almost and you didn’t mind it.

    you later on managed to message soobin that you were on your way there. the car ride was lively and the music was enjoyable and it was definitely easing to know that the conversational topic wasn’t of the nude leakages.

    you instantly spotted the party house the minute the car made a turn on the specific avenue. the large mansion had all its windows lit up and there were a few people by the front porch smoking joints, drinking and chatting frivolously.

    so this is what private school kids really get up to. you would’ve never expected these were the same students to attend a catholic school.

    the music from the inside of the building echoed out beyond its walls, you could hear the faint rhythmic beats of hip hop music from a mile a way. fiona parked her car and the other girls quickly entered inside, others ran to meet their friends, some going off to smoke on the front porch as well. simply, you entered inside and messaged soobin that you had arrived.

    your eyes were glued to your phone and it wasn’t a surprise that you bumped into someone again. you really needed to stop doing that.

    however, it wasn’t soobin this time. it was a male with short, dark hair and greyish eyes that had lingered down on you then on his white shirt that had new splashes of brown beverage spilled on it.

    “i am so sorry!” you shouted over the loud music.

    “it’s fine, really—”

    “do you need a spare shirt? i could help you find one.” you offered and he only shook his head.

    “… wait actually, i wouldn’t mind.” he said looking down at his top once again and deeping the dreadful stain, then retreating his eyes back to you.

    “i know the party holder, i don’t think he’ll mind if i borrow a shirt of his.” he said and he prompted for you to follow him. to be honest, you would’ve done anything to get away from the loud and pumped atmosphere of the party downstairs, so you were happy to follow him away.

    you and the boy travelled up the spiralled staircase to the second floor and he told you to wait outside a specific room. the hallway was quiet, save for the music from down below and the unearthly whimpers and moans coming from a random room on this floor.

    suddenly, your phone pinged again and you noticed soobin had asked for your whereabouts.

    “thanks for the idea. i feel more comfortable in this than a cold, beer stained t-shirt.” he thanked you as he came out of the bedroom.

    “wait, you’re the new student aren’t you?” he asked and you hummed. he took a few long seconds to take in your enthralling appearance before clearing his throat.

    “well, nice to meet you.” he replied waving at you lightly then strolling off with a subtle grin that he failed to hide on his face. well, that was kind of awkward.

    you looked at soobin’s text, which you’ve accidentally and unconsciously left on read for too long, then back up at the other male who was walking away.

    “wait, do you know any members of the football team… perhaps?” you quickly asked the boy and he turned around curiously.

    “i‘m part of the football team myself actually...” he continued and your eyes widened immediately. your bold steps forwards instantly made his eyes bulge out of his sockets. what he didn’t expect was a harsh slap to come across his face. you didn’t know what possessed you at that moment but you felt so indignant. it felt like your blood was boiling.

    “you asshole.” you seethed. the harsh and sonorous sound of the slap resonated through the hallway and the guy held his reddened cheek.

    “what was that for?” he asked shocked at the comprehension of how he got smacked by somebody he had only just met minutes ago.

    “you and your whole team are assholes. don’t pretend like you don’t know what you did.” you spat out bitterly.

    “y/n, there you are!”

    oh, great. perfect timing.

    your head swivelled around immediately to the sound of the familiar voice. you felt bad remembering that you hadn’t managed to reply to him and now it looks like you were occupied with someone else.

    “am i interrupting something?” soobin asked cautiously flicking his eyes between you and the male before you.

    “yeonjun?” soobin asked with confusion.

    “hey, soobin. i was just going now. see you around.” yeonjun said awkwardly before walking away and not sparing you another glance.

    “what was that about?” soobin asked and you simply shook your head. once his mind was in the clear he began taking in your appearance too. was that just a thing now? maybe you did actually look good after all.

    “you look stunning.” he said and you thanked him feeling some slight abashment.

    “it’s something that my friends forced me to where so don’t be so stunned.”

    “either way, you really look amazing.” he genuinely complimented and you felt heat rush all over your body.

    “let’s go somewhere else, i’m getting a headache from all this music.” you lied and soobin agreed comfortably. the both of you strayed away through the immense and luxurious depths of the mansion. gosh, rich kids really had it all when it came to households. they were all living it up.

    you perched yourself on a bench at the empty balcony and soobin sat himself down next to you. tonight, he looked good. as usual, but he had worn jeans and a simple sweatshirt with a denim jacket. his hair was scruffily styled but he still made it look very appealing. he had metal looped earrings, accommodating for some of the piercings that he wouldn’t be allowed to wear at school.

    despite being sat next to him at pshe class yesterday, you had to admit you loved being this close to him. the perfect and distinct view of his surprisingly pretty lips always made your thoughts go astray. not to mention how he had this particular scent, one that could differentiate him from a crowd in the best way possible. he just smelt that good. you wanted to snuggle up to him so bad and be held in his embrace for as long as you needed.

    you knew the moment you first saw him at the mass last sunday, you would indeed fall for him. whether it was gradually or immediately, you knew one way or another you would fall for him, and now that it was actually happening… you didn’t know what to do.

    “you okay?” he asked putting a hand to your shoulder and you felt shivers tingle to your spine exhilarating your whole body.

    “yeah, i’m fine.” you lied.

    “so… you know yeonjun, huh? are you on the football team too?” you asked soobin curiously. every inch of you was hoping that he would say no.

    “no, but i’m on the swim team.” he stated taking his hand off you and you smiled to yourself whilst fidgeting with your dress.

    swimmer soobin. now that was something for you to see. you imagined him, coming out of the swimming pool. his damp, wet hair being slicked back by his fine hand, his torso with drips of unrushed water trickling down the tones and faint defines of his chest—

    “i used to be on the football team though, like two years ago, was it?… anyways i quit that. i was close friends with yeonjun back then since we were both on the team.”

    “wait, why did you quit?”

    “it wasn’t my thing at all. i have more of a passion with water now.” he explained and you hummed.

    you were still thinking about what dani said. if anything he seems nothing like what she explained to you.

    ‘word around is that he’s quite a risqué person but also a frequent churchgoer. strange isn’t it?’

    word around.

    it’s only just rumours then. and for some reason you still didn’t want to believe that they were true, but either way that was really none of your concern.

    “you look bothered by something and i’m worried. do you want a drink?” he asked.

    “i don’t drink like that but i’m fine, soobin. thank you though.”

    “also i’m sorry about not replying to your texts, i kind of got caught up in the moment of something.” you said and he simply waved it off saying it was no problem. coming here to look for the football team was definitely your priority but that slowly crept away when being in his particular company.

    his voice was so sweet and he had a laugh of precious gold. the more you got closer to him the more bad you felt, because you knew dani probably liked him too.

    “soobin i— uh…”

    “i don’t think you should, mix with me. if you get what i’m saying…”

    “no i don’t?” he asked shockingly confused. he knew exactly what you meant but he just felt hurt and startled. it was so sudden and he liked you a lot so he wasn’t willing to give you up so easily. he wanted to get to know you better, spend more time with you, you know?

    he was used to a few quick dates with different girls and quickies under the bleachers, but now after the sudden passing away of a family member, he wanted to take things more easy. he really wanted to change. he had thought about it for a while now and his brother’s death became the immediate trigger for taking on that action.

    “i don’t know if i’m a good person.” you continued. you said this for your own safety. soobin was definitely well-known around school, and if you were to get close with him that means everyone would be on your neck as well, trying to dig out the worse from you. as much as you didn’t want to keep your distance from him, you didn’t want a repeat of the terrible incident at your past school.

    “well me too.”

    “i don’t think i’m a good person either.” he admitted.

    “look, let’s be each others’ confessionals for tonight.” he suggested.

    “you can’t be serious, right?”

    “i am so serious right now. think of this as a secular safe space, if you want it that way.”

    “let’s keep things said here between you and i, only. pinky promise?” he said bringing out his slim pinky finger. after some momentary contemplation you decided to just fuck it and intertwine your finger with his.


    “so, do i go first or…?” you asked him.

    “would you like to go first?”

    “i don’t mind.” you said and he nodded insisting for you to go ahead. he shuffled himself over on the patio bench to face you better.

    “it all started summer last year before the start of our new term. i was dating somebody who i thought i knew perfectly, but really i didn’t know them at all.”

    “he was someone that i thought was sweet, kind and loveable but he was really a manipulative and terrible person. he blackmailed other students and collected nudes from them and when i found out about this, i decided to call things off with him. that’s when things went downhill for me personally.”

    “after cutting ties with him he leaked one of those private photos and framed that it was me in the photo. it was a really bad time. the person who was really in the picture, who i still don’t actually know till this day, just went on with it and left me to suffer with all the harsh words and literal things thrown at me. i was constantly shamed and there was a point where i didn’t even want to go to school anymore. nobody in school wanted me there either.”

    “of course i tried to defend myself multiple times but the shame wouldn’t stop coming and it would’ve continued to eat me up alive if i still stayed in that school.”

    “instead of him being the one punished for sending out explicit photographs, i was the one who got shamed and expelled. i took the brunt of it all when it wasn’t even me.” you sighed, your voice slightly cracking at the end.

    “worst thing was, they told my parents about it and they completely believed the school. nothing is worse than receiving shame from your own parents and the people who you thought were your friends. i was alone for a good while and i’ve been accustomed to it.”

    “being brought into a religion where i can focus on my relationship with someone who can understand me is nice though.” you mumbled.

    “come here, now.” was all that soobin said before you fell into his arms hopelessly and you let the few tears shed down. they emptily stained his sweatshirt for a few seconds and you continued to wipe your face.

    “i’ll be here for you, whenever you need me. i’ll be here, waiting for you. you really deserve better, y/n.” he stated and you immediately felt more tears beginning to well in your eyes. just thinking about the awful times of how you were mistreated really brought a strong and miserable feeling to you. you weren’t willing to trust soobin so quickly, but his words hit hard. he seemed like such a genuine and sweet person, so you appreciated his comfort.

    “thank you, soobin.” you sniffled whilst he wiped away some of the tears on your cheek with his thumb.

    “and this is why i’m not tolerating the current situation at all. i want to find out who really sent the picture out. no one ever deserves to go through something like this.“

    “can you help me with it, please?” you asked him.

    “of course, no one deserves it and i’m more than willing to help you.” he said placing a hand over yours to hold it gently. his touch on yours was always super soft, the shrilling shocks and nerves that shot through you really shook you up though.

    “well… your turn.” you managed to muster enthusiastically despite the disturbing topic discussed beforehand.

    “ah well for me, it started a while back. talking about a couple of years here and i was constantly on and off with my elder brother who lives in korea, we fought a lot and weren’t on good terms often. i left to come study here without saying a word to him.”

    “but now he died a two weeks ago… and i regret it heavily.”

    “back at home he was a priest and that was probably one of the main reasons why i was dragged to church every week back in korea. that and my family’s love for God actually. even when me and my sister moved here, she would still drag me to church every sunday but now that my brother’s gone shes been nothing but sorrowful these days.”

    “she spends most of her days grieving over him and she hardly pulls me to church anymore. so i do it willingly myself.”

    “it’s like through church i can still have that unconditional connection with my brother still. if you get me?”

    “i just wish i left things on good terms with him but his car accident was totally out of the blue and just so… unexpected. attending church makes me feel like i’m paying off a debt and apologising to my brother in a way.” he said, you could tell that he was trying to fight back tears by the way his face scrunches and how his hold on your hand tightens a little.

    “i was never really a holy person or properly understood the concept of religion to an extent, as to why we argued often, but now i can’t help but feel terrible.”

    “i wish i could’ve been a better person for him and to not have been so selfish. and i am of course trying to better myself now. i just wish i could just see him again, to tell him i’m sorry for everything i’ve ever said or done to him that’s hurt him.”

    “soobin…” you murmured softly at the sudden spill of his thoughts.

    you decided to let your hand envelope over one of his soft cheeks and caress the supple skin calmly.

    “it’s not your fault, it’s no one’s. and we can’t change the past but we can alter the future.”

    “i think your brother would be proud of you that he sees that you’re trying to change.” you said and he smiled warmly. you noticed a single tear trickle down his cheek and you delicately wiped it away, reciprocating what he had done for you.

    soobin liked you. he liked how you were able to sit down with him and talk about your worries, feelings and the past comfortably, and vice versa. he liked how you listened to him attentively and gave the best comfort. no one’s ever done that for him before. not even his parents, that had willingly pushed him away from their lives at a young age to focus on his elder brother more. his older sister who moved with him here soon became the parental figure in his life, but it just didn’t feel like enough.

    he learned how to do things on his own most of the time and he usually refused help from his elder sister. however, he really wished he could’ve taken some advice from her because now he had meddled with many hearts and had done meaningless things with people who meant nothing to him. his sister was always so persistent for the two boys to eventually make amends at some point, if only soobin had listened to her.

    his sister was always the one to bring him to sunday mass in the great cathedral. last week, she was too busy mourning to even attend the service, and soobin fully understood, so he left to attend by himself. these days he hardly felt a connection with God, especially after losing his brother but he’s tried to build and maintain a strong faith.

    however, when you waltzed into school randomly like an angel, he felt calm strangely. he also felt a sense of warmth whenever noticing your sweet gaze that would cast upon him. from the very first time he noticed you at pshe class he thought you looked angelic, and he didn’t think anything would change his mind from that.

    if things continued to fall into place with you two being with each other more often, he would fall for you. and he knew it for definite because he had already started falling for you.

    “soobin, are you okay?” you asked. what you weren’t expecting was to be swiftly taken in by a melding and sweet kiss on your lips by the boy before you.

    you kissed back.

    it was by default. but the feeling of his lips against yours was something you wished to never depart from, you found yourself mixing your lips with his carefully to the echoed sounds of the faded music. the kiss was definitely sudden and did really take you by surprise for a millisecond, but you decided to just let it happen and go with it. you honestly had no oppositions to it and you would be lying to say if you hadn’t already dreamt of kissing him despite knowing the boy for only two days.

    you always thought you would’ve had trust issues around unfamiliar guys, but for some reason you opened up to soobin more than you intended to. darn him and his compelling nature.

    no words were exchanged between you two as the kiss continued. your hands that were glued to his face managed to slide up higher to dig through his disheveled hair. his hands guided themselves to your waist which he firmly held and circled his arms around. the proximity of your faces increased and it was getting a tad bit messier.

    your tongues intertwined as if it was second nature and you let out a small whimper at the foreign yet different feel. gosh, his tongue was kind of long, was your first thought that came to mind.

    as much as you enjoyed this, you needed to stop it before it was too late. you weren’t particularly ready for anything more than this.

    “soobin…” you muttered breathlessly and you gently dragged your face away. you were both knocked out of air from your lungs, but you felt shameful for breaking such a heated moment.

    “i’m sorry.” you apologised. he didn’t looked baffled or hurt whatsoever but he had a small and pleasant smile on his face that eased you a lot.

    “it’s fine. i’m sorry that was kind of sudden. i shouldn’t have done it.”

    “don’t be sorry. this is kind of awkward, but i enjoyed it a lot.” you managed to say feeling some heat creep up to your neck nervously.

    “i could tell, me too though.” he replied teasingly with a cute pinch at your cheek.

    “do you want to go back inside?” he asked.

    “can we stay out here for a little longer, if you don’t mind?” you asked. being out here, particularly with him was the refresher you needed. it was like you were disconnected from all sorts of hardships and troubles from the real world right here.

    “that’s alright, i don’t mind that either.”

    after some time the two of you headed inside and grabbed yourself a few drinks. soobin had gotten you a can of soda from the fridge.

    “hey, you wanted to talk to the football team right? well, they are over there.” he said getting unbelievably closer to your face to whisper in your ear over the loud music. gosh, you wanted to pull him right in for another kiss but that would’ve definitely put on quite the show. plus, you weren’t one for pda.

    you looked over to the group of huddled boys and noticed yeonjun wasn’t amongst them. however, the people you noticed most definitely looked very athletic and self-conceited. you assumed so from their trashy jeans and basic sense of style, and how they also had girls clinging onto them like hooks.

    maybe it wasn’t the best time to bring up the situation right there and then. you knew it would spark up big chaos, or maybe you were chickening out? maybe you were too scared to leave a bad name for yourself here at this school already? and if you had to be honest you had no idea. possibly bringing it up to a member of staff would be better, but usually they don’t do shit with situations like this.

    “i can’t, soobin. maybe another day.” you spoke to soobin, tiptoeing up to whisper in his ears. as you turned round to look at the gathered group of jocks, you all noticed that they were looking at you specifically all of a sudden.

    now why was one of them making their way to you guys?

    “passing girls around like flies again are we?” the guy asked and you raised a brow putting a hand on your hip. you didn’t really understand what he was talking about but you knew he was taking some digs at soobin.

    “shut up, raphael.” soobin spat out.

    “so who’s this? newbie, huh? i’m the party thrower, by the way. glad you could come, you look great.” he stated taking a deep look at you and your outfit, but for some reason you felt uncomfortable this time. his eyes were stern and his smile was severely forced making you cringe internally. you only scoffed and looked away and raphael was definitely surprised by this, even soobin.

    “i heard about your brother, dude. total bummer. my condolences, man.” he added and you lost it at that point. soobin had almost seemed to have lost all sense of responsibility and composure as you noticed him clenching his hands into a fist, but he remained calm surprisingly. he only slung a warm hand over your waist and whispered something in your ear that was inaudible to raphael.

    “let’s get out of this place.”

    5 - CLICHÉ

    it didn’t take you twice to agree. so you left with soobin leaving a stunned raphael. people were already blanked out on the front porch, some clearly intoxicated by alcohol and some just high off the feeling of their consumptions. you knew your dorm mates would’ve been concerned about your whereabouts when departing (that is if they weren’t too drunk by the end of this party) but you would hopefully be okay with soobin. you sat in the passenger seat of soobin’s car and he leaned forward on the wheel letting out a weak and exhausted sigh.

    “he shouldn’t have said that.”

    “i know.” he said. you could tell he wanted to let loose again, but because you were here he didn’t want to seem even more weak and vulnerable.

    “let’s go somewhere else, i have a place in mind.”

    “sure, but i need to be back at dorms by 9pm.”

    “okay… oh wow 30 minutes. that’s enough though.” he said and started the car engine quickly. the smooth car journey was kind of silent and the light sound of the radio music distinctively lightened up the mood. soobin occasionally hummed to the sweet music whilst drumming a few fingers to his steering wheel.

    soon the two of you pulled up to a brightly lit up avenue beside a river. bold and bright fairy lights had dangled and twined from one tree to the other as you carefully drove down the road. brown leaves fell down slowly due to the autumn taking it’s toll on the environment. one side of the pavement had a parapet which split the running river from the cemented ground.

    the area wasn’t that busy especially at this time of the day, soobin parked his car and he led you close towards the river view. the spotted strings of light were distortedly reflected from the river and the small swishing sounds of the water made all your tension from tonight ease out.

    “i come here a lot at night. it’s only beautiful like this when the sun is down.”

    “beautiful it is, indeed.”

    “just wait till christmas time comes. the lights are colourful and they have all different patterns too. i’ll bring you here again the next time.” he smiled.

    “i wouldn’t mind that.”

    as you continued to rest yourself against the parapet, soobin noticed your constant shivering. you hadn’t said a word but he knew you were freezing.

    “wear this.” he said taking off his jacket and handing it over to you. he knew denim wasn’t the best for warmth but at least it was something. you had only worn a dress so you definitely needed an extra layer.

    “don’t. this feels so cliché.” you joked brushing his suggestion off.

    “oh come on. so what? i don’t want you to catch a cold so just take it and keep warm. i’m wearing a lot of layers myself so i’m fine.” he murmured and you took the jacket off him reluctantly.

    the jacket smelt exactly like him, mulberry and musk. you loved it. his scent completely draped over you like a cape and you were swooning over it on the spot. he could easily tell you were suddenly so swayed and hazed by something that it made him giggle.

    “what’s so funny?” you asked him.

    “nothing. you’re cute though.” he said.

    “stop it.”

    “… thank you, for this.” you said and he only nodded at you with a small hum.

    although he was being such an awful gentleman to you, some of the things raphael said about soobin were questionable. maybe it wasn’t the best option to believe someone like him, but you had a few dire questions to ask.

    you felt like soobin was missing out bits of his confession.

    “soobin. you mentioned how you wanted to change…”

    “who were you exactly before all this?” you asked and he bit down his lip before looking down at his shoes then at the serene river ahead.

    “do you really want to know?” he asked.

    “yeah, of course. i want to know you better.”

    “okay. promise, that this won’t change the way you view me. i really am trying to take a change.” he explained and you replied with a hum. was it that bad?

    you were starting to have some doubts.

    “i wasn’t necessarily the greatest person. i would get with people then drop them on the same day.” he said. he continued to talk and be honest about himself and you appreciated that. but you truly did feel shocked by this all. you’re just glad that he’s trying to change, and plus the things he did wasn’t necessarily awful.

    needless to say, he wasn’t as bad as the members of the football team.

    “also. about why i was so keen on speaking to the football team was because i think they spread out the images.” you said and soobin’s eyes grew bigger instantly.

    “holy shit.” he muttered under his breath.

    “i’ll confront them about it tomorrow.” you said.

    well that’s if you can.

    later you were driven back to the dormitories and you were just on time for curfew. carefully you waved soobin a goodbye and it was only until you reached your room that you realised you had taken his jacket along with you.

    6 - TOGETHER

    wednesday was the assembly day. in fact it was your second assembly here and you were sat in between dani and nadia. the chatter commenced by the students had soon died down after the principal had entered the hall and stood by the podium. a not-so-pleasant look was evident on his face

    “good morning students. let’s begin with the sign of the cross and the Our Father on this fine morning.”

    collectively everyone did as so and said the prayer together, then the principal began speaking again.

    “it’s come to my attention that inappropriate images of a student have been shared amongst the internet.” he stated and immediately you sat up straight in your seat. everyone began talking again but that was soon immediately hushed down.

    “this behaviour is completely unacceptable and once we find the perpetrator, they shall receive a severe punishment immediately.”

    “images as such should have never been taken in the first place. as a reminder, our ethos here is to be obedient to the Lord—”

    “sir, those were my photos.” a student in the crowd states loudly.

    a random girl had stood up and declared that those photos were hers. chatter began once again as all heads spun around to the girl.

    “no, they were my photos.” you called out with a sigh as you stood up folding your arms. at this point fuck it.

    you had to stand up for the person who was violated in the end of the day. you needed to be selfless, and to properly take your mind away from the troubles of the previous incident it would be best to do so by helping someone who was going through the same thing as you.

    “y/n, what are you doing sit down—” nadia whispered harshly and oh gosh, an even more rile of chatter began at your sudden surmise. the new girl joining in on this too? yeah, definitely a shocker for most.

    “no. principal adams they were mine.” another voice speaks up.

    “sir, they were actually my photos.”

    “they are all wrong. those are my photos.”

    “those are my nudes.”

    before you knew it a dozen girls had stood up and the principal was left in a tempered state, even the teachers sitting on the sidelines were shocked. nadia was completely stunned at how fiona was one of those who decided to stand up too. you felt happy that a few people here were willing to stand up for something like this.

    no one in your old school would’ve done the same thing for you.

    “everyone sit down now! miss dianos, your triggering stunt is not appropriate on these grounds, you are to meet me after this assembly.”

    “as for everyone else, we’ll get down to the real victim and aid them with pastoral care.”

    after assembly you got all sorts of glares but you didn’t care, you felt good.

    “thank you, y/n.” dani said coming up to you then quickly walking away. before you could even replied with a simple ‘what for?’ or ‘thanks’ or to even ask how she was feeling today, she had dashed away.

    you were concerned for her and it felt as if she was wanting to tell you something, but couldn’t bring herself to say it. you continued to walk to your first period and suddenly two hands had covered over your eyes causing you to stop in your footsteps and bump back into someone’s body.

    “guess who?”

    “hmm, i don’t know. maybe ryan gosling or something.” you smiled and turned around to the smiley boy behind who rolled his eyes.

    “saw what you did back there. i was really tempted myself to stand up and say they were my own too.” he said.

    “you’re unbelievable.” you said punching his arm.

    “sorry! i’ll see you later okay?” he said giving you a wide smile and you nodded waving him off. gosh, you haven’t felt this happy in a while.

    then you remembered.

    that kiss yesterday. how the hell did you guys even get there?

    did he decide to forget about it or was it just you holding onto unnecessary thoughts? you hoped he didn’t regret the kiss because that would surely be embarrassing. once turning your face away from his distancing figure you noticed someone else looking at you.

    it was the yeonjun guy.

    “oh no.” you noticed him mouth as you walked towards him.

    “wait. i need to speak to you, properly this time.” you said.

    “promise you won’t slap me again.” he jeered, bringing some unwanted attention to the two of you. you agreed muttering a small apology about that. eventually, he complied without any words said but only a wry expression shown on his face. you led him outside to under the bleachers at the empty school field, the damp grass reeked of fresh morning dew and the air was humid.

    “your stupid team sent those photos out didn’t they?”

    “i’m honestly not certain on that myself. i hardly interact with the others outside of a teamwork related basis. i’m not that great friends with them either—”

    “all i asked was a yes or no question, yeonjun.” you state lifting up a brow and he raised a smirk.

    “look. newbie, i’m being completely honest that i don’t know much shit. i was sent the photo, i’ll admit. and it definitely took me by surprise because it had appeared in my inbox so randomly.”

    “i never asked for them for it, and never would’ve done so anyways, so i was just really confused. i deleted the message though, so i’m sorry little miss detective that i can’t supply you with much evidence.”

    “woah. woah, wait. who sent the photo to you?”

    “originally it was from a completely random email but after looking at it a little more, it seemed like a guy on our team named, kieran. hardly ever spoken to him so i was suprised when i got an email from him. was even more surprised to find out what it was.”

    “i promise i didn’t do anything with the photos though, i didn’t spread them out anywhere at all.”

    you didn’t have the appeal to trust him just yet but his words seemed genuine. quickly, you thanked him before making your next move to who you were targeting next. you didn’t know who kieran was or what he looked like but he was on your hit list.

    you spent your whole day searching for this kieran guy, despite lessons, and it was a complete fail. you were now planning to ask soobin for any help or any knowledge of this kieran guy. you had lingered around the hallways waiting for soobin to appear but he was nowhere to be seen. however, your wandering eye lingered on a sign on the notice board.

    prayer club — tuesday after school

    swim club (team only) — wednesday after school

    quickly, you left to travel to the swimming hall which you had never been inside of yet. it was in a whole different compound and you found yourself doing a lengthy exercise around the school blocks. eventually, you made it and cautiously opened the glass door in an attempt to sneak in.

    “yes, that’s it! go on!” you heard an elder voice echo across the vast swimming hall. you stepped closer by the tip of the escalated seats but what came to your attention was a fast body rippling and piercing through the water ever so gently but at a ridiculous pace. this guy was super fast.

    “and done! that’s the fastest one so far. well done, choi!” the coach said and the guy emerged from the water gulping for some air. your air was effectively knocked out of your lungs the second you realised who that was.

    why didn’t you even notice sooner?

    he quickly exited the pool and received a pat on the back from his coach and a few fellow teammates. soobin slipped off his goggles and dragged a hand over his face whilst still catching his breath. his lean figure and exposed torso was right there and in front of you, just as how you imagined it. he yanked off his cap, fluffed his hair around whilst flinging a few stuck strands away from his eyes.

    he was painfully attractive. the way the drips of water slid down his skin... and how he wore tight swimming briefs that left little to no imagination.

    gosh, you would’ve banged your head against the wall to stop yourself from imagining such deluding things. before you could even notice, a few teammates had their eyes on you as the coach began to give them a pep talk and one of those pairs of eyes eventually became soobin’s.

    you waved over to him diminutively and he only smiled at your presence.

    soon the coach dismissed them for a small break and soobin came up to you practically cornering you against the wall where you two weren’t visible to no one else.

    “and you came all the way here for?”

    “oh, s-stop it.”

    shit. not you stuttering.

    “i came here to ask about a boy named kieran. he’s part of the football team. do you know anything about him? his usual whereabouts?” you asked curiously almost tripping up on your words and he only pouted.

    “well, i used to be partners with the idiot for history class. he used to date nadia for a bit, i’m sure you know her. i don’t think he comes in anymore though, i swear he would’ve dropped out by now.” soobin said and you grew shocked.

    “don’t tell anyone about this but, he was dealing and got suspended for a while. he comes back at random times but to be honest i don’t know if he’s been expelled by now. last time he came in was like a few months ago.” soobin stated.

    damn. looks like you’ll have to hop to nadia for this one. all this hassle for what?

    “i see.” you murmured and began to drag yourself lazily to the door at your failure so far.

    “you’re leaving so early?” he asked.

    “yeah, i have stuff to do, homework to complete and a case to solve. no one’s doing it like me.”

    “awe. total bummer. at least stay for a little longer.”

    “channeling your inner raphael i see?” you smirked.

    “how did you know?” he grinned.

    “coach won’t mind if you’re a companion of mine, stay please and rest for a bit. plus, you get to see how much of a good swimmer i am. where’s the wrong in that?” he cheekily smiled, his damp hands tugged at your blazer sleeve. although you did have lots of things to do, another partial reason you wanted to leave was because you felt like you would melt in this very place upon watching soobin swim and just be so hot in general.

    “i’ll take you out to eat after practice.”

    “fine.” you complied with a frenzied smile after he completely sold you on the idea. he pulled you along and you sat down at a random row of chairs high up to watch him.


    when you expected soobin to take you out to eat you would’ve expected some good drive thru fast food or something, but no. you were properly taken to a deluxe restaurant nearby, fully in school uniform. some people had stared at the two of you as to why these school kids were in one of the finest and most expensive restaurants in town.

    well, you didn’t know why either.

    but anyways you enjoyed yourself, you always enjoyed being around him. however, you were now back in your dorm fighting the urge to speak to nadia at this late in the night so randomly. but in the end you did, and after some hesitation she spilled exactly what was needed. despite nadia being a jerk she seemed awfully calm about your sudden questionings for her ex.

    “so why do you want to know all of this?” she asked curiously.

    “because i want to help somebody who’s in a bad situation and i know it was him who sent the nudes to everyone.”

    “wow. good samaritan much?” nadia remarked as she had leaned herself against the wall and you rolled your eyes.

    “anyways, that’s his address and number… that’s if he hasn’t changed them already, i advise staying away from him though. i don’t know what he’s up to these days, heard it’s sketchy shit though.” nadia sighed.

    “thanks.” you said then nadia began to walk off.

    “also nadia. maybe try to side with the victim on this one. boys aren’t always so innocent.” you smiled before walking off to your room and that left her in a complete silence.

    as soon as you got down to your room along the hallway, you called the number and you were surprised for the person on the other line to pick up. however, it was just heavy silence with some occasional breathing.

    “hi, is this kieran?” you asked and suddenly the breathing stopped and you realised the call had been cut. he must’ve hung up.

    you couldn’t falsely accuse someone about this whole debacle to the headmaster without proof. but you felt like the culprit was most definitely this guy. was there even a point for this if he no longer comes into school?

    no. he needed to face the consequences, harshly.

    you texted him abruptly and you were startled to get a quick reply afterwards.

    ‘who are you?’ he asked.

    you were tempted to type out ‘your worst nightmare’ or something embarrassingly platitude but you just decided to settle with something simple.

    ‘a student from merdium high who knows you sent those nudes out.’

    he then started typing then stopping then typing again and you knew you got him there.

    ‘turn yourself in or i will.’ you typed feeling rather grand with yourself.

    ‘how do you know it’s me?’

    ‘where’s your proof anyways?’

    ‘i’m going to block you whore.’

    the fact that he wasn’t denying it was all that you needed to know. oh, you’ll get your proof alright. you just needed the time and patience.

    ‘wait and see.’

    was all you typed before switching off your phone and chucking aside.


    it had been several weeks since then and you had gathered all the information you needed from various members of the football team, and with the help of soobin as well. it was indeed kieran who sent out the photos and he was facing serious consequences with the law enforcements for it. no one still doesn’t know the true intention for his actions, but it was definitely without the victim’s consent. the school were now taking matters into their own hands and a few students had set up a campaign for the situation. it finally felt like life was getting back on track and pieces of a jigsaw puzzle were fitting into place.

    with solving this case you also felt part of yourself being redeemed.

    it was a sunday morning and mass had just ended, and dani had unexpectedly pulled you to the side to whisper something in your ear.

    “y/n. you probably would’ve guessed this already, but i was the girl in those photos. yeah, it was me. i just didn’t know how to tell you, i was so ashamed. i know what you did for me and i can’t thank you enough. this means so much to me, you don’t understand. although i’m still recovering, your help really pulled through.” she spoke quietly with tears pricking at her eyes and you instantly gave her a tight hug with a few small back rubs.

    “it’s okay, dani. it was no problem. you’re fine now.” you smiled. you had to admit you were extremely glad that you were now the one to be giving out the comfort to someone else who crucially needed it at the moment.

    before being able to give her another hug she fled away and gave you a goodbye. whilst everyone else was departing, you were held back by the pair of eyes that were lurking on you from a distance.

    you noticed soobin looking at you, leaning carefully against the blank wall and you promptly made your way over to him as he led you downstairs to an isolated room in the church.

    “you’re an amazing person. i hope you know that right?” he spoke walking closer to you and holding your hands in his.

    you forgot to mention how spending time together in this particular room after every sunday mass was kind of your thing for each other now. over the past few weeks you had grew ever more closer with him. attending more of his swimming practices, studying together more often and generally hanging out together more. it was like you two were two peas in a pod.

    your mind swept back to reality at the feeling of your back pressing then soon arching over the cold surface of a table. you splayed down on the centre table pulling on soobin’s tie, which consequently pulled his whole self closer to your body in an instance. you always loved how he wore his formal attire to church, he always looked so sophisticated and gorgeous, it was beautiful to see.

    he let out a small chuckle before clasping his lips on yours. he only leaned in further and you raked a hand through his soft strands of hair. your legs entwined around his waist and he started ravaging your neck. the crucifix upon the wall right before your eyes made it hard for you to keep yourself focused. it felt like you were being watched and ashamed for endowing in such acts.

    you had to admit, a church certainly wasn’t the best place for this type of stuff.

    if you looked at yourself a month before from now, carefully watching him and wondering who the hell this fine guy was, you never would’ve guessed you would’ve been in this position now. literally.

    “wait damn, i may have to go now. mrs. halton will be wondering where i am. i’ll catch up with you later.” you said reluctantly not wanting to depart from soobin so quickly. he only pouted and you gave him a quick kiss on the cheek before hopping off the table.

    “wait, y/n?” soobin asked unsteadily and you hummed turning to him whilst sorting out your clothing.

    “i have a swimming competition, tuesday in two weeks time. i would really like you to be there if you can.”

    “of course! i’ll be there, i can’t wait to see my little swimming star.” you cooed hooking your arm with his and he only smiled with a small eye roll.

    “i’m literally 6 feet tall and gigantic in comparison to you—”

    “aht aht. hush.” you smiled putting your index finger to his lips and he only laughed at your cuteness then gave your finger a small kiss. you both walked out together and bid each other goodbyes before going your separate ways.

    later, in the evening, your phone had pinged and the person who had texted you was soobin.

    ‘are you free tonight?’ he asked you.

    without knowing any of his implications you simply replied with a ‘yes’.

    ‘my friends want to fuck around and visit the school late at night. you down to come with me? tbh i’ll only go if you come, it’s ok if you don’t want to.’

    you also heard some of the girls in your dormitory main room negotiate about it a few hours ago, so you assumed it was kind of a big thing. it took you some time to reply after thinking about it.

    did you really want to break into the school in a terrifying nightly atmosphere? probably not, but if it was with soobin then maybe you were okay with it. you agreed to going and he spammed a bunch of cute emojis making you cackle, however the bursting open of your room door made you jump.

    “so you and soobin huh? tell me about it.” dani asked excitedly as she sat on your deskchair and shut the door behind her. she casually swivelled around in your chair and you only smiled.

    “we’re not dating before you ask.” you said.

    “i wasn’t planning to ask that anyways. he’s really changed, you know. i feel like it’s because of you.” she initiated.

    “trust me, it’s not. he’s a nice guy though, really sweet too.”

    “cut the nice guy stuff. do you like him?” she asked you and quickly you fell silent, for too long at that.

    “maybe i’m prying too much. sorry. i was just excited, you guys look cute together and everything, i’ll go now.” she said getting up from the chair.

    “wait. dani.” you said.

    “i think i might like soobin.”


    “and they say mother meredith, the nun who founded this school lurks between the hallways at night.” kai calmly said and flashed a torch up to his face whilst telling one hell of a myth about the school.

    what you would’ve have expected to be a break-in was rather a creepy historic tour of the school, sponsored by some members of the swim team along with a few others who decided to come.

    “that’s bullshit, kai.” someone spoke up and the small crowd chuckled. although the school was dark and the torch at the front was the only light source, you still for some reason felt your heart tremoring with fear. after exiting the outside compound, everyone entered a corridor which you recognised to be the maths department, but everything felt so creepy now that all the lights were off.

    soobin, on the other side of you, decided to enveloped your hands in his due to this. although the building was dark, you could imagine his smile vividly in your head.

    “did you guys know that the art studio downstairs used to be a shelter for—”

    suddenly, kai halted his words at the sudden yet almost inaudible screech of a chair in the distance. it didn’t even take seconds for each of us to scramble off into completely different places in absolute fear.

    “it‘s only mother meredith everyone! she just wants to say hi!” you heard kai shout as you dashed away. you instinctively pulled soobin along with you to the furthest depths of the school.

    this was a big mistake.

    carefully you stumbled into a room and noticed it was the principal’s office after switching on the lights. you slammed the door shut after soobin entered inside and leaned against the wooden surface letting out heavy gusts of breath from your exhaustion and terror.

    “i’m never agreeing to do this shit ever again.” you huffed out whilst sliding down to crouch on the floor.

    “me too. this was a bad idea.” soobin sighed as he put a hand to his forehead. the silence was nonetheless quite awkward, the only sounds of each other’s heavy breaths were heard, which eventually synchronised with each other.

    you felt the urge to speak up or to say the most random thing just for the fun of it, but he beat you to it.

    “you have to admit this is fun though.” he laughed.

    “yeah, because having an apparent headless nun follow us around the school is so fun!” you reached sarcastically.

    “don’t tell me you actually believe that?” he laughed even harder and you raised up a brow.

    “kai made that act up for sure. i heard him discussing his plan with some of the boys beforehand. but mother meredith was a real person though, she was actually the nun that founded the school.” he confirmed and you almost felt queasy.

    “well now i look like an idiot.”

    “so what was that noise back there then?” you asked curiously.

    “i actually don’t know.” soobin replied, his amused face suddenly dropping at the scary realisation.

    “yeah, maybe we should get out of here. let’s go on a drive.” soobin suggested and you simply agreed. the both of you fleeted out of the premises through the way you originally came in and ran towards the car park.

    the first stop was to grab some late night food and to much of your comfort, it was fast food this time. you ended up enjoying your meal whilst singing to a few songs in the car along with soobin. however, time definitely whizzed by and it was way past your curfew yet you were still out.

    “shit.” you muttered glancing at the time on your phone.

    “you can stay over at mine if you want.”

    the first time he’s ever suggested that. the first time that you would go to his place.

    “is that really okay?”

    ”yeah, it’s no problem at all.”

    upon arriving at his apartment suite, you were definitely impressed by the spontaneous view of the city in the distance he had from up high. you couldn’t believe he would get to come back home to a place like this everyday after school. he told you how his sister had insisted for them to live separately. you could tell soobin wasn’t the most organised and tidiest person in the world though.

    you two managed to just relax with watching a short movie before falling asleep on the sofa together. when waking up the next morning you had almost forgotten you agreed to sleep over at his place. he had a beautiful sleeping face however.

    the position, which you took a while to comprehend, had you in a flustered mess. you were lying closely to him with one hand circled around him and one planted on his chest, then a thought came back to you. you would usually sleep with hugging a pillow, but this time you had an actual person to hug.

    “morning, sleepyhead.” his low voice erupted. the reverberations from his chest caused you to jolt up slightly.

    “i— soobin i think we might be late for school.” you mentioned and he sat up immediately.

    “shit, i don’t even have my school uniform with me.” you whined and he only hushed you by smoothing a subtle kiss on your lips.

    “ew, morning breath.” you said pushing him off and getting up. he only smiled tugging you to sit back down and subsequently you fell down on his lap. his hands circled down around your hips and he rested his head in the crook of neck giving it a light nuzzle with his nose.

    “or we can skip today? that’s probably not a good idea though.” he sighed.

    “yeah. i’m a scholarship student, it’s not good for me to start mucking about.” you said booping his nose lightly and giving it a small kiss. you swivelled around to circle your hands loosely around his neck, his own wound delicately back around you before pulling back into another kiss.

    “wait we aren’t actually late. oh my gosh.” you said as your eyes had lingered up onto the clock on his wall.

    “i’ll quickly drive you to the dorms.” he said grabbing his keys quickly and you both exited the house dashing back down to the school.

    by the time you made it the girls were already having breakfast. you really tried sneaking by the busy table of girls passing each other bowls of fruit and plates of toasts, but like meerkats, all their heads had turned to you. some asking what was going on, some teasing you to stay and explain yourself. you only shoved a piece of toast in your mouth from one of their plates and ran down to your room to get changed rapidly.

    9 - OMG

    it was one of those days where you were accompanying soobin after school to a private swimming session. usually the coach would just be observing and coaching him on the sidelines as you watched it all happen. today, however, the coach couldn’t make it but he insisted for soobin to carry on practice normally since he had fully trusted his best swimmer.

    so it only left you to observe soobin and cheer him on. but something felt wrong today.

    he was swimming at an irregular pace and definitely slower than usual. you just assumed that he was tired and would probably rest at the end of his current lap. once noticing that his body had slowed down even more to almost not moving at all, you stood up from your chair immediately.

    “oh my God.”

    all sirens were ringing in your head to help him right away. luckily, you knew how to swim but the last time you swam was at a holiday resort almost 5 years ago, which wasn’t helpful at all. but you didn’t hesitate running down the aisle of stairs and flinging your blazer to a random row of seats to help him. he was drowning for all you knew.

    quickly you jumped into the pool still fully clothed but you didn’t mind.

    you found yourself swimming closer to him and even more closer until you lifted up his body with your bare arms and swam a little higher up to the surface. it was definitely exhausting to swim with his taller figure towards the edge and haul him up to the poolside with care. you almost thought you would’ve drowned yourself.

    you couldn’t tell if he was breathing or not and you started to panic terribly. after stripping off his goggles, you noticed his eyes were shut and his mouth was slightly perched open.

    “cpr is what comes next.” he speaks up.

    “ah, yes right,” you replied with even more panic and inched your face closer to his.

    “wait a minute…” you stopped yourself midway at realising what had just happened.

    “soobin, what the hell!” you practically screamed.

    you couldn’t even tell if he just faked this whole situation but after noticing the visible smirk on his face you knew it all.

    “that wasn’t even funny. you could’ve passed out… or something even worse.” you murmured gripping his bare shoulder tightly.

    “so you care about me a lot? i see.” he smiled, squishing your cheeks together and you pushed his hands away.

    “of course i do idiot. why wouldn’t i?!” you admitted and he froze upon hearing those words. despite the rather provocative position you guys were currently in, he felt endeared and heart-warmed by your truth.

    “now i got your heart going all erratic.” you smiled whilst putting a finger to his soaked chest and indeed his heart was beating tremendously fast. it was thrumming so violently you could’ve sworn it would’ve leapt out his chest.

    suddenly he gripped your wrist, which hovered over his chest, tightly and leaned his head in closer to kiss you. his other hand curved over to the back of your thighs letting his hands ride up higher than your pleated skirt.

    “that’s for saving my life.” he said and you got off of him and folded your arms still annoyed with his little act. he got up his taller body inched over yours and cornered you until you were standing at the tippy edge of the pool.

    you turned around to look at the pool that was just centimetres away from your footing and before you knew it you were forcefully delving deep into the pool. soon coming in contact with soobin’s clear and cheeky face opposite yours. the both of you swam up to the surface to the more shallower end.

    “i actually cannot believe you. oh my gosh.” you choked out whilst hitting his chest and he combed some of your hair back.

    the both of you ended up in a giggling fit before climbing out of the pool. let’s just say it was very perplexing for some people to see you entering your dorm room with a completely drenched uniform without knowing the context.

    days passed by quicker than expected and you were soon in the same very seats for the swimming gala. the school’s swim team was up against many other competitive schools. you had dragged dani along with you and nadia, who surprising wanted to tag along for some reason. nadia and you had been hanging out a lot more than usual lately and it was strangely nice. she’s still her usual self but she is definitely a bit nicer than before. to be fair, she’s really only nice to the people she tolerates.

    once the relay race commenced you felt yourself screaming to the top of your lungs for your school’s team. and once you it came round to the last person, soobin, to stand on the podium and ready himself you instantly felt your heart thump. of course you were nervous. currently the team was in second place, but you knew soobin could do it. he could turn it around.

    he strapped his goggles on and, seconds later after positioning himself, dived in over kai who had just made it to the end of his race at a good time. your thoughts became right in an instance once you noticed soobin speedily creep up to the first place position then making it past them. you screamed at that point, the two other girls doing so too and cheering him on, and just like that merdium high’s victory came in clutch.

    once making it to the end he looked at the scoreboard and splashed his fists against the water in triumph. he climbed out the pool and you tried to make yourself seen by screaming his name out, and boy did he notice you quickly. you gave him two thumbs up and he only laughed and waved at you so happily.

    you would never forget that extremely happy smile of his that stretched from ear to ear.

    okay, it was safe to say you liked soobin a lot.

    after meeting up with him after the event you treated him to some food of your budget but something good at least, so you did settle for some nice food in a restaurant but not something as exquisite as the one he took you to a while ago.

    “well done for today, you did so well! it’s like when i was watching you i felt so alive, like so pumped up. i don’t know how to explain it.” you said enthusiastically and soobin only pinched lightly onto your cheek.

    “you’re so cute~”

    “i did pray a lot before this so i guess it came handy.” he said.

    “you also worked really hard.” you reminded him.

    “you’re so sweet.” he cooed and you only rolled your eyes, despite your frantic heart beats that were yearning to leap out of your chest.


    it was soon to be the most wonderful time of the year. many of the boarders had decided to return home for the christmas holidays to spend time with their families. although you weren’t looking forward to going back to your hometown and departing from soobin, you really should see your family.

    however, you decided to spend your christmas eve with soobin. with taking you to the same riverside on that night of the party and he was indeed right about how the place looked at christmas time. it was only evening time but the lights were much more colourful and chromatic and there was a tall and brightly decorated christmas tree in the centre of the walkway. it was busier due to the festive time.

    you had a warm insulated cup of hot chocolate your hand, and you bought it from one of the kiosks by the open walkway.

    there was even a cheerful choir singing traditional christmas and festive hymns and much more modern christmas songs as well. as you continued to walk down through the avenue beside soobin, the distinct smell of fresh cinnamon and apple lingered though the air.

    your hands were entwined with his as you both walked to the same place from that night, it was totally a reminiscent. the weather was cold for sure, so you had made sure to wear your woolly hat and a big coat tonight. soobin had worn his own warm coat with a tartan scarf around his neck.

    “you know you never gave me back that denim jacket of mine.” he stated whilst smiling warmly, his cute dimples showing once again.

    “well it’s kind of my jacket now, plus i’m taking it with me back to my hometown for the holidays.” you said sticking out your tongue. you wanted to be with him no matter what, even if it meant taking a belonging of his, you just wanted to be reminded of him whilst you were away for the holidays.

    “so, when are you leaving?” he asked disheartened.

    “i’m leaving… tonight.” you confirmed and he stopped in his footsteps. soobin couldn’t even explain how those words hurt him so much. just the thought of parting from you for more than a day made his heart ache.

    “how about you?” you asked.

    “spending it with my sister here. my parents want to come here though, so we’ll see about that.”

    you had already packed most of your bags yesterday night, and you did really feel sad. it felt like you were leaving behind all the good and bad memories for this term, although you knew you were coming back right after this.

    but you also felt like you were leaving behind soobin.

    “so what do you want for christmas?” soobin asked after taking a sip from his own hot chocolate.

    “to be happy, for real… and also some new trainers probably.” you giggled.

    “happy? what do you mean by that?” he asked curiously.

    “you know… just being happy. i want to be content with life. it just feels like there’s so much i haven’t done. i have so much to fulfil and there’s only just a matter of time.” you sighed.

    “don’t worry we still have a long life ahead of us, we’ll definitely make the most of it in the meantime.” he stated and you completely agreed with him.

    “so what do you want for christmas?” you asked him.

    “to be with you.”

    “i want to be happy as well and i am always at my happiest when i’m with you.” he stated.

    “i like you a lot y/n. and i feel like a fool for not telling you sooner.”

    as soon as those words left his mouth you felt your heart doing somersaults within your chest. your whole body shivered and began to break into a cold sweat. you felt every strained and taut muscle in your body loosen and your face inevitably grew absolutely hot. this was the effect he had on you. you stepped on your tiptoes to give him a kiss on the cheeks with a smiley face, but he neared your lips to connect with his.

    “i also like you a lot soobin and i too feel like a fool for not telling you soon either.”

    “but i’m not going anywhere, i’ll be back before you know it.”

    “that’s what i like to hear… gosh i’m going to miss you so much.” he sighed whilst looking at the river ahead of him then solemnly at his hot drink.

    “me too.” you frowned hugging his waist and he circled his arms around your torso.

    “the first time i noticed you was in church, on a sunday, by the way. not in pshe class. just thought i’d say that.” you spoke and looked up to him, his face contorted in some kind of amusement.

    “i looked good i bet. i always look good for church.”

    “yeah you do, i have to admit.” you confirmed and he stuck his tongue out at you.

    “so this is only just the beginning right?” he asked you.

    “indeed it is.” you said raising your cup of hot chocolate to clink with his. nothing felt better than this. after sipping on the last of your hot drinks you two connected yet again for a final kiss.

    it felt like a true lovers’ parting kiss when kissing so gently by the calming riverside. however, it certainly wasn’t one for parting or saying final goodbyes, because you knew you would be coming back here very soon.

    you knew you would return here to see him and you knew he would be waiting for you right here.

    this kiss was really a true lovers’ sign of affection to an open door leading to a path for flourishing together.

    and with that, you two would step through that door simultaneously and take on that path together.

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  • baekuras
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    While I love that we all have our own versions of Aiden and all the fanworks that come from a character and even just the fact of how much there is from someone we only know from a couple of lines said by Lambert

    When I play the game I do wish we had a canon appearance if only because I got to focus on the way another characters looks and talks etc because there is so much detail in so many parts and if its just the puppy eyes that our dear Witchers are so god damn good at but also just all the little twitches and eye movements etc you can see when Geralt talks/talks to someone

    #the witcher#txts #to be fair i mainly noticed this with geralt lamb and gaetan bc i paid them special attention #but i know human and sorceresses alike have their details in expressions as well #i just think it'd be nice to take all those details in with aiden as well bc i do enjoy whatever the fuck we as the fandom have done withhim #ffs of other characters i can literally remember where their wrinkles and creases are or how they look in a certain moment or little #indents in their skin that arent big monster scars but more like A cat scratched me scars #which i am still surprised by that that shit scars but i guess cat wounds just stick with you
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  • yeonjuns-anti-romantic
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    At first sleeping with Yeonjun didn't seem like a mistake but now that a week has passed you know that it was.

    He was acting weird. The casual bickering turned into silence. The studying together turned into empty seats. The making eye contact in class turned into acting as if you didn't exist.

    And what did you do? You started acting the same way he was acting. No more games of I Hate You But I Want You. This was a new game.

    You Are A Mistake And We Fucked Up.

    Somehow you were fine with that, you know you only hooked up with Yeonjun because you were bored and stressed.

    About to leave your room to go to class, you stopped, finding him outside your door. Immediately you felt yourself getting defensive, "What? I exist now?" Yeonjun ignores your question and walks past you into your room. What the fuck was he doing? You closed your door and turned to him, seeing how he ran his hands through his hair over and over, pushing it back from his eyes. He barely looked at you, glancing away and out your window instead.

    "Hey! What's your problem?", you ask, snapping your fingers at him.

    "You!", Yeonjun snaps and you freeze, startled by his outburst and confused as to why he's so angry, "You're fucking trying to trap me! And if you think getting pregnant will make me be with you you're wrong! We hooked up. You opened your legs like any other girl on campus would and you think because I stuck my dick in you that it means something!"

    So that was it. Yeonjun thought he got you pregnant, he was scared, and being a pretentious asshole about all of it.

    You had to laugh, rolling your eyes, and your laughing didn't improve his mood, a disgusted scoff leaving his lips. "I fucking knew it.", he scowls.

    Deep down it kinda hurt that Yeonjun thought all you wanted was to get knocked up and trap him. He didn't use protection that night in the library closet, both of you weren't really thinking that night about anything but getting off, a momentary distraction from college.

    You didn't like him assuming and hurting you like this so you wanted to hurt him back. That's what you do, right? Someone hurts you, you hurt them back.

    Seeing his lips open to start yelling at you again you take one step towards him, "You fucking idiot!", you snap, cutting him off. Yeonjun shuts up. "You think you're that special?! That fucking you in that closet was anything more than a distraction? You think I'd get pregnant by you? Who are you? You're no one to me, just some guy. You aren't special, Choi Yeonjun!" By now you were fuming and the look in both your eyes and his was nothing but anger. "You're the one who didn't use a condom that night!-"

    "Who was the one saying 'Cum for me!' 'I need to feel you!', Yeonjun yells back.

    You wanted to shove at him but you were both adults and getting physical wasn't a good idea. Honestly you might end up fucking again if you touched him.

    "For your information I'm on the pill!", you retort, "Thanks for asking.", you turned from him to walk to your bathroom and grabbing what you needed from under the sink cabinet.

    Yeonjun was pacing and he stopped when you threw the handful of pads at him, of course they didn't hurt but you were making a point. "If you want I can show you that I currently need these."

    He only looks at you, "You aren't special, Yeonjun.", you tell him again.

    Your hands shook and you pushed your own hair from your eyes. What you didn't see was that what you said actually hurt Yeonjun. But he hurt you first. It was only fair.

    His tongue pokes the inside of his cheek, both of you were struggling with the anger. People probably heard you both fighting. You didn't care and he didn't seem to either.

    "Glad we had this talk. That night was a mistake. Looks like I dodged a bullet.", he tells you, his tone went cold and as he left he had the audacity to wink, keeping up his cocky persona.

    You didn't break down to tears until your door clicked shut behind him. You'll skip class today.

    (No title but I thought it would be nice to continue this.)

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  • raspberrygyus
    22.10.2021 - 2 days ago

    ❛❛ 𝗛𝗢𝗟𝗗 𝗬𝗢𝗨𝗥 𝗕𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗧𝗛 ❜❜ 02 "Cyber Bullying"

    Note: in the fourth screenshot, (the one containing two meme images,) is a little cut-off, but the top image is sent by Sooji and the bottom image is sent by Soobin. Sorry for the inconvenience!

    Masterlist << previous | next >>

    taglist @msxflower, @mykalon, @softforqiankun, @freckledquokka, @yougeans, @kac-chowsballs, @e3teungie

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  • seungstarss
    22.10.2021 - 2 days ago

    𝐁 𝐄 𝐓 ≛ 14 sexual tension??


    ⇦ previous | next ⇨

    SYNOPSIS. after jake takes a new liking to his friend's diligent liberal arts partner, he decides to start a bet with his friends. "lets play a game. whoever can win her heart gets anything, anything they want."

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  • raspberrygyus
    21.10.2021 - 2 days ago


    Note: the conversation with Jake takes place two days after the conversation with Sooji. At this point in time, y/n is in her third year.

    Masterlist << previous | next >>

    taglist @msxflower, @mykalon, @softforqiankun

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  • soo8inz
    21.10.2021 - 2 days ago

    two — "is she like a vampire or something?"

    loud laughter and the sound of a resounding 'smack!' was what had disturbed beomgyu out of sleep. refusing to open his eyes he just ignored the noise and turned over to a new position, willing himself to fall back asleep. unfortunately, with the ever growing noise volume in his shared dorm, he couldn't.

    he still refused to get out of bed though.

    beomgyu was still extremely tired, and even if he couldn't fall asleep he was still going to rest his body.

    without opening his eyes he blindly searched for his phone on his bed. it was in his pocket when he had arrived and fallen asleep, so it probably slipped out and was on the bed. or maybe it was on the floor. he did have a habit of moving a lot in his sleep.


    "shit i really slept in. eh it's ok i don't have anything important to do anyways."

    it was friday, and while he didn't technically have the day off on his school schedule, the one class he did have was cancelled in advance by the professor since they had things to do. to him, it just meant he had more time to either work or do whatever he wanted. luckily, he had finished everything he needed to submit or have ready yesterday, so he planned to just relax.

    at least that was the plan before kai and taehyun burst into his room. really, at that point they should've just broken the door off its hinges with the amount of force they used to get into his room.

    "dude i saw a ghost in the art building last night!"

    "you're just delusional and sleep deprived, kai."

    "you're only saying that because you didn't see it!"

    "no, i'm saying that because i'm the only logical person in this friend group."

    "says the guy who bought a pet snake instead of our groceries!"

    "don't bring aengdu into this!"

    beomgyu just wanted some peace, but apparently that was too much to ask for from the universe.

    "shut up already, what did you even come in here for anyways?", at that kai's eyes lit up when beomgyu spoke up and he made himself comfortable next to him on his bed. meanwhile taehyun rolled his eyes, preparinf himself to hear kai's "ridiculous" story once again.

    "ok so this is what happened, i went into the art building to look for the people that were helping with our props–"

    "props? what kind of props are you getting from the art department??"

    "just some extra stuff, listen that's not important right now–"

    "well it certainly is considering you never set foot in there."

    "the theatre department needed some extra frames for their next show and there were some other students that specialize in ceramics and sculptures that said they'd help out.", taehyun answered before kai could shut down beomgyu again.

    "another show, why didn't you say anything?"

    "dude the show's not what's important right now, what's actually important is that i saw a fucking ghost in the painting studio!!!"

    "that wasn't a ghost kai.", yeonjun walked in to the already sort of crowded bedroom.

    "that was y/n, she tends to work a lot during the night when the studios are empty."

    this was the first beomgyu had ever heard of this. yeah sometimes was in the studio after hours, hell sometimes he spend entire nights there and he'd greet some of the staff that came in early.

    "who would willingly spend the night painting in an empty studio, all creepy like.", kai commented and shivered.

    "don't you literally go into the theatre after hours, you're all creepy like too kai.", taehyun retorted.

    "so... is she like a vampire or something?"

    "how did you go from ghost to vampire that quickly?", yeonjun shook his and beomgyu furrowed his eyebrows in disbelief.

    truly, kai's mind was something else sometimes.

    "i mean think about it, if beomgyu knew her he'd have seen her around by now don't you think? also spending a lot of nights in a super dark building where there's barely any people? sounds like a vampire to me."

    "wow next thing you know you'll be making assumptions that yeji from our communications course can shapeshift into a cat."

    sometimes beomgyu's friends were full of it. i mean, vampires? shapeshifters? ghosts?

    "she's not a vampire kai."

    "maybe she's hiding it. also again, beomgyu has never seen her.", he snapped his fingers as if this was the only evidence that made his claims the truth.

    "beomgyu also specializes in photography and digital media, y/n specializes in traditional media. obviously he's most likely never seen her.", taehyun rolled his eyes as if that was the most obvious answer in the world.

    he was right. how could he be expected to remember everyone's faces when they didn't share any courses together, and it had been two years since beomgyu had set foot in the painting studio. aside from that, there were multiple painting studios too.

    "whatever, i still think she's a vampire.", kai huffed and once again, taehyun rolled his eyes.

    beomgyu wasn't intrigued.

    well, maybe a tiny bit. but mainly because yeonjun knew who she was, and yeonjun didn't really ever set foot in the art building.

    "she's not a vampire, but she does have a lot of occult art pieces. especially vampire art. she used me as a reference once for a painting."

    beomgyu should really start paying attention more to the art around him because he had no idea what he was talking about. surely he would remember if someone had presented occult art for the university's shows.

    maybe he'll try finding the paintings when he goes back to the studio, they must still be up considering it's an art building. and some artwork from previous alumni are still up on the walls.

    "yeah that's a good idea.", he thought to himself before tuning back in to whatever his friends had started talking about next.

    taglist: @junniesavidreader @gyuuss

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  • pr0dbeomgyu
    21.10.2021 - 3 days ago


    **✿❀LINE 15: FALLING❀✿**

    a/n: short update before i go for vacation <3 leave feedbacks lovelies i thrive on words acgevhj

    after 15 minutes of walk, taehyun and y/n finally arrived home.

    "now what?" taehyun asked.

    "let's just see if we left any of the windows open," y/n suggested.

    covering the perimeter of the house, y/n sighed when she found none of the windows were left open.

    exhausted, she went to the backyard and ended up lying down on the grass, eyes up on the night sky.

    "what are you doing?" she heard taehyun's steps approaching her.

    "im too tired, i dont have the strength to do anything anymore," she whined.

    hearing rustling sounds, her eyes widened when they met taehyuns' when she turned her head to the side. she didnt expect him to imitate her actions, especially when the grass was wet, uncomfortably pricking all over her back.

    "you didnt have to join me, you know,"

    "trying to hoard the beautiful view all by yourself?" referring to the sky full of stars, taehyun teased her.

    "bitch," y/n chuckled.


    "wait, whoa was that a shooting star?" it was taehyun.

    "no, i think that was a satellite,"

    "oh, really," taehyun sounded a bit dejected.

    they had been spending almost an hour under the sky, with taehyun pointing out random constellations, asking y/n to name it. they were in luck, the sky was very clear that night.

    "why? you wanna wish upon them or something?"

    "no, i was just asking. why should i anyways, i already have everything i want right now," he scoffed.

    "so why did u choose astronomies, y/n," taehyun asked, his eyes still glued to the sky in front of him. his hands were already at the back of his head, supporting it.

    "i mean, isnt THAT enough reason?" y/n smiled, her eyes turned into little crescents with her nose slightly scrunching, motioning towards the stars spread above them.

    "anyone seeing you right now would say you're in love or something," he commented, stealing a glance at her.


    @gyuuss @btxtreads @terrytaehyunnies @miraculyfe @yoonkeehoe @derinxfam @snowfalltxt @taehyunsfel @letmeal0ne @cosmiclele @247byun @cerisetalks @meowtella @shrutiajit @msxflower @lomlyeonjun @lokideadontheinside @arminandjeanandannieandhange @nycol-ie @00-baejin-05 @summery-bat @txtville @wkhdery @stray-bi-kids @mintbgyu @she-is-dreaming @junniesavidreader @sunflowerbebe07 @simpforscoups @multi4lifer @beomjundiaries @whoe-dis @ahnneyong @kac-chowsballs @bucket05 @iyeonjuni @beomsun @day6andetcetera @beomgyuanti @wh4txium1n @carolnina55 @youreverydayzebra @nshitae @milkycloudtyg @soobsdior @roseless1213


    if there's anything y/n's good at, it's differentiating her feelings between love or hate. it's so distinct, she really doesn't get it when people say they have mixed feelings about something, cause to her, love is LOVE and hate is, well... HATE. LOVE is like her feelings for prodsputnik, an anonymous soundcloud artist she adores which she may or may not have a stan account for. HATE is like her feelings towards her roommate, kang taehyun. she even claimed that researchers are bullshitting when they say there's a thin line between hate and love. but what if y/n figures out that prodsputnik and kang taehyun is the same person? will the line between love and hate stay thick and clear as fuck (y/n's words) to y/n or will it get blurry?

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  • yeonjuns-anti-romantic
    20.10.2021 - 3 days ago

    Your breaths were almost coming in gasps as your heart goes faster, excitement filling your eyes as adrenaline courses through your veins. This wasn't something you ever thought you would do but now it was happening. Maybe you were a sucker for a pretty face, the way his lips pouted, the way his hair fell in his eyes, the way he knew what he was doing when his tongue darted out to lick his lips.

    And maybe you were just lonely and stressed and wanting a distraction.

    Well, now the distraction was here and his name was Choi Yeonjun.

    What started out as recognizing each other from class and crossing paths in the college library turned into studying together and joking and bickering has now turned to the two of you in the library closet making out and grabbing at each other with so much need it was like you were going to kill each other.

    "You're so annoying sometimes.", you remind him, your hand in his hair and tugging at the nape as his stupid pouty lips kissed at your neck, nipping at your skin with a chuckle. "Am I?", he asks, amused, his hand had long ago went under your hoodie to grope at your bare breast, your nipples were at attention under his touch.

    "It's no secret you never wear a bra or anything under this hoodie...", Yeonjun hums against your skin as his hand slowly trails down your stomach and you feel your muscles tense up in anticipation, your legs opened on instinct, "But do you wear panties under these shorts?"

    Tugging his head back from you a moment so you can look at him, Yeonjun's eyes were dark, his lids lazy with want, you could see sweat prickling on his forehead from being in a hot and cramped closet with you. You were both in your twenties but sneaking around like a couple of teenagers. "Fuck around and find out.", you challenge him with a smirk of your own, giving the back of his hair a tug again.

    Yeonjun responds with a quiet growl from you pulling his hair and rolling his eyes. His slender but firm hand tugs down your shorts and you couldn't hold in the gasp of your bare ass on the little wooden table you were currently on hitting your skin.

    Watching his eyes grow even more hungry, Yeonjun puts his hands on your knees to hold your legs apart, you had pulled at his shirt so much while making out it was ripped and his collarbone was exposed in the dim light, your eyes drifted there a moment while he looks down at you, seeing you bare and without underwear as he had guessed.

    Neither of you were self-conscious, driven only by a need for each other so there was no room to be shy. Seeing each other every day, being so close, bickering, every day the tension has led to this moment and now both of you have a point to make. I hate you and I want you and you're stupid so just fuck me.

    "You know, they say men can never find the clit.", the words came out almost as a chuckle, he was so sure of himself, and right after that sentence left his lips he pressed two of his fingers directly to your sensitive bud, "But I know exactly where that special little button is.", he grins at you.

    As soon as he touched you your body tensed up in a delicious way, the back of your head gently hit the closet wall as you pushed your hips forward and against his fingers.

    "You may have found it, but do you know how to play with it?", you tease, trying to hold onto your fight, challenging him.

    Yeonjun was winning and he knew it.

    His fingers were circling, his tongue darting out to lick his lips as his face was so close to yours, watching as you were submitting to him.

    Just as your hips were moving into rhythm with his fingers he winks at you, flicking your clit and covering your mouth with his other hand to quieten the little moan that left your lips. Every reaction made him grin but you saw how badly he wanted to bury himself inside you, the thought of Yeonjun filling and stretching you made you shiver as you clenched around nothing as he toyed with your clit.

    "Shh, baby.", he coos, his middle finger dipped down to stroke your slit and after one stroke his finger found you wet, glistening for him, his slender fingers massaging you. "I can feel your little pussy wanting me so bad, hm?", he whispers, taking his hand away from your mouth so he could kiss you. You moaned into his mouth, desperately trying to sink one of his fingers inside you.

    "Stupid...Fuck...", your hand reached between the both of you, palming him over his sweats to feel how hard he was, enjoying seeing you so desperate. Unable to help yourself, you gave his length a squeeze, feeling it throb again your hand.

    Yeonjun hissed, sinking his middle and ring finger into you and as much as you hate to admit it, the feeling made your toes curl, your hand falling away from him as your fingers curled into your palms.

    "I can't imagine how my cock is gonna fit of you're this tight around two of my fingers.", he boasts and as much as you wanted to roll your eyes you had to admit that what you felt when you squeezed him you knew he was going to fill you completely.

    Biting your lower lip, he touches the side of your face, his thumb tugging your lip from your teeth and you lock eyes with him, sucking his thumb into your month, nipping at it.

    Yeonjun looks down at you, clearly pleased, his fingers fucking you, feeling you get wetter and listening to you try to hold back whining around his thumb.

    He takes his thumb from your mouth, pushing back his sweaty hair to gaze down at you, "You know, I don't like you either, little dummy.", he reminds you, playing this game that you both played of I Hate You But I Want You.

    You grinned, curling your finger at him, "Then fuck me. Here. In this stupid closet."

    Once again the both of you were in a hurry, tugging and pulling at the last bits of fabric that separated the both of you and when Yeonjun pushed inside and you took all of him you knew that tonight the both of you would be completely satisfied.

    (For anyone who's discovered this now, there's more to this untitled writing.)

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  • restlessmaknae
    20.10.2021 - 3 days ago

    masterlist ✦ txt

    angst [🌪]  fluff [☀]  action [♦]  comforting [♥]


    ✒ to the blue secret slumbering within 🌪 ♥

    MY CASSETTE PLAYER :: a song-inspired txt series → navigation

    ✒ i liked you so much, we lost it → best friend!Soobin x reader/you 🌪

    ✒ under your spell → high school student!Hueningkai x classmate!reader/you ☀

    ✒ sunshine through the clouds → best friend!Taehyun x reader/you ♥

    ✒ storm & rain shower → boyfriend!Yeonjun x reader/you ☀

    ✒ for you, i’d bear the pain → chaebol!Beomgyu x reader/you 🌪


    ✒ blue is the sky you paint onto my canvas ☀

    ✒ love is no rocket science ☀

    ✒ camp hybe ☀


    ✒ the song that connects us ♥ ☀


    ✒ burgundy & azure 🌪 ♦ ♥

    ✒ our scintilla bloomed 🌪 ♥


    ✒ mint choco ♥ 🌪

    ✒ crimson & cobalt 🌪 ♦ ♥

    ✒ building bridges 🌪 ♦ ☀ ♥

    ✒ just like magnetic poles 🌪 ♥

    ✒ messy hearts, messy chords 🌪 ♥

    #txt #tomorrow x together #txt x reader #tomorrow x together x reader #txt masterlist#txt scenarios#txt imagines#txt fluff#txt angst#txt action #tomorrow x together masterlist #tomorrow x together scenarios #tomorrow x together imagines #tomorrow x together angst #tomorrow x together fluff #tomorrow x together action #txt fanfiction#txt ff #tomorrow x together fanfiction #tomorrow x together ff #kpop masterlist
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  • raspberrygyus
    20.10.2021 - 4 days ago

    ❛❛ 𝗛𝗢𝗟𝗗 𝗬𝗢𝗨𝗥 𝗕𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗧𝗛 ❜❜ 0.5 prologue

    September. The month when people bid farewell to fond memories of summer and embraced the season of harvest. Although coincidentally, it was also the month when educators welcomed students back into the classroom.

    From the day she got her schedule for her second year at university, y/n knew it was going to be a pain. Although she had picked no electives during her first year, she was told that she needed to pick one to satisfy her graduation requirements. The counsellor who helped with her scheduling told her it was better to have that done and out of the way before her third- and fourth-year rolled around. That way, it would lessen her workload for heavier courses, and she took that advice to heart.

    Her two friends, Sooji and Soobin, whom she had met in her first year at the university, were also in a similar situation and decided that they would all take the same course to help each other out. Sooji, the resident law student in their group, suggested that they all take entry-level criminology. Though both y/n and Soobin had reservations, the three of them agreed and reworked their schedule to accommodate the new course load.

    That was nearly two months ago.

    Fast forward to the first week of classes. y/n already felt like she was going to hate this schedule.

    However, that week, she had also met Minho Lee. He was the professor in charge of the entry-level criminology class that she had taken, along with her two friends, Sooji and Soobin.

    By the next week, she had already figured out what kind of professor he was: a hard marker, (far more than her other classes,) but an extremely dedicated person who made sure that students who had trouble with his classes were not left confused.

    This class that they had taken also came with a tutorial session—that was where she, along with the rest of the students, met the teaching assistant. Heeseung was, like professor Lee, very accommodating and overall friendly with the students.

    Despite her busy schedule, y/n did well in all of her second-year classes, and without realizing it, a year had passed by.

    Before she knew it, y/n was sitting with her education counsellor, planning her schedule for third-year. This time, she was taking more specialized classes that were available to her, and she left the counsellor’s office feeling relatively relieved—at least for the time being.

    Sooji had told y/n beforehand that she was going to be taking more specialized law classes, and the three of them wouldn’t be able to have a lot of time together like the years before. Soobin, being the resident psychology major, kept on taking his courses as usual.

    The three friends promised to meet up now and then to unwind, knowing that they would become busier following the start of the new semester.

    y/n had a good feeling about her future. Her third year was just around the corner, and she was prepared. She wasn’t worried—after all; she had a whole life ahead of her.

    However, what she didn’t count on was the appearance of one unpredictable variable, and before she could make sense of what happened to her, it thrust her into a world of chaos.

    And it all started with one package sitting on her doorstep.

    Just one.


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  • pr0dbeomgyu
    19.10.2021 - 4 days ago


    **✿❀LINE 14: CUTE❀✿**

    "he's not answering and leaving me on read," taehyun finally said, after calling beomgyu at least 5 times.

    "maybe he's tired of you already, you can be such a handful, you know. let me try reaching ryu," she stifled a laugh.

    "uh, ryu's not replying either," y/n squeaked, certain that taehyun's gonna use her words against her.

    oh you're so dead ryujin

    "i guess she's tired of you too, y/n. you can be such a handful, you know," he scoffed, repeating her exact words.

    "so, when does your shift end?" taehyun finally asked, after a moment of awkward silence.

    "around 45 minutes? i just remembered it's a closing shift," she replied, sighing in defeat.

    "okay, i'll wait," taehyun said, making his way towards the nearest table.

    "what? you sure? you dont have to, you know,"

    "yeah, i dont really have anywhere to go either," he shrugged.

    "if you say so,"

    it was a really hectic shift that y/n's knees buckled after standing behind the counter too long, merely managing to stop herself from falling by placing her hands as support on the counter. taehyun's eyes never really left her figure, so he was already beside her seconds after it happened, placing his hands firmly on each side of her arm.

    "you should sit first, y/n. i'll help you clean up the shop,"

    y/n wanted to stop him and ask why is he acting weird, but she doesnt have the energy to.

    closing the shop, y/n sighed in relief, turning her body to face taehyun.

    "thanks taehyun," she said quietly, which taehyun just responded with a nod.

    the walk home was fairly quiet and pretty cold, but none of them really paid any mind to it, until taehyun saw y/n rubbing her hands together, in hope of any heat she can get. wordlessly, he took her right hand with his left hand, shoving them in the pocket of his jacket.

    ignoring the way her heart did a somersault, she kept silent, not trusting herself to even form a sentence at the sudden gesture.

    "dont get any wrong idea, i just figured we could share the hotpack,"

    sure enough, there's a hotpack in his pocket.

    "i didnt say anything," she shrugged.

    "y-yeah, i mean well- okay," y/n didnt expect him to stutter, and she finds it very adorable. throwing her head back looking at the night sky, she laughed at his flustered state, completely missing the little smile tugging on taehyun's lips as his eyes landed on her.



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    if there's anything y/n's good at, it's differentiating her feelings between love or hate. it's so distinct, she really doesn't get it when people say they have mixed feelings about something, cause to her, love is LOVE and hate is, well... HATE. LOVE is like her feelings for prodsputnik, an anonymous soundcloud artist she adores which she may or may not have a stan account for. HATE is like her feelings towards her roommate, kang taehyun. she even claimed that researchers are bullshitting when they say there's a thin line between hate and love. but what if y/n figures out that prodsputnik and kang taehyun is the same person? will the line between love and hate stay thick and clear as fuck (y/n's words) to y/n or will it get blurry?

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  • raspberrygyus
    18.10.2021 - 5 days ago


    The professor at the university who teaches the entry-level criminology class that Y/N, Sooji, and Soobin take. He's a hard marker, but a brilliant lecturer. He takes pride in making sure that all his students do well in his class and helping those who struggle. An overall favourite (and recommended) among students.


    The teaching assistant for professor Minho's class. Currently working to get his Ph.D. in criminology. He's currently teaching to pay off his student debt and lives in a studio apartment.


    Fresh out of the police academy, Yeonjun is a determined person who has a strong sense of both justice and loyalty. He is the younger brother of the local police captain. He's not exactly close with his older brother, but the two do have a working relationship.

    Captain Choi

    Yeonjun's older brother. A dependable man who does his job as the captain of the local precinct. He's a little awkward around his younger brother but did help him get his job.


    The star of the local precinct. He's a young but smart detective sergeant who helped solve a few cold cases after he was brought into the precinct. Was promoted to his current position within 2 years. He is very dedicated to this job and will follow through on cases he's made lead investigator on.


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  • raspberrygyus
    18.10.2021 - 6 days ago


    A third year university student who lives a pleasantly mundane life. Likes binging TV shows and organizing movies nights with her friends. Best friends with Jake since before high school. An overall friendly individual who is doing well in school with all things considered.


    A fourth-year music/composition major who works part-time at a studio with a friend/co-worker, Jay. Though a small name in the music industry, his music does gain a fair amount of recognition.


    A third-year law university student who’s been friends with Y/N since first year. She can be rather blunt and will always speak her mind if the situation permits. Though she’s dead-set on becoming a lawyer, she can be quite funny at times, too. Quite taken with professor Lee.


    Another third-year university student who befriended both Sooji and Y/N in first year. He, however, is the exact opposite of Sooji in terms of personality—often preferring to avoid conflicts and has a soft approach to things.


    A third-year liberal arts major who transferred from another university. A former prospective Olympic swimmer, he was scouted to take part in the Olympics but because of an accident, he can no longer swim competitively.


    A composer and producer who owns his own studio—the same one that Jake works part-time at. Despite looking a little edgy, Jay is a very soft-hearted individual. Despite his passion for making music, he was fitted with a pacemaker from a young age because of his frail heart, so he takes precautions to make sure that what he’s producing doesn’t hurt him.


    Jake's cousin. A child prodigy who picked up the violin when he was young. Currently, the first violin in the Seoul Symphony Orchestra. Sunoo grew up alongside both Jake and Y/N and constantly visits them when he’s not touring.

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  • raspberrygyus
    18.10.2021 - 6 days ago


    ▾ PARING(S) skz/enhypen/txt x fem! reader

    ▾ GENRE social media au, stalker au, thriller, angst, gore, mystery, suspense

    ▾ SYNOPSIS y/n is a girl who lives a mundane life as a university student. however, things started to deviate from her sense of normalcy—gifts start arriving at her door, creepy messages bombard her phone, and the constant feeling that she's being watched. she enlists the help of her best friend, jake, and as time passes, both of them realize that this is the work of an obsessive stalker with a motive.

    time is running out and things are spiring out of control—will y/n be able to take back the life she once had?

    ▾ WARNINGS contains elements of gore, on- and off-screen abuse, torture, mental illness, stalking, and themes not suitable for all ages. (readers discretion is advised) each chapter will have a specific warning.

    ▾ FEATURING stray kids members, enhypen members, txt members (crossover)

    ▾ STATUS ongoing

    ▾ NOTES

    ↳ please note/ keep in mind that these are NOT the actual representations of the idols
    ↳ ages of members are adjusted for convenience


    profile 01 | profile 02


    Prologue 01 "WHAT'S YOUR PROF SMOKING?" 02 “Cyber Bullying”


    taglist @msxflower, @mykalon, @softforqiankun, @freckledquokka, @yougeans, @kac-chowsballs, @e3teungie

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  • mochi-baby-xoxo
    17.10.2021 - 6 days ago


    FEMALE!READER X KANG TAEHYUN (TXT) AGEPLAY (BABYING) also this one isn't very much smut it's a lot of fluff

    You find it absolutely adorable whenever Taehyun asks you if the two of you can play on the play structure near your shared apartment in downtown San Francisco, whenever he wants the two of you to play a little game of hide-and-seek or decorate your friend’s house for their birthdays. It's something you've always found endearing, something sweet, at how he likes to keep his childhood as close to him as possible. And you've always just kind of rolled with it, seen how things go. Things never really came up about it until one day when he asked you a question that… shocked you, to say the least.

    “Y/N, this is honestly a really awkward question for me to ask, but can we maybe try something new tonight? I mean, like- we normally resort to bondage but could we maybe try… age play?”

    You're stunned into silence for a few seconds while you mentally process what Taehyun just asked you. “Uh, yeah, sure! I mean… what did you have in mind? I've always found it pretty cute when you just act a little childish but what else did you have in mind?”

    “I don't really know,” he says, letting his head rest on your shoulder. “Maybe you just really baby me for a bit?”

    “I think I can do that, yeah,” you reply, grinning. Little does Taehyun know that you already have a thousand ideas running through your head, starting right at that very moment.

    And so, after the movie ended, you had Taehyun’s form pinned underneath you, your hands resting above his shoulders and your knees straddling his waist. “You look tired, baby. Do you want me to tell you a story?” Taehyun nods, smiling. You shift your weight to pet his cheek gently and begin forming bits and pieces of a story together in your mind before weaving them into words. “Once, there was a little boy who swore to his best friend that they would get married one day. But the little boy’s friend said they couldn't. So his friend told him: ‘don't you get it? You're a prince, you're supposed to marry a princess, not me.’ The prince was stunned, why couldn't he marry whoever he wanted to? So what if he wanted to marry his best friend, someone he had known since the two of them were just children playing together in the palace gardens, maybe fighting with wooden swords made from scraps at the carpenter’s shop or pretending to slay dragons in the knight’s training rooms… things every child should do.” You pause to adjust your arms so that you're resting on your elbows. Taehyun is so close to you that you can see the stars in his eyes and feel his silent breaths tickling your face. “One day, the prince went to his parents, the king and queen of the kingdom, and asked them why he couldn't marry his friend. When his parents heard this, they were astounded. ‘You will never marry him!’ His mother said, the color drained from her face. ‘Why would you ever say something like that, son!’ His father said. ‘You are to marry a princess, not a knight!’ And the prince didn't understand until he spoke to the palace diviner, who calmly explained that in the kingdom he lived in, boys had to marry girls, they couldn't marry other boys. The prince ran back to his room where he began crying, crying so much that he cried himself to sleep. He swore that one day he would make things right, make it so that in his kingdom, people could marry whoever. And so, sixteen years later, once the laws had been changed and celebrations had happened, the prince- now a king- was standing on the altar, awaiting his true love, his friend since the beginning. They were married and lived happily ever after.” You coo when Taehyun yawns sleepily below you, his eyes drifting closed. “Awe, baby, I haven't even gotten a kiss yet!”

    “Sorry, Y/N. It was just a beautiful story and it made me really sleepy.” was

    “Don't apologize, Taehyun. If anything, I'm flattered.” He leans up and smiles, kissing you gently. Before long, you’re making out with him passionately while he’s pinned under you, grinding up into your crotch pathetically and whining like a bitch in heat, making you grin. “You want me?”

    “Mhm…” he continues gently kissing your lips as you’re talking to him, not letting you get a single moment without his lips coming into contact with yours, even just for a fraction of a second.

    “Well then, I should just give my baby boy what he wants, shouldn’t I?”


    word count: 802 words

    totally thought this was in my queue oops

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  • pr0dbeomgyu
    17.10.2021 - 6 days ago


    **✿❀LINE 12: EXCITED❀✿**

    warnings: suggestive if you squint really hard (skip if uncomfy)

    in the span of 2 months, y/n and taehyun had progressed from enemies to acquaintances. the hate between them seems to have decreased gradually as they spent more time under one roof. they can now at least see each other's faces without throwing shades and actually wish good mornings and good nights (y/n claimed this as a progress), and that's why y/n almost flipped out when she saw taehyun shooting daggers at her the first thing in the morning, without any reason AT ALL and ignored her good morning wish.

    i thought we're way past that already?

    "im sleeping at beomgyu's tonight," he said without even sparing a glance at her.

    "i'll be inviting ryujin then,"

    "okay what ever, i dont really care,"

    "what the hell is wrong with you?" y/n snapped, they sounded exactly like when they were talking to each other for the first time, and she didnt like it, not even one bit.


    "you know what? what ever. it's not even worth it," y/n stomped to her room.

    y/n's waiting for ryujin to arrive, taehyun already long gone, at least that's what she thought. so she walked around the house with just her oversized white tee and her panties. i mean, when else can she wear the most comfortable clothes in the world, right? ending up with an ice cream tub in one hand, and a novel on the other, y/n sprawled comfortably across the couch.

    about an hour in, she jumped into a standing position when she suddenly heard taehyun's door creaked open. you see, the living room and taehyun's room is just three steps away and that's why y/n didnt have enough time to bolt to her room and it certainly didnt help when she acted like a deer caught in the headlights, freezing in her track completely.

    "why are you still here?" she asked after a few seconds of silence, taehyun now standing in front of her, seeming unable to move completely too.

    "that beomgyu shithead forgot to pick me.....up," y/n suddenly felt very self-aware now, after noticing how taehyun eyed her up, from her bare legs, trailing up and slightly stopping at her chest.

    "stop staring, you pervert," y/n exclaimed, her hands automatically went to block her chest from his view.

    suddenly aware of his action, taehyun cleared his throat, eyes wandering everywhere except on the girl in front of him.

    "there's not even much to see," he said, trying to act like he didnt just ogle at her a few seconds ago.

    "well, i dont think your friend there agree with you," pointing at taehyun's growing bulge, she left to her room snickering.

    'fuck' taehyun inhaled sharply.

    right before y/n closed her door, she heard beomgyu barging into the house, chuckling at taehyun's state.

    "someone's a little excited," beomgyu had teased him, causing y/n to double over, laughing.

    "WHAT? YOU FLASHED HIM?" ryujin asked.

    she had finally arrived, now sitting on the couch facing each other, just gossiping.

    "I did not dumbass!"

    "technically, you did. that white shirt is like- see through," ryujin said in a matter of fact way, munching on her chips.

    "NO IT'S NOT, OKAY AT THIS POINT YOU'RE JUST EXAGGERATING," y/n laughed as her hands went to ryujin's laps, slapping them playfully.

    later that night, y/n had shoved the white shirt deep under her wardrobe, changing into a blue one, not wanting to go through such embarrassing moments anymore.



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    if there's anything y/n's good at, it's differentiating her feelings between love or hate. it's so distinct, she really doesn't get it when people say they have mixed feelings about something, cause to her, love is LOVE and hate is, well... HATE. LOVE is like her feelings for prodsputnik, an anonymous soundcloud artist she adores which she may or may not have a stan account for. HATE is like her feelings towards her roommate, kang taehyun. she even claimed that researchers are bullshitting when they say there's a thin line between hate and love. but what if y/n figures out that prodsputnik and kang taehyun is the same person? will the line between love and hate stay thick and clear as fuck (y/n's words) to y/n or will it get blurry?

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  • mikimeguk
    17.10.2021 - 6 days ago

    meant to be | KTH

    “Come on Tae, just one dance, I promise please!” She had gotten up from the bar stool and began tugging at his arm.

    He had rolled his eyes and tried not to show how easily he gave into her but that was opposed by how he let himself he dragged onto the dance floor

    She led them into the crowd of people as he laughed, the music was blaring and the flashing lights seemed to slow down and focus on the pair as she threw her arms around his neck and pulled him into a kiss, for what was mer seconds felt like an eternity to watch.

    You noticed how they looked absolutely perfect for eachother, he was clad in a plain white sweater fit to his neck while she wore a sparkling pink top that caught the attention of of anyone passing, what a sight for sore eyes.

    “Wow this party fucking sucks” you finally gathered the courage to peel yours eyes off the couple, looking down at your half drunken cup.

    You never knew Taehyun liked the more outgoing, extroverted type until you saw them together.

    All the stay at home nights, movies in the lounge until dawn, wine game weekends and barely ever going out.

    The kisses shared at home, the hugs, the laughs, although you never made him laugh with his head thrown back and mouth ajar like she has right now.

    You never got the twinkle in his eye he has now as he stares at her dancing her heart out and having fun.

    Who could blame him, she was gorgeous, life of the party if you will.

    You stared down at your drink and thought about how boring it must’ve been for him.

    “Not everything is meant to be I guess” with tears almost brimming at your eyes you left your cup at the bar table and left.

    You couldn’t help but feel like he was the one for you when you weren’t the one for him.

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