"Ugh, I've got a total size kink; I just go weak in the knees when he wear those kind of Jeans that emphasize his big and long shaft" you said talking with your bestfriend inside the library.This is the only quiet place you both talk kinky and dirty stuffs without a lot of people hearing.No one often hang out there every break time that's why you guys decided to hangout there often.
"Sadly Beomgyu's already taken and we can't do anything about it" you sadly said making you bestfriend feel sad too.You have been virgin since you were born and if you're going to lose it,That boy should be Beomgyu."Have you seen his muscles too he look so hot,I can't" your bestfriend exaggerated and you laugh at how funny she is.She didn't lie tho knowing Beomgyu always visit the gym it won't be shocking if he have a muscle and a big dick too.
"Oh I remembered I still have things to do and tonight I'm not going home to our dorms" You teasingly smile to your bestfriend who playfully smack your shoulder."Wear protection okay?" you give her an okay sign and she replied with an okay too.
You decided to look around the library looking at the old books that was barely touched and already been covered by dust.You saw a book that you think will be interesting and took it,to your surprise you meet eyes with Beomgyu who's also took a book from the other side of the shelf.
"Oh Hi!" he awkwardly waved to you and you smiled."Hello" he looked away making you lose sight of him.He surprised you from the back making you drop the book you're holding.You gently bend down to pick it and decided to look back to peek at Beomgyu,but you are flustered to see him look down and you followed where he is looking realising that you accidentally hit his crotch area.Making you blush hard and you earned a chuckle from him.
"I heard you both" you straighten your body and look at him confused."What do you mean?" Beomgyu smirked thinking that you're Pretending not to know but in fact you really don't know."You both are talking about my dick" you cleared you throat you badly wanted to explode right now."Well that-" he cut you off by smashing his lips into yours.You close your eyes enjoying the moment of your first kiss from him.He bite your lower lip making you groan from the slight pain."This will be the last time you'll talk about my dick inside this library,from now on you'll talk about how good I am to satisfy you" he breath out earning a small nod from you,he suddenly took a fistful of your hair and slammed your head onto the shelf making you look at him."Answer me" He said quite mad and you obeyed."Yes Beomgyu I won't talk about it anymore" he chuckled and started kissing your neck while un buttoning your school blouse.
He unbuckled his belt too and when he was going to kiss you again.You both heard some students talking at the other side of the shelf and except of kissing you he decided to cover your mouth shushing you."Don't be loud if you don't want to get caught" he quietly said to you and you nod.He pulled out his now hard shaft and you widen your eyes on how huge it is.Yes you expected it to be that huge but not this huge.He also took off his shirt and to your surprise you are right he have great muscles and you swear to your bestfriend she was right about it.He slowly inserted his dick inside of you and you wrap your arms around him on how painful it is.He let you get used to him inside you before slowly moving.
"Don't worry y/n I'll be gentle knowing it's your first" he whispered into your eyes and gently kisses your earlobe.After he felt that you got used to it he decided to move.He can feel a drop of blood stream onto your legs but he didn't mine.It's a sign anyway that finally he earns your first that he himself is been dreaming too.His thrust becomes more faster and you both are catching your breaths."Fuck" he swears lowly onto your ear making you feel more turned on.He thrusted again making you moan making it unnoticeable knowing he is still covering your mouth.Another more thrust and you filt his cock twitch inside of you.You rolled your eyes because of too much satisfaction.You never know it will be this good."I'm near" he said and soon enough he pulled out making you feel empty.You cum together with him too.Cum spread around the wooden floor of the library and both of you giggled what you both have done inside this quiet place.
He change onto his clothes and help you clean up.After that he offered you a ride home.
A/n : accidentally deleted the submission but gladly I took a screenshot of it.The submission is from @babysoogyu. I hope you like it.
synopsis: your brother and heeseung have been friends since you can remember. your brother had made it very clear that you were off limits, but what happens when you return from australia to attend the same university as heeseung AND work the same part time job with him? falling in love with your brothers best friend sounds rather….cliché doesn’t it
summary: derry, maine, 1989. there have been a collection of missing persons cases, but that doesn't stop the losers club from having fun. y/n and her friends are determined to have a good time, and nothing is going to get in their way. genre: fluff, crack, it 2017 au. pairing: choi beomgyu x reader.
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summary: derry, maine, 1989. there have been a collection of missing persons cases, but that doesn't stop the losers club from having fun. y/n and her friends are determined to have a good time, and nothing is going to get in their way. genre: fluff, crack, it 2017 au. pairing: choi beomgyu x reader
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college!au, fluff, friends to lovers, non-idol!au, smut
tags: marking, oral (f receiving), fingering, praise kink, vaginal penetration, use of protection 👍🏻, loss of a character’s virginity
~13.8K word count
posted: october 22, 2021
One of the best decisions, you decided, was going to college. Sure, it’s not for everybody, and for a long time you weren’t sure if it was for you. Your parents were like most, encouraging you to go with high hopes that it would lead you to a good career. You, on the other hand, had heard from many of your friends and strangers on the internet through their stories that sometimes college was a waste of time and/or money, so you were skeptical. Luckily, your best friend Sooyoung was sharing the same troubling decision as you, so you both decided to look for a fitting college for the both of you go to so you wouldn’t be alone. After graduating high school and months of college applications, you both decided on an arts college in Seoul. Both of you being from Daegu meant that both of your parents were apprehensive about leaving your hometown, but ultimately they decided they would have to put aside their worry in order for you to get your desired education.
So, you went to college and for the first three years you were content. You decided on a technical Music major, dreaming of maybe producing and writing music, while Sooyoung picked a Performing major.
Your last year of your degree was when your life started to change for the better, because that’s when you met Yeonjun, a.k.a the catalyst for your near future. Yeonjun was a fellow student with a Dance major who was in desperate need of electives that weren’t going to be so boring that they made him want to drop out. That’s how he landed in his seat next to you in Professor Kim’s Songwriting 101 class for his spring semester and met you. The two of you became good friends over the semester, often helping each other study and hanging out outside of classes. That’s how you met him.
Soobin was in his third year of his Arts History major, and being an introvert, he found his four closest friends and stuck to them. Yeonjun, Beomgyu, Taehyun, and Huening Kai were all a bit more extroverted him, which he was mostly thankful for since it brought him out of his shell when necessary. Like when Yeonjun invited him to go shopping in Seoul with his friend from his Songwriting class. That’s how he met you.
The two of you got along really well, and soon enough the two of you became the ones in the group that the others teased for being in love with each other. The thing was, Soobin wasn’t like his friends when it came to relationships. He had never spoken to a girl romantically, let alone been in a relationship. He wasn’t brave enough to make the first move; hell, he got nervous when the group would hang out and the only available place to sit was next to you. His cheeks bloomed with blush when you complimented him. He couldn’t even imagine asking you out.
You on the other hand, had been in a handful of relationships since high school, some more serious than others. You usually weren’t the one to commence a relationship, but you had done so a couple of times. The fateful day the three of you went shopping in Seoul was in the beginning of May, and for the next couple of months you found yourself falling for the younger, but taller, boy. However, you were left wondering if he felt the same as he never made a move on you. Fortunately, Yeonjun and Sooyoung came to the rescue, setting up a movie night for the group where everyone but you and Soobin cancelled last minute, leaving the two of you alone at the movie theater lobby wondering where everyone else was.
Soobin had sat with you on a bench in front of a poster for a new horror movie showing this month, clutching a bucket of popcorn in his hands as you checked your phone again for the nth time. The movie was scheduled to begin five minutes ago, which meant the previews would be finishing soon. The two of you had been sitting in the lobby for nearly ten minutes, sharing awkward conversation while you waited for your friends to show up.
“Well,” you sighed, “The movie should be starting soon, do you want to go ahead and find seats?”
Soobin looked at you for the first time in those ten minutes, riddled with nerves, unbeknownst to you, “Um, sure. Did Sooyoung text you back?”
You both had sent texts to your friends asking where they were, but of course they all agreed to ignore the two of you in hopes that their plan would work.
“Well our tickets are already paid for, so we might as well go,” he smiled timidly, standing first and waiting for you to follow suit before he led the way to your designated theater.
The movie had been decided by Yeonjun so naturally it was an action movie, which was coincidentally you and Soobin’s favorite genre of film. The two hours of the film seemed to pass faster than you expected, and when it finished, the two of you walked out together excitedly gushing about your favorite moments from the film. Soobin expressed his elation at the fighting sequences while you raved about the cast’s stellar performances. As you two got to the parking lot, you asked him if he wanted to get some dessert, to which he shyly agreed. So, the two of you found a nearby ice cream shop where you enjoyed some ice cream cones. There your both continued to talk about how good the movie was, then about the college semester so far, then about your classes. Soobin told you stories about his annoying Arts Appreciation professor. You told him about the song you and Yeonjun had been working on for your songwriting class and how excited you were for your professor to hear it. He listened to you intently with a smile on his face; he loved watching you speak about music so passionately. He remembered one time when your friends were all hanging out and you had mentioned you weren’t sure what you wanted to go to college for before you came to Seoul, so he found it endearing that you seemed to find your calling over your three years here. Moreso, he was glad you came when you did, because you had to be one of the best people he had met.
That night you and Soobin had ended up hanging out for nearly five hours, and you enjoyed every second of it. He drove you back to your car at the theater parking lot, shyly admitting that he had a fun time with you. You returned the compliment, joking that your friends were going to get an earful the next day. He laughed in response, clearing his throat awkwardly before getting the courage to ask you if you could text him when you got back to your dorm safely. Warmth threatened to spread across your face as you suddenly felt butterflies. Why must he be so endearing?
You agreed with a stupid grin on your face, trying not to outwardly swoon when he opened your car door for you and waved on his way back to his car. The entire drive home consisted of you recounting the night with your heart racing. When you arrived at your dorm you saw Sooyoung lying in bed, reading a passage from her assigned book for her Theater History class. She sprung up into a sitting position, haphazardly stuffing a bookmark into the pages before setting in her lap. A mischievous grin formed on her lips at your arrival.
“Don’t look at me like that,” you warned her, trying to come off stern, though she knew you too well. She saw right through you.
“How was the movie?”
“You would know if you showed up. Why did you all ignore our texts?” you asked as you let your purse fall to the floor in front of your bed. You were met with your best friend tilting her head in a way that wordlessly said ‘are you kidding me?’.
“Answer my question first.”
You sighed, plopping down on the edge of your bed and grabbing your teddy bear from your pillows into your arms, holding it tightly, “It was fun.”
The look she gave you pressed for you to say more and you quickly crumbled, planting your face into the teddy bear as you attempted to stifle your scream, “Ugh, he’s so cute!”
Your friend shrieked in excitement, jumping up from her position to mirror you, sitting at the edge of her mattress, facing you, “Please tell me he asked you out. Or you asked him. Please.”
You let the teddy fall back into your lip as your lips formed a pout, “No, we didn’t.”
She frowned, “Did he seem like he had a good time?”
“I thought so. You know how he is, he seemed nervous most of the time.”
She pursed her lips in thought, and the two of you were interrupted with the sound of your phone buzzing with a notification. You picked up your phone, and your heart nearly dropped into your stomach when you saw the text notification come up.
soobin: did you make it home safe? 😣
“Is that him?”
“Yeah, I forgot he told me to text him when I got here.”
“Oh my god, he definitely likes you,” she said excitedly, like a giddy schoolgirl. You tried to contain your nerves as you replied to him.
you: yes, sorry! you?
soobin: just pulled into the parking tower. i really had fun tonight
you: so did i ☺️
You watched the bubble come up as he typed for a few seconds and then went away. You waited a little longer and started to lose hope of another response. When the bubble didn’t return, you locked your phone. Sooyoung was staring at you with a questioning expression.
“Well? What did he say?”
Your phone buzzed again, and you quickly checked the screen.
soobin: if you’re not busy this weekend, would you like to go to dinner with me?
You practically melted.
you: of course! does saturday work?
soobin: it does! i’ll text you then. goodnight 🌙
you: goodnight soobin 🌙
“________, you’re killing me here. What is he saying?” Sooyoung groaned, ready to jump out of bed and take your phone from you to quell her anticipation.
“He just asked me out,” you mumbled in disbelief, still recovering from the butterflies that were running rampant in your sternum.
You friend shrieked again happily, shaking her feet in excitement for you, “I knew it! Ugh, took you two long enough. I can’t wait to text Yeonjun.”
You rolled your eyes, throwing a spare pillow from your bed at her before you announced you were going to shower and get ready for bed. During your entire night routine you couldn’t stop imaging how Saturday would go. Where would you go eat? Would it be awkward? Surely it wouldn’t. Was this an official first date? Was he the type to kiss on the first date? No, he couldn’t be. Soobin seemed so timid; you couldn’t see him being so forward.
As you laid down that night, you struggled to fall asleep. And across campus, Soobin was lying awake, listening to his nighttime playlist, staring at the ceiling as his nerves tingled. Once he arrived back at his dorm that he shared with Yeonjun, he did indeed give his friend an earful, but eventually confided in him how nice the evening with you had been. With some urging from Yeonjun, he built up the courage to ask you to dinner and ever since then he couldn’t stop thinking about you. He had a crush on you since the two of you met, but he was notoriously shy. Never in his life had he asked a girl out, so this was nerve-racking for him. The music eventually lulled him to sleep where he dreamed of you for the first time.
By the time September rolled around and the fall semester began, you and Soobin were an exclusive couple and had been for a little over two months. You were worried the relationship would make your education suffer, but it was quite the contrary. Soobin was very studious, and encouraged you to do your best, often offering to help you study. Most of your dates were weaved into studying sessions that were held in various places around campus. You liked this new routine you found with him, when either of you did well on practice quizzes or worksheets, you rewarded him with kisses to the cheek, and vice versa.
Being college students, you were limited to your date spots during the week, but Soobin liked to spend your free time on the weekends taking trains into the nicer parts of Seoul for dinner or shopping. During the week you preferred spending time with him in his dorm, usually when Yeonjun wasn’t there to mock the ‘love birds’ as he liked to call you two.
Unfortunately, just as you were getting settled in to your new dorm room and your relationship with Soobin, Chuseok came. You and Sooyoung were set to take a train back down to Daegu while Soobin would go to Ansan and see his own family. You had decided to take a couple summer classes to ensure you graduating on time in the spring, so you had seen him pretty often during summer break. The five day break for Chuseok would be the longest you went without seeing him in person.
He stayed with you the Friday morning before your train left that afternoon, sitting on your bed as you packed your bag. Sooyoung had packed all her stuff already and was in her only Friday class. You told her you wanted to skip yours to pack, but really you just wanted to spend some more time with Soobin before you left.
“You’ll text me every day, right?” you asked, folding your jeans neatly.
Soobin smiled, resting the back of his head against the wall behind him, “I sure will. We can FaceTime too, if you want.”
“I’d love that,” you beamed, moving on to fold your shirts, “Does your family have any plans for Chuseok?”
“Yeah, my sister actually is going to be coming with her husband for the first time in a few years. And my brother will be coming with his girlfriend,” he said, looking down at his hands in his lap before admitting, “I wish you would come with me.”
You paused as you set your clothes precisely in your suitcase, “I know, I wish I could go too. It’s been a while since I’ve seen my family, though. I could always visit Ansan during winter break.”
His dimples were on full display as he broadly smiled, his eyes turning into adorable crescents, “That would be so fun. The snow is really nice there during Christmas time.”
“Oh, that reminds me, I need to pack a sweatshirt,” you hurried to your closet, shuffling through your clothes trying to find a good one to take. You hummed a song that had been stuck in your head, oblivious to Soobin watching you with a smile on his face. She’s so cute, he thought to himself. He could tell you weren’t finding a sweatshirt you wanted to bring, and that’s when he got an idea. Maybe it was the k-dramas he had been watching, but he remembered that girls typically liked to wear their boyfriend’s clothes. So he hesitantly pulled the green hoodie he was wearing over his head, shaking his fingers across his hair in attempt to keep it from looking messy.
“Here,” he said, making you turn around. You swore you could feel those familiar butterflies in your tummy when you saw him trying to fold his hoodie for you. “You can take mine.”
You walked back to the bed, ignoring his offering to capture him in a hug, smothering his cheeks with kisses that made him laugh. He returned the hug, dropping his hoodie between you so he could encircle you with his arms, making you feel small in his grasp. He recuperated your kisses, pressing them anywhere on your face he could reach. When he finished, he sighed.
“I’m gonna miss you.”
“I already miss you, and I haven’t even left yet.”
“Would you calm down, you’re shaking the seat,” Sooyoung playfully smacked your thigh, laughing when you looked up at her with shock in your eyes. When you realized that you had been annoyingly bouncing your leg, you apologized.
“Sorry, Soo. I’m just ready to get back to our dorm.”
“You mean, you’re excited to see Soobin?”
You felt your cheeks flare up with warmth, “Yes.”
She chuckled, resting her head against the back of her seat, “We’re almost there. Just five more minutes. Is he at his dorm?”
“He said him and Beomgyu were at the library after lunch,” you replied, swiping your phone screen to see that he still hadn’t answered your last text asking what he was doing. “He hasn’t texted me in a few hours, though.”
“He’s probably getting dinner or something,” she shrugged.
You nodded, locking your phone and turning your music back on. The train ride continued for another few minutes like Sooyoung had said. The station was almost in sight, and when it finally was, everyone started gathering their things in preparation to get off. When the train finally came to a stop, you followed Sooyoung out the doors, keeping close to her in the crowd of people as you two made your way out to call a cab. As the two of you made it out of the front doors of the station, the crowds dispersed into cars or down the walkways to the parking lot. There were cabs lined up along the front of the building, swiftly being taken by patrons looking to make their ways home. You and Sooyoung were walking along with your baggage kept close, looking among the people for a vacant cab. You almost gave up walking when you noticed a familiar, tall figure standing out quite a few yards away.
You cut off Sooyoung with a shrieked, “Yes!”
The two of you hurried to meet up with your boyfriend, who greeted the two of you with a smile. In his arms were two small bouquets of roses, one yellow and the other red. He handed the yellow roses to Sooyoung, to which she expressed her gratitude. He handed the red roses to you before enveloping you in a tight hug and kissing you swiftly on the lips.
“How was you guys’s Chuseok?”
“It was great, yours?” Sooyoung replied, smelling her flowers and reveling in the sweet smell.
“It was really nice. I told ________, but I hadn’t seen my older sister in a long time, so I got to see her,” he explained, rocking sightly on his heels. He seemed to suddenly remember the cab sitting idle behind him, “Oh, I took the liberty to get a cab for us back to campus. My treat.”
Sooyoung sighed in relief, “Perfect. I was not looking forward to paying for this one, or walking to the bus stop if we couldn’t get one.”
You gave her a pointed look, to which she reverted, “I mean, thank you, Soobin. Do you mind helping us put our bags in the trunk?”
He happily agreed, taking her suitcase from her and gesturing to the cab driver to open the trunk. Once all of the bags were settled in, the three of you took the backseat and headed to the dorms. During the ride, you found out Yeonjun wasn’t coming back until Monday, so Soobin had the dorm to himself for another four days. You offered to stay there and watch a movie, since you hadn’t been with him for the past five days. Soobin was more than happy to have you over, so he agreed. Like the gentleman he is, he even extended the offer to Sooyoung, but she politely declined.
“I’m extremely tired,” she reasoned, “My mother kept me up until midnight lecturing me about my preparations for finals.”
“That’s not for a couple more months, though?” Soobin questioned.
“You don’t know my mother,” she answered simply with a small chortle.
The cab came to a stop in front of your dorm, and Soobin helped the two of you get your bags out of the trunk before paying the cab driver. The car pulled away and back down the street, leaving the three of you in front of your building. Soobin followed the two of you into the lobby, taking a seat on the bench across from the stairs, “I’ll wait here for you, okay?”
You nodded, following Sooyoung up the stairs with your bags in tow. Your best friend spoke the whole way up, venting about her annoyance of being back. She had an exam on Monday that she was less than thrilled to study for, and she made sure you knew it. You chuckled at her expense as you made it to your room and tossed your suitcase onto your bed. The two of you kept a steady conversation as you went about your separate night routines despite it being only 1pm. You went to the showers together, meeting back at the sinks where you brushed your teeth, and then walked back to your room. She got comfortable in bed, ignoring her unpacked suitcase on the floor.
“You’re not going to unpack?” you asked as you gathered a small bag to stay at Soobin’s for the night.
“No,” she mumbled, her voice already thick from her need for sleep, “I’ll do it in the morning.”
“We both know that’s not happening,” you smiled to yourself, and she let out a small chuckle. You heard her turn over and knew she was out for the night. Quietly, you double checked that you had everything before sending Soobin a text to let him know you were on your way down. You slipped his hoodie over your shirt, pulling the strings so the hood was snug around your head. You still couldn’t believe how comfy it was. The door was shut behind you with a silent click, and you made your way down the stairs. Soobin was standing at the bottom, his dimples displayed with his smile when you finally appeared.
After nearly ten minutes of walking, you finally made it to his dorm. The sun was starting to set, which meant lots of students were coming to their dorms for the night, so it was easy for him to sneak you in among the crowd. Luckily, the hoodie further helped to disguise you. Once inside of the comfort of his room, he locked the door behind the two of you, and you were greeted with the familiar smell of his cologne mixed with Yeonjun’s.
“If you want to get comfortable, I’m gonna go change and get ready for bed,” he told you, making his way to his closet to pick out some pajamas. You took his offer, climbing into his bed and snuggling against his pillows. His scent was even stronger there in the sheets. When he turned around, he couldn’t help but giggle at your position; you looked entirely too adorable in his hoodie, his bed, tucked under his comforter.
“Cute,” he smiled shyly, “Why don’t you pick out a movie for us while you wait?”
“You got it,” you winked, pulling your phone from his hoodie’s pocket and unlocking it. You scrolled through the vast expanse of Netflix’s catalog in his absence, losing track of the time while you tried to decide. After a while, he returned, with damp hair and a new outfit, tossing his day clothes into a hamper by the door before closing it behind him and locking it again.
“Did you find one?”
You shrugged with a small hum, “You’d think with so many options on Netflix, that I would have found something. But no.”
He laughed, turning the overhead light off before turning the bedside lamp on and crawling into his bed with you. Of course, the bed wasn’t made for two people, but neither of you minded. If anything, it just meant he could hold you close as the two of you fell sleep, which neither of you had an issue with. You had only been to his room once overnight, and you were convinced that was the best night of sleep you had. It had been a long while since you slept in the same bed as someone else, you forgot how nice it was.
The two of you took the same positions as you had the last time, you nearest to the wall, and him facing you against the pillows. His right arm laid between the two of you, while the left draped over your waist over the covers. You held the phone between you two.
“Just pick a random movie,” he suggested, pressing a light-hearted kiss to your temple. He watched your finger scroll across a row of films, and then stop on one called Mr. and Mrs. Smith. “Oh, it’s an action movie.”
“Brad Pitt’s in it, so it must be good,” you said, clicking on it. The movie was entertaining, keeping you both locked in for a while until a particular scene came on. Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt’s characters began an intimate scene, and though you weren’t put off by the actions, it was a bit flustering to watch with Soobin beside you. You did your best to not show your reaction, and you didn’t know it, but Soobin was doing the same.
He watched the characters share passionate kisses and more, his mind stirring as he wondered if you were uncomfortable with the scene. Obviously you weren’t, because you hadn’t turned it off or skipped it. Though, this did bring up another thought he had.
The two of you had been dating for almost three months, and neither of you had brought up the topic of sex. He knew you were experienced, but you weren’t sure just how much. One night while you were hanging out with the friend group, some sexual jokes were passed between Beomgyu and Yeonjun to which Sooyoung had made the comment, “That’s like your ex who would always finish in, like, thirty seconds.”
You had blushed in embarrassment now that the attention of the table was on you, “Yeah, let’s not bring that up. That relationship didn’t last long at all.”
“Just like him,” Beomgyu laughed, causing the others to follow suit. Everyone except Soobin, who feigned a smile, but inside his insecurity was brewing. Before then he had never thought about the fact that you weren’t a virgin. He did figure, the both of you were college students in your early twenties, so it wasn’t uncommon for people your age to have sex. It’s just, he was a virgin, so he assumed you were too, which obviously wasn’t the case.
The second time, he was with you, Yeonjun, and Sooyoung, playing 20 questions. It was Yeonjun’s turn to ask you a question, and he asked, “What’s the worst way you’ve been broken up with?”
You groaned, thinking for a moment before answering with a small scoff, “My last boyfriend broke up with me right after we had sex.”
“What a dick,” he responded, “Was that the same guy you talked about at dinner last week?”
Sooyoung shook her head, laughing, “No, but this relationship didn’t last long either.”
You playfully nudged her, once again oblivious to your boyfriend’s expression beside you. He wasn’t bothered by you bringing up your past sex life. More so, he was consumed with the thought that he wasn’t sure what he would do when it would come time for the two of you to have sex. He wasn’t clueless by any means; though his knowledge of sex came to him as it did to other boys his age, through bad porn videos, romance movies, and sex scenes in TV shows. He didn’t deem himself educated enough to do it just yet, and the last thing he wanted was for you to see him as weaker or pathetic for being a virgin.
These kinds of thoughts kept his mind whirling throughout the rest of the movie; his attention only coming back for the ending when you commented about the twist of the couple’s target being bait for the two to kill each other. He hummed in agreement half-heartedly, not recalling the events that led up to the ending. Once the film was over, you asked him to plug your phone on the charger. He did so, and then you snuggled closer to him, your head falling against his collarbone with his chin above it.
“Gooodnight, Soobin,” you mumbled sleepily.
“Goodnight, baby,” he whispered, pressing a kiss to the crown of your head before falling asleep.
The next morning you woke up, with the sunrise vaguely shining through the curtains. Soobin was still holding you close, his arms wrapped around you and his legs entangled with yours. That’s when you felt it; the beginning of an erection against your thigh. A small smile graced your lips, and, at first, you were going to ignore your boyfriend’s excitement. It’s just morning wood, you told yourself. But then you thought about how you and Soobin had never talked about sex before, let alone had it. Come to think of it, Soobin had never mentioned any of his past relationships. Maybe it’s a sore subject for him. Maybe he just doesn’t think it’s important to talk about. You tried to remember Yeonjun ever mentioning Soobin’s dating life, but you came up empty.
It was then that your boyfriend began to stir beside you, his body naturally stretching against you. He groaned in his sleep at the sensation of his joints moving and his muscles aching. His head moved to the side, displaying more of his neck to you. His left leg shifted a bit more over yours, pressing his erection even more into your thigh which was barely covered in shorts.
God, he looks so hot like this, you thought, admiring how luscious his lips looked during his sleep.
Feeling a little risky, you reached up and pressed a kiss to his cheek, getting no reaction from him. You pressed another to his jawline, right below his ear. His chin tilted slightly, but it seemed to be just his body reacting as he was still asleep. You pressed your lips against his neck softly, and that’s when he shifted even more. His arm moved up to your stomach, draping over your own arm. His shoulders moved in a rotating motion, finding a more comfortable resting position against the pillows underneath him. You giggled under your breath, loving the effect you had on him even in his sleep. You kissed his neck again, this time with a bit more tenderness, adding your tongue. Your wicked mind decided to give him a little hickey, right where his shirt collar would hide it. A part of you wanted to put it somewhere noticeable, but you knew the boys would give him hell if they saw it.
Soobin let out a small moan as you continued to press kisses against his supple skin, your tongue running over the spot you were making red.
You hummed against him in response, your hands finding purchase on his waist, “Yes, baby?”
Soobin was now awake, and alarmingly so. The first thing he felt was unfortunately his hard-on, and instantly a wave of shame washed over him. His first thought was panic as he didn’t want to make you uncomfortable. He quickly realized that wasn’t the case, in fact, it was the exact opposite issue. It seemed it had turned you on, and now you were giving him a hickey . . . his very first hickey, at that. A part of him wished his heart beating a million miles per minute would be from excitement, but he was petrified. He didn’t want you to stop, but also, he did. He needed you to stop, because he didn’t want it to go too far.
Another moan got stuck in the back of his throat, only this time it turned into a small croak as he quickly sat up, trying to move so you wouldn’t notice his heart nearly beating out of his chest, “I’m sorry, I just realized I have class soon.”
You, still dazed and confused from his sudden outburst, were left fallen back against the pillows. You nodded wordlessly, making awkward eye contact with him before he nervously went to his closet to pick out clothes. So many thoughts were running through your head, but one stuck out, “It’s Thursday. Soobin, your first class isn’t until nine. What time is it?”
Before he could answer, you leaned over his now-empty space on the bed to check your phone, “It’s not even seven a.m.”
He hesitated before answering you, picking out socks and underwear from his drawer to top off his outfit, “Yeah, well, the showers are usually crowded right before eight, so I want to go early. I’ll be back.”
You didn’t get a chance to retort as he was already making his way out of the room; the door was closing shut behind him with a deafening sound. And just like that, you were left alone in his bed, the comfort of it starting to ebb away as the feeling of rejection crept in. Insecurities soon followed; did he not want to have sex with you? Were you moving too fast? Did you make him uncomfortable? Did your actions embarrass him? For a moment you started to panic, hoping you didn’t ruin one of your best relationships so quickly.
Soobin was gone for almost thirty minutes, stalling after his shower. He was so nervous to go back up and face you in his room. Mostly, he was worried about having to explain himself. He didn’t know how you would react to him being a virgin, and his mind was plagued with worst-case scenarios. Eventually, more and more students came into the showers, and he took that as his sign to go back to his room.
There, you were out of his bed and adjusting his hoodie around your midriff, letting it fall naturally over your hips after the night’s sleep. You didn’t look at him as you ran your fingers through your hair in attempt to detangle it. He wasn’t sure of what to say, so he waited for you to make the first move. It took a while, but you finally grabbed your purse from the floor, and headed to the door.
“Do you want me to walk you down?” he asked, moving to follow you.
“No, I don’t want you to be late for class,” you replied with a slight waver to your voice, “I’ll text you later.”
The door shutting was louder in his head as it rang in your absence, the sound of his heart plummeting following it. What did I just do? he thought.
“Please tell me you have a minute to talk.”
“Of course. Is something wrong?”
“Sooyoung, I think I fucked up.”
Your breath was shaky as you made it back to your empty dorm. You and Sooyoung usually woke up early to get coffee, but since you stayed with Soobin, she went alone. Right now, you really wished she was here, but a call would suffice.
“Soobin and I watched a movie last night, and then went to bed. Well, this morning he woke up with some morning wood, and I thought maybe he was in the mood . . . I started kissing him, and everything was fine, but then I started to give him a hickey and he bugged out.”
“He sat up so quick, and said he had to go to class, but his first class isn’t until nine. It was, like, six forty-five.”
Your best friend went silent for a moment, processing your predicament, “So- Was he embarrassed, or-?”
“I don’t know. I thought of so many reasons for it, but . . . He took half an hour in the showers, and when he came back he didn’t say anything, so I left,” you explained, “I feel bad, because I don’t know if what I did upset him. I’m afraid I moved too fast, or . . . Soo, what if he doesn’t find me physically attractive?”
Sooyoung scoffed, “_______, you can’t be serious. You might not see the way that boy looks at you, but we do. He looks at you like you’re the most beautiful thing in the room.”
Her words were comforting, but did little to quell your damaging thoughts.
“Maybe just give him so space for now, and text him later? Soobin’s a smart guy, I’m sure he’ll explain everything when he’s ready.”
You nodded, despite knowing she couldn’t see you, “Okay. Did you leave the coffee shop yet?”
“No, you called at the perfect time. I’ll get your usual.”
“You’re the best, Soo.”
It was almost three p.m. when you started to feel antsy. Not speaking to Soobin was proving to be hard for you; all you wanted to do was ask how his day was going. Instead, you were stuck in your Music Appreciation class, eyes darting to your phone screen every few minutes in the hope that he would text you. You wondered what he was doing right now. Should you go see him after class? You know Sooyoung said to wait for him, but you also knew how your boyfriend was. If you didn’t make the first move, there was a very good chance he wouldn’t make it himself. You tried your best to pay attention to the rest of your professor’s presentation, putting your worry on a back burner.
Soobin wanted so badly to talk to Yeonjun about this morning, but he didn’t want to bother his family time. He wondered which of his friends would be best to talk to about it, and he ultimately decided on Taehyun. His friend didn’t respond to his call, so he figured he was in class.
taehyun: can’t call right now. is everything ok?
soobin: sorry to bother, i’m just having an issue with ________. can i meet you after class?
taehyun: sure, meet me by the arts building in ten.
Taehyun met Soobin in front of the Arts building on time, taking a seat on an empty bench, “What’s up?”
Soobin sighed in annoyance, dreading telling Taehyun about his failed sex life, “Well, I hope you don’t mind me telling you this, but ________ stayed over last night, and-“
“Please tell me you used protection,” Taehyun said in a tone similar to a parent, and even though he was mostly joking, he was nervous for what Soobin’s answer would be.
“No, not that. Well, it’s- Look, basically, I woke up with a . . . y’know,” Soobin tried to stay subtle, “-and I think she felt it. Then she started kissing me, and started to give me a hickey, and . . . I didn’t know what to do.”
Taehyun waited for him to continue, and when he didn’t, he arched a brow, “So, what did you do?”
“I freaked out. I got up and told her I had class, and then I hid in the showers for thirty minutes.”
Your boyfriend’s friend shook his head in disbelief, trying to hide his teasing smile at Soobin’s expense, “So you’re telling me you had the chance to have sex for the first time and blew it.”
Soobin groaned, falling flat against the back of the bench with a pout, “Yeah, but . . . I never really thought about sex with her until today. We never brought it up, and I don’t think I’m prepared. I don’t know what she likes, or what I like. I don’t own condoms, and I don’t trust myself to pull out. What if I finish too quick, or-?”
“Soobin,” Taehyun interjected, effectively shutting down Soobin’s rant, “Look, it’s completely normal to be nervous and unprepared for your first time. But you can make time to prepare. You can talk to _______ and work it out. The way you’re talking, you’re setting yourself up for failure.”
Soobin nodded slowly, “How do I . . . prepare, though? I’m not going to the library for sex ed books.”
Taehyun laughed, “Good thing the internet is free then, huh? I mean, obviously don’t go and watch loads of porn or anything, but maybe read some articles by sex professionals, or even Reddit could help you.”
Your boyfriend could practically feel a lightbulb go off in his head, “You’re right.”
Dinner time came and went, and you still hadn’t heard from Soobin. You regretted not texting him after your class, but you reminded yourself of Sooyoung’s words. By the time you were ready for bed, you wondered what other options you had. That’s when it came to you.
You walked out into the hallway, opening your phone contacts and clicking on the one person’s name that you needed.
“Hey, _______, miss me already?”
“Hey, Yeonjun. How’s your trip going?”
“Ah, really fun. Did Soobin show you the pictures I sent him earlier?”
Your heart sank, “No, he didn’t.”
“Oh, well I’m going to post them on Instagram later, so you’ll see them,” he said happily, “What’s up?”
“Well, I actually called for some advice.”
“That’s new,” he joked, “Is everything okay?”
“I don’t know. Basically, I stayed the night with Soobin last night, and when we woke up this morning, I felt him having a . . . problem, y’know what I mean?”
Yeonjun hummed in response.
“Well, I started kissing him and it was getting a little heated, and then he freaked out suddenly. And long story short, we haven’t spoken since. I’m worried I made him uncomfortable, or did something wrong.”
Yeonjun wasn’t sure what to say, and the longer he stayed silent, the more you grew worried.
“Um, honestly, _______, I’m shocked. Soobin gushes about you so much, I would think he would’ve taken this opportunity and ran with it.”
Usually, your face would grow warm at the comment, but you couldn’t find it in yourself to be flattered.
“I mean, Soobin is a nervous guy, I’m sure he just got embarrassed about the morning wood. Or he probably just didn’t want his first time to be spontaneous, I don’t know.”
You were about to reply, when you fully took in what he just said, “His first time?”
“Yeah . . . did he not tell you he was a virgin?” when you didn’t respond, he cursed, “Shit. Well, I definitely didn’t want to be the one to say it, but here we are.”
“Why didn’t I think of that,” you muttered, more so to yourself.
“Soobin is a shy guy, he was probably too embarrassed to tell you,” he tried to reason, “Um, look, do you want me to talk to him for you?”
“No, I- I already feel bad about calling you and getting you involved. And for interrupting your night.”
He tsked, “Come on, you could never interrupt me, ________. And for sure, I’ll leave you two love birds to make amends. I plan to see you two with open arms at the train station on Monday.”
“Of course, thanks Yeonjun.”
“Anytime. Goodnight, ________.”
You gave Soobin the night to himself, and unsurprisingly you woke up the next morning with no messages or calls from him. So, as you got ready for the day, you decided to finally make the first move. Before you left for your morning class, you sent him a text.
you: hey, is it ok if i come to your dorm after my class?
He also only had one morning class on Fridays, so you hoped his answer would be-
bin 🐰: of course
bin 🐰: also, i’m really sorry for not explaining myself yesterday.
you: we’ll talk about when i get there. enjoy your class 💗
Soobin was initially nervous when he saw your first text, but with your last response, the tension in his body immediately dissipated. Honestly, his mood surrounding your current situation was really positive. He took Taehyun’s advice and stayed up until nearly one a.m. researching about sex. He scrolled for hours through forums of hundreds of people discussing their first times, how they felt, what they wished they did different, what they wished they would have communicated, what they did to prepare, and more. He even took the liberty of exploring some kinks, and honestly, that was where he spent most of his time. Of course, he knew about some kinks, but there was a whole world of them he had no idea existed before then. He wondered what kinks he would like, which ones you liked. Some seemed so interesting that he wrote them down in his notes in the event that he got the courage to ask you about them; who knows, maybe you’d want to try them out with him.
When his class finally ended, he rushed back to his dorm, making sure the room was tidy before you arrived. He received a text that you were on your way, so he went downstairs to meet you in the lobby. The old bench beneath him groaned lowly with the nervous bouncing of his leg as he waited for your silhouette to appear on the other side of the glass door. When it did, he couldn’t stop his heart from leaping in his rib cage. You always looked so beautiful, no matter the time of day.
“Hi,” he greeted you shyly, standing as soon as you walked in. You smiled, hugging him tightly. This is already going so much better than I hoped, he thought as he took in the sweet smell of your perfume.
“Hi, how was class?”
“Boring, as usual,” he cleared his throat, reluctantly taking your hand in his as the two of you made your way up to his room.
Once inside, he locked the door and you settled on the edge of his bed. He joined you, sitting on the mattress, facing you, wondering what to say. He had no idea what you were thinking.
“Soobin, why didn’t you tell me you were a virgin?”
Oh, right. That.
Your boyfriend reacted with a heavy sigh, looking ashamed of himself, “I was embarrassed.”
“Why on Earth would you be? That doesn’t bother me in the slightest, and we could’ve avoided all of this if you had told me,” you said, placing a reassuring hand on his knee, “Do you not trust me?”
“Of course, I do. It’s just- I knew you had experience, and it made me feel insecure. I didn’t want us to do anything and make myself look stupid because I didn’t know what I was doing.”
“Soobin, that’s kind of the point of your first time. You’re not supposed to know what you’re doing. I mean, you are, to some degree. But I wouldn’t expect you to have the talent of a porn star. Hell, I didn’t know what I was doing when I lost my virginity.”
“I know,” he looked to you with a half-hearted smile, “-and I’m really sorry for not saying something sooner. Honestly, I didn’t think about it much, expect for the times you talked about your experiences.”
You were about to tell him he didn’t need to apologize, that you understood he was just nervous and processing his emotions was difficult in the moment. However, he spoke again before you could speak, “I also was kind of upset that I wouldn’t be your first. I wasn’t upset with you, just in general. I was so happy when I met you, and our relationship is so special to me that I couldn’t imagine sharing my first time with anyone else. So, the fact that I won’t be your first hurts my pride . . . just a bit.”
He laughed through the painful statement, hoping not to come off as pathetic as he felt.
“Trust me, my first time was nowhere near special. I wasn’t even dating the boy, and it wasn’t enjoyable. It barely lasted five minutes. Truthfully, I was just waiting for it to be over, and as for the other times. Some times were better than others, but I never felt loved by any of them. That’s the difference with you, Soobin. You may not have been the first person I had sex with, but you’re the first person I’ve ever loved. And I think that’s a better accomplishment, no?”
Soobin could swear his heart was going to swell past the bones in his chest, and for a moment, he bit back the urge to cry. How did he get so lucky with you?
Your boyfriend nodded, his cheeks blooming with blush, “You’re my first love, too . . . and hopefully, my last.”
Now it was your turn to calm your heart’s inflation. To do so, you leaned forward and placed a kiss to his cheek, letting him decide the next move. He followed your lips, placing them against his as he put his hand on your waist. The two of you had made out plenty of times, but never further than that. Your attempted hickey that started this all was about as far as the two of you ever got. And with the fervor in your kiss, Soobin wondered if today would be the day you two finally took that next step.
Your lips separated with the need for air, both of your ribcages slowly moving up and down with your intake of breath, “Do you think . . . we could do it now?”
You pulled further away to look him in the eyes, trying to decipher he was being serious, “Right now?”
“Yeah,” his eyes darted away from the fierce look in yours, feeling like a piece of specimen under a microscope, “If you want to?”
“I mean, I don’t want you to feel forced to do it now that we’ve talked. Are you sure you want this?”
He let out a small chuckle, “Yes, really. Actually, I’m more than ready . . . I’ve been doing a lot of research, so I wouldn’t be completely clueless when the time came.”
The thought made you laugh a little. Of course he would do something like that; Soobin was nothing if not thoughtful, “Then, show me what you’ve got.”
That sentence alone made sparks fly in Soobin’s psyche, the hair at the nape of his neck standing on end. Before his brain could short-circuit, you pulled him in for another tender kiss, your arms wrapping around his shoulders as you moved onto your knees, the joints burying themselves in his mattress. He decided to go with the flow for now, easing into your touch, enjoying the feeling of your lips on his. His hands found purchase on your waist, his cold fingertips brushing against the skin underneath your shirt’s hem.
The silky, ebony strands of his hair fell through your fingers easily, and you had to stop yourself from pulling on them softly. As the kiss deepened, your body urged his to recline on the bed, letting him relax against the sheets. You laid beside him, in a simile position to the one you were in when everything went haywire, only this time when you attempted to give him a hickey, neither of you were going to stop it from happening.
In fact, the only thing Soobin was trying to stop was himself from making noise. It was in the middle of the day, but the last thing he wanted was a student or even the RA to pass by and hear him. He opted for closed-mouth moans, the sound ending up as a whimper, which only made the arousal between your legs more abundant.
“Does it feel good, baby?” you asked, your lips brushing against his skin, tickling him.
“Y-yes,” he stuttered, his Adam’s apple shifting as he swallowed his nerves. You smiled, and he felt it as you continued to press kisses along his collarbones, your hand gently running along the skin underneath his shirt.
“Why don’t we get this off of you?” you asked, taking the edge of his t-shirt in your hand and urging him to remove it. Soobin nodded, swiftly pulling it over his head and letting it fall onto the floor to be forgotten. Your boyfriend wasn’t the gym type like Beomgyu and Taehyun were, but he did keep a nice body. You placed more kisses to his chest, making goosebumps appear along his arm. This is what I’ve been missing out on this whole time, he thought, his eyes closing.
They shot open again when your lips disappeared, and he felt you shifting. He looked up to see you sitting back up on your knees, pulling your own shirt off in a brisk motion, your bra leaving barely anything to his imagination. You watched his expression with a tiny grin, his eyebrows furrowing as his eyes got slightly wider. Something about him being so innocent turned you on so much more than you thought it would.
“Do you want to take my bra off?”
His eyes darted to yours, his mouth going dry. You urged him with a small nod, taking his hands in yours and pulling him into a sitting position. His arms wound around you, his face merely inches from yours. He would kiss you if he wasn’t so nervous about getting your bra open on the first try. Luckily, your bras weren’t too complicated; his fingers found the clasp almost immediately, and with a gentle tug it came loose. The white straps slipped down your shoulders, the cups falling down your abdomen until all you had left to do was discard it. You did so while Soobin’s eyes stayed trained on the newly revealed flesh.
“You can touch them,” you spoke gently, inwardly reminding yourself that this would be a long process or getting him comfortable. You had never dealt with an inexperienced boy before, so this was new for you, but also exciting? You could see the eagerness itching at him.
With your reassurance, his hands moved up from your waist to your breasts, his fingers encompassing the skin so delicately. He obviously had never touched a woman before, so he was taking it all in, the way they felt. They were so much softer than he imagined, and he loved it. He was practically salivating at the thought of his mouth on you; then he realized he didn’t have to think about it. All he had to do was ask.
“Can I . . ?” he spoke lowly, the question trailing off as he made eye contact with you. You saw him leaning closer, thinking he wanted to simply kiss your chest. You nodded, anticipating how good it would feel for him to explore you. What you weren’t expecting was the warmth of his tongue to ever so slowly go over your nipple. The action made you moan, and your nipples immediately stiffened, which made Soobin’s ego boost. He smiled as he repeated the action, much more confident in what he was doing. He gave your right nipple lots of attention, licking it, sucking it, holding the breast in his mouth. He could see himself getting used to this.
He repeated the same gestures to your other nipple, his right hand molding and kneading your other breast for stimulation. You were practically putty in his hand, and you were loving every second of it. It seemed he was too, because you could see an erection forming under his sweatpants.
“That feels so good,” you assured him, you fingers carding through his hair again, almost holding him in place.
“I’ve always wondered if I was a boobs guy or an ass guy,” he said, pausing his movement, as he looked up at you, “Definitely a boobs guy.”
You laughed, tilting his chin up with your finger to bring his lips back to yours. His full lips felt so fluid against yours, and then they were moving over your face, your cheeks, your nose, your jaw, your neck. You felt him trying to give you a hickey, but it stung.
“Ah, Soobin,” you shifted away from him just enough for him to stop, his eyes looking alarmed, “You’re fine, it’s just you’re using too much of your teeth. Just kiss and suck the skin, don’t bite. I mean, you can a little bit, but not hard. Okay?”
He nodded, hesitantly returning to your neck, taking your advice really well. His lips made good work of pressing against your throat, his tongue laving the spot he was sucking over and over again. After a minute or two had passed, he pulled away to see a slightly red mark against the skin, and he felt accomplished. You assumed he was done, so you pulled him back in for another kiss, your right knee carefully adjusting itself between his thighs. There, you felt his erection against your kneecap, and you gave it an experimental brush. A mix of a grunt and moan was stifled between your mingled lips, and you considered yourself successful. Now, you so badly wanted to have him in your mouth, moaning for you over and over again. You wanted his name to fall out of his lips like a song; you needed it.
You ushered him down on his back a second time, your legs now straddling his thighs as you made work of kissing his chest again. This time, your lips trailed down his sternum, over his abs, to his happy trail. He was sensitive there, and his body let you know by the lightest tremors his breath had when you kissed the lines of his V.
“Can I take these off of you?” you asked, your voice dripping with hope. With his breath still quickening, he sat up, and for a moment you worried he was going to want to stop. His hand trapped yours against his pelvis.
“Actually, I want to- I- I wanted to try oral on you first,” he explained, his lips still adorable puffy from the many times you had kissed in the past ten minutes. Part of you was buzzing ecstatically with anticipation, but the other part was begging to have him in your mouth. You wanted to give him his first blowjob and make it the best one in his whole life. Maybe later, you thought, after all, you have the rest of the day. And technically, until Sunday night, to do whatever you wanted.
“Okay,” you nodded, giving him another kiss as you sat back and took off your shorts. You were left in your underwear, and you wanted to give him the option to take those off of you like you did with your bra.
So, you got comfortable against the pillows, spreading your legs enough for him to kneel between them. He leaned down and captured your lips in a kiss again, following your example of trailing kisses down your body. He had to stop himself from getting distracted by your breasts again, leaving them with pecks before moving to your stomach. When he arrived at the top of your underwear, he looked to you for consent to continue. You gave him a nod, and even helped him by lifting your hips while he tugged them down your thighs, over your calves, and finally freeing them. Now you were bare, and he couldn’t peel his eyes away.
Like a man in drought, searching for water, he fell at your mercy, making himself comfortable between your thighs. The closer he got to where you needed him, the more your heart raced. His left hand wrapped under your thigh, massaging the skin there as his right hand itched to touch you. He didn’t know where to start; should he finger you? Eat you out? Should he tease you first? His erection was painfully reminding him that it was due to explode soon, and it clouded his thinking. The pressure of it between his hips and the mattress certainly didn’t help.
“Soobin, I don’t want to rush you, but if you don’t touch me soon, I’ll scream”, you sighed, your eyes closing as you felt your heartbeat thumping between your thighs. Your boyfriend smiled up at you from over your pelvis, letting out a small laugh. His warm breath tickled your heat, and you whimpered. That was so hot, his inner voice groaned.
All of those articles and forums came rushing back to him, the knowledge rushing through his mind like a river. Here goes nothing.
His tongue darted out to coat his lips in saliva before he leaned in and pressed a kiss to your apex, just above your slit. Your breath hitched, which he took as a good sign, and he continued. Kisses were littered all around your lips and your inner thighs, avoiding the place you needed him most. That’s what girls seemed to like from what he recalled reading. The tease. The buildup. It made for a more enjoyable orgasm, and that’s exactly what he wanted you to have.
When your hips started to lift slightly from the mattress, he knew this was it. Finally, he steadied his breath before letting his tongue run between your lips, from the bottom all the way to the top. The smallest gasp left your mouth, and your hand reached down to touch his that was resting next to your hips. He interlocked his fingers with yours as he dove back in, repeating the motion a few times, alternating between a slow pace and a fast one. He found that it was fairly easy when following your reactions. The more tense you got, the closer you were, so he would slow down. It seemed to be working, because you were getting wetter and wetter the longer he went.
Eventually, he felt like you were losing grip on your impending orgasm, so he took his right index finger and thumb in his mouth, coating them in his saliva. Then, he rubbed his fingertips in your arousal, causing you to moan again. He loved having this effect on you, it made him feel so powerful. Though, now he realized he was at a fork in the road that he hadn’t been looking forward to.
“Yes, baby,” you breathed out, looking down at him.
“Can you show me where your clit is?”
If this hadn’t been his first time, you would have jumped him right then and there and gave him the best orgasm of his life. There was nothing hotter than a thoughtful partner.
You agreed, releasing his fingers from yours as you met his other ones between your thighs. Fuck, you were really wet. You could feel your heartbeat under your skin, and you followed it to your bundle of nerves at the top of your slit, giving it the slightest rub. The action made your body shiver, and Soobin took note of it. So it is as sensitive as all those people said online.
His damp thumb met yours at your clit, and once he felt it you removed your hand, preparing yourself for the gut-wrenching feeling you were about to experience. And gut-wrenching it was. He gave a reluctant swipe over the nerves, just to watch your thigh twitch when he did. A devilish smirk occupied his lips as he continued fo give the skin slow, gentle rubs, easing you into a rhythm. Your hips subconsciously followed the movement, shifting under his care.
Soon enough you felt a tug in your lower abdomen, and you knew what was coming. Soobin could feel it, too, noticing your body’s reaction as he continued to work on you. He decided he was going to keep going, only he wanted to try fingering you this time. He had read it was good to prep with your fingers, especially before penetration. So, he collected some of your arousal on the fingertips of his left hand before slowly inserting two of them into you. A long whimper released from your mouth, and your head pressed further into the pillow.
“Soobin, that feels so good. So good, please keep going.”
You didn’t have to tell him twice. He pushed his fingers in as far as he could, reveling in the strange feeling of your inside before he pulled them out and pushed them back in. He tried his best to keep the momentum going on your clit with his right hand as his left one continued to find a pace to match. The entire time, you were basking in the pleasure, feeling the knot in your stomach getting tighter and tighter with every thrust of his fingers. Your chest was moving quickly, and Soobin was slightly upset that he was too busy to watch them.
Finally, after minutes of him working you up, you warned him that you were about to cum. He stalled for a moment, not sure if he should keep going or stop, but luckily he kept going. His fingers inside of you felt your walls clench against him, and then they grew slicker and slicker until his fingers were practically swimming in you. He was starting to wonder if it had passed when suddenly your thighs pressed closer together, squeezing his hands against each other tightly.
You let out a high-pitched moan as you reached down and urged his hands away from you.
“Are you okay?” he asked, looking to you with concern. Did he do something wrong? Was he supposed to stop?
He was flooded with relief when you let out a laugh, “You just gave me one of the best orgasms I’ve ever had, just with your fingers. I’m way more than okay.”
If pride was measured on a scale, then his would be practically broken. Never in his life had felt so pleased with himself. You could see the gained confidence in his reaction to your words, and your insides beamed with happiness.
Soobin glanced up at you and then back down at your center, clearing his throat, “Do you mind if I . . . taste you?”
“You didn’t even have to ask,” you spoke leisurely, your body and mind still recovering from your orgasm.
Soobin smiled, delving back between your lips with his tongue, collecting your arousal on it as he continued to lick you like did before. This time, he decided to use his the tip of his tongue to rub your clit, wondering if it felt better than his fingers. You whined, your thighs vibrating; you moved up onto your elbows which got Soobin’s attention and made him stop.
“Does that feel okay?” he asked, your juices glistening on his chin. The sight made you want to go crazy.
“It feels amazing, but that’s why I need you to stop. This is your first time, I’m supposed to make you feel good.”
He shook his head with a grin, “I’m enjoying making you feel good. Besides, I was really worried about finishing too quickly, and I read that foreplay and oral were good ways to prolong that.”
What a nerd, you though, I love him.
You laughed, encouraging him to meet you back up on the bed so you could kiss him. You tasted yourself on his lips, and he seemed to like the idea of that, because he groaned as soon as your lips locked. His hand held your naked hips steady while the other kept him above you, his covered erection poking against your bare thigh. You were more than ready to get to the main event; so eager that you went for the top of his sweatpants again.
Without words, he followed your lead, pausing the kiss to step off the bed and remove the pants. His navy boxer briefs were the last thing keeping you from consummating your relationship. He imagined this moment for so long, and he couldn’t believe it was going so much better than the several hundred times he pictured it. His legs were between yours again, your center brushing against the tent in his undergarment. A small grunt came from his throat as your hips lifted to rub against his. That’s when he suddenly remembered.
“Wait,” he carefully got back off his bed, making you sit up with worry. You watched as his half-naked form rushed to the closet, pulling out a grey, plastic shopping bag. A crumpled receipt fell out of the bag onto the floor as he held up a box of condoms. “I went to the store last night and picked some up. I wanted to make sure we were safe.”
He just keeps getting better.
“Perfect,” you smiled as he hurriedly opened the box, retrieving a pack before discarding the box on the floor with its bag. “Y’know, I figured you didn’t have any, so I was just going to let you finish in me. I’m on the pill anyways.”
His fingers paused over the aluminum packet, twitching at the thought of him cumming inside of you with absolutely no barrier. His bones felt like jelly. All the guys in the forums he read said they preferred no condom; apparently it was ten times better than with. The texture of the rubber just didn’t compare to the feeling of a woman, he recalled. But, he wanted to do things correctly and safely.
Still, he couldn’t help but groan, “Don’t tell me that. I’m trying to do this the right way.”
You laughed at his expense, apologizing as he climbed back into his position. You watched as he opened the condom packet, your eyes moving to his as he looked at it for the first time. Maybe it was weird to think it, but he looked so adorably innocent.
“Do you want to take off your briefs?”
He nodded, handing you the condom. Suddenly, he felt all those nerves from fifteen minutes ago come rushing back. What if you were disappointed with his length? His girth? What if you thought his dick looked weird? All of these insecurities were making it hard to relax. It was almost as if you sensed his uncertainty, because you pressed comforting kisses to his shoulder. Just the action alone made it a little easier. So with a deep breath, he lowered the briefs down his thighs, and then his legs until he tossed them onto the floor with the rest of your clothes.
Truthfully, he had nothing to worry about. His erection stood at an average size, and was bigger than any of the guys you had slept with in the past. You could feel your mouth salivating and your walls clenching. You were feeling desperate.
Soobin, on the other hand, noticed you staring at him and felt his cheeks burning up. Instinctively, he went to shield himself, mumbling how embarrassed he was. You smiled, leaning up to give him a reassuring kiss, “There’s nothing to be embarrassed about. We can stop at any time if you want to.”
He shook his head vigorously. He got this far, he wasn’t going to quit now, “No- No, I want to keep going. Just . . . help me?”
You gave him a small nod, taking the condom in your nimble fingers, “Do you want me to put it on for you?”
He agreed with a simple nod, watching your hands place the nipple-like tip of the condom on top of the head of his erection. The thin rubber fitting snuggly onto him as you rolled it down as far as it could go. The feeling was weird, but Soobin decided to ignore it for the sake of continuing. Once the condom was in place, you urged him to get comfortable between your legs again as you rested on your back.
“Are you ready?” you asked, your eyes twinkling up at his nervous ones.
A sheepish laugh escaped his lips, “I’m supposed to be the one asking you that . . . but, yes.”
“Okay, just go slowly.”
He nodded, looking down as he took the base of his length and placed it at your entrance, “Are you sure you’re wet enough? It’s not going to hurt you is it?”
Man, he really did do his research.
“I’ll be fine, just go slow,” you reassured him, growing more and more impatient. He was so close to making you feel good.
With a new level of concentration, Soobin began to push his length through your entrance at the slowest pace he could manage. A pathetic whimper left his lips at the feeling of your walls closing around him. The sensation was so much different around him than on his fingers; it was ten times better. He could only imagine how much better it would feel without the condom. Part of him regretted even bringing it up when he had the opportunity to do it raw.
Once most of him was inside of you, he looked up to see you relaxed against the pillows with your eyes closed and your mouth slack. The sight made his ego inflate, “Let me know when to move.”
“N-now. Now, please,” you stuttered, your hand moving from his waist to his hips, urging them to move. So desperate, he thought to himself, it’s so hot.
He began to pull out slowly, just enough to keep his head inside before pushing back in. A groan escaped his throat at how good it felt, but he tried not to let himself go yet. He focused on building up a pace, starting slow and then getting steady the longer he went. His breath grew rugged with his body’s rhythm, and you found that you loved watching his expression as he thrusted into you. He looked so cute like this, working his hardest for his orgasm. You couldn’t wait until the two of you could experiment with sex soon; there was so much you wanted to try with him. You wondered for a moment what kind of kinks he would have.
Soobin let out another whine as he got faster, feeling a tension beginning to form in his stomach, “Ah, I think I’m going to cum soon.”
“That’s okay, baby. Just do it.”
He shook his head, only slightly slowing down, “No. No, I don’t want to yet.”
“Okay, then stop,” you put your hands on his chest as he stopped moving, removing himself from your heat.
“Don’t apologize,” your hand went up to his face, rubbing your thumb over his cheekbone, “It’s okay. Just take a deep breath and we can start again when you’re ready.”
You could see how red his erection was and how badly he wanted to cum. You wished he would allow himself to just let go, but you didn’t understand how much he couldn’t. The last thing he wanted to do was finish early and then not be able to get hard again soon after. He wanted this moment to last as long as possible.
To ease his mind, you pressed more kisses along his face and neck, and like a cat you felt a low grumble in his throat similar to a purr. It made you giggle, “You’re doing so good, Soobin. I’m so proud of you.”
Those words made his heart swell, and he felt a little more motivated. He returned your affection, his arms wrapping around you as he brought you into a warm kiss. He gently put you back against the mattress, kissing down your neck to your breasts. Maybe paying attention to you would buy him some time, and he discovered that he loved watching you unravel under him.
With your breast in his mouth and your hand in his hair, you couldn’t help but moan lowly. You were desperate to have him in you again, but you would let him move at his desired pace. Luckily, Soobin didn’t take long to start again. He played with your breasts for a few moments, loving every inch of skin he could get to. He even experimented with the smallest nip of his teeth against your nipple which made you moan louder than any other time before and made him go crazy. That trick would definitely be kept in his back pocket for the future.
“Alright, let’s try this again,” he said, taking his covered length in his hand again before feeding it into your slit slowly. The both of you let out small moans as he began his rhythm again. This time he went faster, rocking his hips back and forth between yours and grunting into the skin of your neck. His breath was hot against your ear, making you shiver. One of your hands gripped his back while the other stayed buried in his messy, black hair. You gave a small tug on the locks when he thrusted a little deeper, letting out a loud groan.
“Oh my god, do that again. Pleas- Ah,” Soobin was quick to follow your demand, thrusting deeper and harder. Your walls started clenching around him, and immediately he felt like he was going to cum any second.
“Please tell me you’re close,” he begged, his breathing turning into panting, “Please, I’m about to bust, ________.”
“Almost, keep going, baby, please. You’re doing so good, just hold it in for a little longer,” you took your hand out of his hair and slipped it between your stomachs, using it to stimulate your clit as he continued to pound into you. “Ugh, yes, just like that. Don’t stop, Soobin, please. Don’t stop.”
Soobin took your words to heart, not letting up on his pace. In fact, he was so close that the only thing he could focus on to keep him from crumbling was his movements. The more he concentrated on his thrusting, the longer he held on. The feeling of your fingers moving between your pelvises was making it hard to focus, but he tried not to think about how close you were getting. Though, your moans of his name definitely didn’t help.
Finally, the knot in your stomach came back full force and you felt yourself panting, “I’m gonna-“
You let out a moan as your walls clenched rapidly around Soobin’s dick. Your hand that was on his back went around his shoulders, pulling him close to you, chest to chest. Your groans in his ear were about to send him over the edge until he felt your teeth scrape against the soft flesh of his earlobe. There was no way in hell that he could hold back any longer.
“Ah, fuck-!” Soobin let himself cum into the condom, your heat continuing to clench and unclench around the rubber covering. You released his ear from your grip to press slick kisses to his neck. Sweat was starting to bead along his hairline, which made you chuckle. He really put in the work.
Once his hips stilled after the effects of his orgasm, he didn’t know what to do. His forehead pressed against yours tenderly for a moment, and then his exhausted body collapsed on him. He laid beside you, his cheek resting on your damp breast; the warmth of his breath tickled your sensitive nipple.
“That was . . . amazing,” you let out the last word with a deep, happy sigh. Soobin couldn’t help but grin widely—which you felt against your skin—and his arm wrapped tighter around your waist comfortingly.
“It was. Thank you for being patient with me.”
You smiled, “Always . . . Y’know, I’m curious about this praise kink you seem to have, though.”
“I- I don’t have that,” he stuttered sheepishly, making you laugh, “If anyone has a kink, it’s you, you biter.”
“I did not bite you that much!”
“Mhm, whatever you say.”
The two of you laughed a little and then settled into comfortable silence again, your breaths still calming from the wonderful events you just finished. That was until your boyfriend let out a small gasp, looking up to you, “You should go to the bathroom.”
“W-why?” you asked with a chuckle, shocked by his alarming tone.
“I read that it’s good for the woman to pee after sex,” he explained innocently, his bright eyes twinkling up at you from under his messy fringe. You smoothed the locks with your gentle fingers, brushing them out of his face.
“Okay, I’ll go in a minute. Let’s just rest for a little longer,” you spoke softly, feeling yourself growing tired. Maybe a nap before lunch would do the both of you some good.
“Mm?” you hummed in response, your eyes closed.
“Hey, don’t fall asleep on me.”
“You’re the one who’s laying on top of me, actually.”
“You got me on that one,” he laughed, sitting up beside you. The absence of his warmth made you shiver, “You’re so beautiful.”
“And you are so unbelievably handsome.”
He let out another laugh, and he picked up your hand to press a kiss to the back of it, “So, do you want to sleep over again tonight?”
“And every night until Yeonjun comes back?” you added, smiling mischievously as you made eye contact with him. He raised a brow, returning your facial expression.
“If you want to. You’re always welcome here unless Yeonjun says otherwise,” he leaned down and pressed another kiss to your forehead.
“I don’t think Yeonjun would be too happy knowing we had sex multiple times five feet from his bed.”
“You know, you’re right. We should keep this our little secret.”
“Mm, good luck with that. Your friends are terrible secret keepers.”
“You’re right about that,” he agreed, “Especially Beomgyu. He loves gossip.”
You laughed, recalling the time your entire friend group found out one of the English professors was fired for fucking a student last year. Beomgyu had run up to the group one day while you were all hanging out after classes were done for the day, and despite being surrounded by other people in the student cafe, he shouted the information to your table—and effectively the rest of the room, “Very true.”
“Alright, let’s go get cleaned up,” you said as you sat up, careful to keep your thighs closed so your juices wouldn’t mess up his sheets.
“The both of us?”
“Yeah, you’re gonna come stand guard in the showers for me, won’t you? I’ll also need to borrow some of your clothes. I’ll have to go commando since I don’t have extra underwear.”
“What a bummer,” he remarked sarcastically, making you laugh.
hi lovelies! thanks again for all the love you guys have been showing to my blog, it's been so long since i've been this inspired to continue to write. currently, my blog is going through major renovations while im off on holiday. sorry for the delay!
genre: fluff, slight nsfw themes, gender neutral! reader, idol x college student/working class person.
❁ yeonjun, soobin, beomgyu, taehyun, heuningkai.
soobin had fallen for you from the first time he saw you, it was kinda ￼embarrassing if he was honest.
every time you'd walk into a room his eyes would fall on you, watch you fondly and by the time he was being snapped out of whatever trance you seem to put him in, the boys were teasing him about it.
his heart would pound in his chest, his ears would turn red and he would be left completely speechless. mentally cursing at himself for not saying anything to you.
it wasn't until yeonjun approached you to tell you what was going on that you guys finally spoke. was he being a little snitch? yes, but he did help bring you and soobin together.
if it wasn't for yeonjun you would have never known that the crush you had on soobin was returned. you would have never stayed late after class to talk to him. and you both would have never mustered up the courage to go out on a date.
after a couple days of talking after class you both exchanged numbers, then a couple weeks after non-stop text messaging soobin called you! and it wasn't just any call, he was asking you out on a date.
your heart was full hearing him ask if you were free on friday night to go to this cool retro arcade bar. he stuttered a bit, as he asked and you didn't even let him finish before saying yes.
it took him off guard, but it made him smile from his room. part of him happy yeonjun stuck his nose into his buisness, just this once.
the date went amazing, you guys laughed and played games until 2 in the morning. you guys didn't even notice it was so late, you both were having too much fun. luckily, the date went so well, it was the starting point for many many more and the start of a very beautiful relationship.
as we all know soobin is an introvert, so pda is a big no no for him. he will kiss and love on you when you guys are alone but around others he'd probably hold your hand and leave it at that.
he hates cheesy things, literally could never do the matching shirts of outfit thing he would literally blow up. everytime he sees one of those couples, he leans over and makes fun of them in your ear to make you laugh.
expect kisses on your forehead ALL the time. most times he comes from behind, leans his whole body over you just to leave a quick kiss on your forehead.
he'll most likely sit you on his lap as he plays games. if you play video games as well then you both will be gaming while cuddling. literally each time you guys team up while playing, you guys always win. it makes him so happy.
he loves coming up behind you and reading what ever you're reading from behind your shoulder.
also make sure he doesn't spend all his money playing the claw machine games because he will. no matter how bad he is he will want to get you something from it.
there are cuddles at all times, he loves being with you and touching you in anyway. he usually tucks his head in your neck and happily lays there with you.
he literally loves any opportunity to get something off the top shelf for you. meaning, expect teasing from him.
he loves to tease you, and loves it when you do the same to him. it's all jokes so no one is seriously hurt at the end. plus, it shows you both can laugh.
most times when you guys are listening to music he will rap out loud to make you laugh since he knows you love his awful rapping.
out of all pet names he can call you, he really likes calling you "bun" or "bunny". he thinks its different from the standard and dry plain old "baby".
with this being said, he will whine if you call him something like "babe" or "baby" because he thinks thats just a regular everyday pet name. he wants you to get creative.
watch out because he literally loves kissing you. like he LOVES it. once he kisses for the first time he will continue to do it until he can't get enough.
he loves when you show interest in things he likes, which in return he looks up things you like as well.
expect him getting super pouty when he feels jealous, he doesn't get jealous often but when he does; he pouts all day.
you learn his nightly routine so you help him make sure his desk chair is pushed all the way in, the closet door is closed, and now that you're with him he closes the door to his room.
being very honest he started washing his face because you do it. he spends time in the bathroom with you washing his face. which ends up in you washing his face for him.
he's a big baby for most things, will often whine to get his way or to keep you close to him. sometimes to even to get you to bring him things.
always, always, ALWAYS thinks of you when shopping and often times brings you gifts. and they aren't dumb gifts you would never use, it's actually thought out gifts like things he knows you'd wear or use daily.
he also loves when you wear his clothes, he loves seeing how they fit on you, how big they are and how small and comfortable you look in it.
most dates he takes you on are late at night, to parks, arcades, gaming cafes, or to stores for late night ramen or ice cream runs.
he opens most doors for you, holds doors open, walks on the outside of the sidewalk (the side closest to the cars), guides you through spaces with a hand on your lower back.
he often times thinks its cute when you beat him in something and you get so happy you brag about it the rest of the day.
something he will always do for you no matter what, is hum or sing softly at your request. no matter how sleepy he is, he will always sing for you no matter what just because you asked.
you better believe that you'll be screaming and dancing to the lyrics of all block b songs with him.
when he's away on tour or working late he will always try to facetime you at some point in the day. even if he has to stay up till 3 am, no matter if you have to scold him for staying up late.
he will probably come to you when he's looking for advice or a second opinion. he's the leader pf his group and often needs to resolve conflicts or make hard decisions, so he always confides in you to see what you think.
expect to see him flustered a lot, just because you're dating it doesn't mean you don't make him blush anymore. if anything while in the relationship he's blushing more than ever. he's just still in shock he got the person he wanted the most.
yes, the boys make fun of him for being so whipped for you. but it's cute, and you're just as whipped for him.
fights are usually rare, soobin is someone who tries to talk things out before things get out of hand. usually these conversations are kinda hard to have but he always reminds you he loves you at the end
if for whatever reason he's mad at you, he'll probably get a bit quieter than normal. go to sleep on his side of the bed without a word, probably talk about it in the morning if he's ready.
if you're mad at him, he would understand. he wouldn't even try to get you to talk to him, he'd give you your space and kiss your head before bed.
most times soobin is very gentle when it comes to sex. lots of kissing, lots of whispered compliments.
he's someone who doesn't enjoy quickies, instead he likes taking his time with you and gets off on the fact that you feel good.
usually he gets a bit more touchy than normal when he's horny or in the mood. he will not want to do anything in public, again thats a big no no. but as soon as he gets you alone in private. it's OVER.
he likes when you take control, he thinks it's hot but also just enjoys being submissive for the most part. when he's on top he's also very submissive, he needs a dominate bottom to tell him what you like.
he's going to always, always, always ask if he can kiss or touch you. he will never do anything without your consent no matter how long you guys are together.
something about him tells me that his neck is very sensitive and gets off on hickies or regular neck kisses.
he has in fact put on fluffy animal ears and liked the reaction he got from you so, he likes wearing them for you.
he loves when you leave marks on him. any type of lingering mark to remind him of the night before on his body he likes.
expect to hear lots of whiney moans, and begging coming from him. he's truly adorable when he's close to his high.
after care is amazing with him, he thinks of everything. he makes sure you're alright, and probably runs yo￼u a hot shower you can both take together. even feed you after with a snack.
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Bf!Yeonjun helping you move into your new apartment, which is basically him eyeing you and checking you out every time you bend down to pick something up, or when the window is open and sunlight falls on your face and he's just like 'damn what did I do to deserve them'.
Helps you fix the curtain even though you can very well do it yourself, but he just wants to impress you by showing you how tall he is-
Stares at you. Doesn't even care when you catch him staring at you cuz he's just in love y'all. When you ask him why he's starting at you, he'd probably blush for like 2 seconds and say some corny shit like "how can I not stare when your so perfect"
Basically a tease throughout the day but really helps you a lot. he would probably give you shoulder massages and kisses after you guys are done.
Would buy you a meal and basically shower you with so much love you'd be jealous of yourself lmao (where do I get a Yeonjun sigh)
Mellow speaks: Not at me being stupid and forgetting that this request existed, but anyhoo, here I am right now! I know I had said I won't create another alphabet for a while, but this request is already some 10 days overdue, so here you are lovely anon! Hope you guys enjoy reading this!
A - Attractive
(What do they find most attractive in a person and about you?)
Soobin would definitely want a person who can understand him, and who can help him come out of his shell. Sure, he's grown much more open and confident over the past few years, but he's still shy when meeting strangers. So he would want someone who would make the first move, instead of being intimidated by how he looks when he's not smiling or how tall he is.
He is great at reading people's emotions, and would probably want someone that can read his emotions, because that's something he doesn't get to experience everyday. He would want a person who can understand without him having to say much, and who wouldn't judge him for feeling the way he does.
B - Baby
(Do they want a family? Why/Why Not? How big?)
Sometime down the road, I can see Soobin as the type to want to have a family, provided he finds the right person. Believe it or not, he would probably be quite good with kids, and ideally would want to have two kids of his own.
C - Cuddle
(Do they like to cuddle? How do they like to cuddle most?)
Soobin absolutely lives for being cuddled by you, and despite his height, he prefers to be the smaller spoon. He just loves the feeling of having his head snuggled into your chest. With that said, he also enjoys having you in his lap, his long limbs forming a sort of cage around so that he can "protect" you (or so he says, the real reason is to not let you escape).
D - Date
Soobin is too much of a homebody to so much as even think about going out on a date with you. His idea of a perfect day is to order in food while you cuddle on the couch, a blanket thrown over your legs as you watch a movie. However, if you want to go out, then he won't think twice about accompanying you. He just loves getting to spend time with you, and if that means having to get dressed on a day off, then so be it. This is especially true if the place you're going to on your date is totally new to you (like a paintball class for example) or a place where he knows for a fact that he will enjoy himself (say a concert).
E - Energetic
(How energetic are they?)
He's not lazy, he just prefers to save his energy and efforts for something more important. However, he's all for helping you around the house as you go about doing your chores, and as I said, if you want to go out, he won't think about it twice. Still, to him, it's much better having his arms securely around you as you tuck yourselves under the blanket, talking about anything and everything.
F - Fight
(How are they in a fight?)
Soobin hates fighting and confrontation in general, and that's even more true if you're the one involved. He tries his best to maintain his cool and to stop an impending fight from actually happening, afraid he'll say or worse, do something he's gonna regret later. His prefers just going absolutely quiet and giving you the silent treatment (if you're at fault, of course). His eyes well up quite fast if you find yourselves in an argument, and when things cool down, he's very often the first one to apologize, because he just wants you back in his arms already.
G - Gifts
(How do they feel about gifts? How do they give them?)
Soobin likes saving things like gifts for special occasions, preferring to go all out and buy an expensive something for you. At the same time, if he finds a trinket or something similar that reminds him of you, he won't shy away from buying it straight away. He likes buying you things that he knows you will actually use, and so, he often keeps his ears open to pick up any hints that you're in need of something.
H - Honesty
(How honest are they? Do they keep secrets?)
When it's things about himself, Soobin prefers to come clean to you straight away, not wanting you to find out in a way that would hurt you. However, when it's something that's related to you, he takes a little longer in telling you, hating the possibility of a confrontation. He does end up telling you quite soon though, unable to keep things from you.
If it's something that's bothering him or if he's hurt about something, then that's a different story altogether. That's because most of the time, you'll have to find out what the issue is yourself, since he won't say anything, not wanting to be a bother.
I - Injury
(How do they react if you get injured?)
He would have quite a few different stages if you ever get injured. At first, it would take him a minute to process what's going on. When everything finally registers in his brain, he would go into full-on panic mode, smothering you with love and questions and fussing over the wound, tears welling up in his eyes at the thought of his baby being hurt. He would calm down soon enough though, patching you up and giving you some medicine, while also scolding you for being careless. He would start taking care of you from that moment on, pointing out when you're in danger of hurting yourself by being clumsy.
J - Jealousy
(Are they the jealous type? How do they deal with it?)
Soobin's jealousy usually stems from his fear of you finding someone better than him, and so whenever he feels like you're not giving him enough attention, he becomes a 100 times more clingy, trying to get you to take notice of him (as if you weren't already). It's quite easy to notice when he's jealous, since he becomes extra pouty and downright sad.
K - Kiss
(Their favorite way to kiss you?)
Soobin loves kissing you on the nose and the forehead. The former because he really finds you adorable whenever you scrunch your nose, and the latter because he loves placing his chin over your head whenever he hugs you, and from that position, the closest spot that he can kiss just so happens to be your forehead.
L - Love Confession
(How did they confess their love?)
To be honest, while it was painfully obvious that Soobin had a major crush on you, thanks to the way he would go all red and start stuttering whenever his eyes landed on you, confessing was a huge problem, since he just couldn't find it in himself to approach you, despite everyone telling him that you like him too.
In the end, it will probably be you who confesses, partially so that you can put the poor boy out of his misery. Not something too grand, just a simple whisper in his ear or even a text message late at night, saying, "I like you too."
M - Mean
(What are they like when they’re mean? Is it common?)
Soobin's idea of being mean most of the time involves not talking to you and giving you the silent treatment. Even though he is upset at you for something, he doesn't want to say something hurtful, and so, he prefers not to say anything altogether. However, there are time when some words do end up escaping his lips, and most of the time, they do sting quite a bit. He regrets it the moment he realizes what he said, and his resolve quickly flies out the window as he starts apologizing profusely, wrapping his arms around your form as tears threaten to spill from his eyes.
N - Nicknames
(Do they have nicknames for you? What are their favorites for them?)
Soobin mostly likes sticking with "baby" or "babe," since he finds them quite cute. He also frequently likes to twist your name, turning it into a pet name of sorts. As for himself, he really likes when you call him "Bunny," or better yet, "Soobunny." It never fails to make him smile.
O - Open
(How long did it take for them to open up to you?)
Soobin is still quite a shy person around strangers, so it was fairly awkward in the beginning. But soon enough, he started seeing you as a friend, and that made him want to open up to you and show you his goofy side. That, of course, changed when he realized he has feelings for you, becoming shy once again for fear of doing something stupid in front of you. Truth be told, it was this change in his demeanor that made you privy to his crush on you in the first place.
P - Proposal
(How would they propose? Would they propose at all?)
Soobin would want to propose to you one day, but he would also be totally down for you being the one proposing. If it ends up being him though, he would probably want to keep it simple and intimate. I see him as the type to either propose when you're in bed, ready to fall asleep, or to take you out in the middle of the night to a place he knows the both of you cherish. He would prepare a long speech, and while he would have no trouble memorizing it (he was MC Soobin after all), when the moment finally arrives, he'd realize that something pre-prepared is nowhere near as sincere as what he's thinking at that exact moment.
Q - Quiet
(What are quiet moments like with them?)
When he's alone with you, Soobin cherishes the silence, feeling comfortable just basking in your presence. He loves listening to the sound of your heartbeat, lulling him to dreamland as he holds you close.
R - Rainy Day
(What are they like in the rain?)
Typically, Soobin just likes to cuddle with you under the duvet, sipping cocoa as you watch some sappy movie. There are days however, when one of you manages to pull the other out, just to play around and get soaked in the rain. Safe to say, you probably end up catching a cold the next day, and Soobin's wish of cuddling with you while being covered in blankets comes true anyway.
S - Sad
(How do they handle their sadness? How do they react to yours?)
Some might think he likes to be left alone when upset, but in reality, his way of dealing with sadness is hiding in your arms and ranting to you for hours. He really appreciates the fact that you are always there to just listen, and he can't thank you enough for it.
The same goes for your sadness, as he does his best to listen to you, giving you his own opinion and advice on things. He knows that the best way to improve someone's mood is to let them rant, and so, he's always ears for you.
T - Time
(How long did it take for you to get together?)
As I said earlier, even though Soobin has a massive crush on you, he just can't find it himself to confess to you, being a tad bit too nervous. So it's safe to say that he lost quite a lot of precious time in second-thinking everything, time that he could have spent with you. In the end, after practically months of watching him suffer, you finally end up being the one to take the lead, either directly, or indirectly by giving him hints.
U - Unique
(What’s an interesting thing about them that not a lot of people know about?)
When he's in a mood or is throwing a tantrum or is simply ignoring you because he's upset, the quickest and surest way to get him to pay attention to you is to hang out with the members. Seeing you laugh and hug his group mates never fails to make him jealous, and you can rest assured that he'll be begging for your love and attention in a matter of minutes.
V - Value
(What are some of the things they value most in life? value most about you?)
In life, Soobin values the people (and in Odi's case, animals) he cares about, the most. That includes his members, his family, his friends, Odi and of course, you. He has always been extremely thankful for the love and support he has received, and strives to always try and give it back.
As for you, I think it would be easier to answer what he doesn't value about you. He just loves every aspect and every side of you, but if he were to choose, he would say the way you always understand him even when he himself doesn't know what he feels. He also really admires the way you're not afraid to speak your mind, and stand up for what's right.
W - Wildcard
(random fluff headcanon)
There's two sides to Soobin's reactions when it comes to PDA, and there's no in-between. If he's the one initiating things, then you can rest assured that he will be oozing confidence, pulling you onto his lap, giving you kisses, patting your hair, and what not. But if you're the one to make the first move, all his confidence will literally fly out the window, as he proceeds to turn into a blushing, stuttering mess.
X - XO
(Are they affectionate with hugs and kisses? If not, are they in other ways?)
Soobin being Soobin, he's an absolute sucker for showing affection through his actions. If given his way, he would remain attached to you 24/7, just feeling your smaller form hidden away from the world in his arms. He's also big on kisses, though most of the time, he likes to demand them rather than give them. You can expect him to start pouting if he's ever in need of kisses, sticking his bottom lip out until you give him what he wants.
Y - Yearn
(How do they deal with yearning?)
When he misses you, Soobin just can't stop talking about you. He loves to tell everyone just how much he loves you, and boasting about how amazing you are. But when that's not enough for him, you can expect a ton of texts and voice messages from him, all of them ranting about how he can't wait to hold you in his arms again.
Z - Zen
(What makes them calm?)
Nothing calms Soobin down more than having you in his arms (or better yet, being in your arms), his head on your chest as he listens to your soft heartbeat. He just loves being attached to you like gum, talking to you for hours on end.
SYNOPSIS. after jake takes a new liking to his friend's diligent liberal arts partner, he decides to start a bet with his friends. "lets play a game. whoever can win her heart gets anything, anything they want."
Characters: Kai Kamal Huening x Reader/Spider-Man x Reader
Genre: Friends to lovers
Word Count: 1435
Synopsis: Since moving to New York City, life was…different. You were an average college kid in a new city, taking hard college classes, and with practically no friends. You never were the type to stand out, so why Spider-Man was friends with you, you’d never know. But what happens when a blond boy gets added to the mix?
Before he can get a word out you rush out of the room. He’s Spider-Man.
Kai is Spider-Man!
The thought plays on a loop in your brain. “Y/n wait!” You heard from behind but you ignored his voice. “Y/n!” He dashed to catch up to you and spun you around.
“Don’t touch me!” You scream causing some nearby to peek at the situation. You glance around at the scene you caused, before whispering, “when were you going to tell me?” You asked and he stared, unable to formulate an answer. “Were you even going to tell me?”
“I was—“ you turn around before he can even give his excuse. “I didn’t want you to find out this way.”
“No, you didn’t want me to find out at all!”
“That’s not true!” He exclaims, and you put a hand up stopping him from talking.
“Please…I just need some time to think.” He nods and watches as you walk away.
If anyone asked you what you learned in class that day, you honestly couldn’t have been able to tell them, because all that was on your mind was, Kai and Spider-Man.
At first you were mad. Why didn’t he tell me? Does he not trust me? Maybe it’s more than that. You thought about your experiences with Kai first, then Spider-Man. Your face quickly turned a darker color as you remember how Spider-Man always acted with you.
You tried to wrap around your brain that, that was Kai underneath the mask all that time. Which just made you more confused. You were friends with both of them, well you were kind of more than friends with both of them, so why hide it?
Your brows knit as you ruffled your hair frustrated. Did he just lie for fun? No, that's not like him. How do I even know what’s like him, he’s been lying to me.
Suddenly you felt like an idiot as your thoughts continued to down-spiral. Was this some sick joke? Was he supposed to woo me as Spider-Man, then woo me as himself.
You jump, thoughts interrupted as you hear a tiny knock outside your window. You glance at the red masked man outside and you look at your phone’s screen, surprised at how fast time had flew.
Spider-Man knocks again and you look back seeing his forehead pressed against the window as he waves crumpled flowers in his hand.
You contemplate letting him in and honestly you just want to give him the cold shoulder, he deserved it! But you open the window for him anyway. He crawls in and you sit on your bed with arms crossed.
“This is for you,” he says, holding out the messed up flowers for a moment before yanking his arms back, “actually, don’t accept these, you deserve better than this.” He tosses the bouquet out the window before turning back to you.
“Look I know what I did was messed up,” he moves to sit next to you but you point, “stay there,” he freezes in place.
He shifts uncomfortably under your gaze as you practically stare daggers into his mask. “Take off the mask,” you command.
He stands still for a moment before reaching up and slowly pulling the mask off. His fluffy blonde hair stands crazy-like before he runs his fingers through, taming it. It was odd…seeing his face connected to the suit.
“I’m going to ask you questions and I want you to answer honestly,” he nods, agreeing. “Was it fun leading me on?”
Kai’s mouth hangs open, clearly taken aback. “Leading you on? No I—,” you raise a hand again and he stops.
“Did we meet by chance or did you plan it?”
“As Spider-Man we met by chance—“
“But as yourself, you planned it?”
“Planned it? I just walked up to you and said hi,” he chuckled but quickly stopped after seeing your not-so-giggly expression. “Please just let me explain everything.”
You think about it before motioning him to explain himself.
“I like you, actually I think I more than like you but I’m not going to touch that part yet,” you rolled your eyes as he shook his head refocusing. “No okay so, I met you as Spider-Man. I one hundred percent agree, I definitely should’ve told you early on but I panicked. I mean, what if you liked Spider-Man and not me.”
You make a scowl, “that makes no sense.”
“I know,” he moves to sit beside you on the bed and this time you didn’t stop him. “I know it makes no sense but, it did to me.” He takes a deep breath then lets it out. “When I’m Spider-Man I’m confident,” your gaze duplicates his that lay on the mask in his hands. “Spider-Man is cool, everybody likes Spider-Man. But Kai…”
Your initial cold ground softened as he continued. “Kai is just…me,” he mumbles with a shrug as he hangs his head unable to meet your eyes. “So I wanted you to meet me as myself, to see if you would still be interested.”
You hate it. You hated how even though you knew you should be mad, you had every right to be mad, you weren’t. “Are you kidding me?” You asked voice quiet. You wanted so badly to take his hand, and reassure him but you refrained from moving. “You are so sweet and charming. And don’t lie, you have confidence, you’re always so bold when complimenting me,” you blushed remembering how straight forward he was, from when he called you cute to when he asked to kiss you.
“Well yeah that’s because it was you. But then at the party when you didn’t kiss me and then you kissed Spider-Man. It made me think you didn’t really like me…you only liked Spider-Man.”
“But I kissed Spider-Man to practice,” you explained.
“But you said you liked Spider-Man during that kiss.”
You blushed deeper thinking about the words you exchanged with him. “Well yes, but guess what?”
He looks at you with eyebrows raised waiting for you to continue. You rest your hand over his, “you’re Spider-Man,” you say with a smile. “All those nights, that was you. I didn’t like Spider-Man because of a little kiss. I liked him before that, that just made me realize.” He smiles a little at your words, “and you know what else?”
“You are both you and Spider-Man, it doesn’t get much simpler than that.”
Hueningkai now beaming at your words, nods while rubbing the back of his head, a habit you now found adorable. “Now I feel dumb.”
“Good.” A moment goes before Kai speaks up again. “So…” Kai’s voice filled the air, “do you forgive me?”
You think about the question and open your mouth but he quickly stops you, “wait, I’ll be right back!” He announced quickly putting on his mask. He swung out the window, leaving you confused.
Almost five minutes later, he returns wearing normal clothes and hiding a hand behind his back. “What’s going on?” You ask unsure of what he was about to pull.
Kai holds out a beautifully organized bouquet with a card, “this is for you.” You can’t hide your grin as you take the flowers. “I know what I did was terrible, and I promise I will be one hundred and ten percent honest with you. These are my apology flowers…”
Your eyes gaze over the pretty colors of the bouquet while he waits for a response. Wiping the smile off your face you look back up at him, “I don’t agree with what you did, and how you did things.” His expression turns uneasy at your words. “But, I think I understand why you did it. Plus you’re just lucky I hate being mad! So yes, I forgive you,” you prop onto your tippy-toes placing a kiss against his cheek.
You lean back down, eyes back on the flowers as his hand automatically brushes over where your lips met his skin. “Ah!” He shouts suddenly remembering something. Kai points a finger at the flowers, “they’re also maybe…a would you like to go out officially flowers—if you want to—I mean don’t feel pressured I can handle reje—“
“I would love to go out with you.” His previously nervous expression relaxes as his excitement takes over and he wraps you in a big hug. “Careful don’t crush the flowers,” you scream. “Ack!” He immediately drops you and you toss the flowers onto your bed.
You hold out your arms wide, “okay, now.” He grins engulfing you in a hug and you relax letting yourself sink into his arms.
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Woooo~🎉🥳🎉That was my first series, how was it? Thanks so much for reading till the end. I am working on another marvel series soon so keep an eye out for that one next week 👀 . Okay I hope you all enjoyed and have a spectacular day/night! ✨✨💕✨✨
synopsis: your brother and heeseung have been friends since you can remember. your brother had made it very clear that you were off limits, but what happens when you return from australia to attend the same university as heeseung AND work the same part time job with him? falling in love with your brothers best friend sounds rather….cliché doesn’t it
summary: kai gets a little bit of a lesson in female anataomy. lesson 1: fingering.
a/n: it’s not necessary to read part 1, this is mostly standalone. <33
A netflix night on the couch has turned into a heated makeout session with the television muted. Kai has you up against the armrest and for the first time ever he’s dared to feel you up through your shorts.
In shock and pleasure, you accost him for being a naughty boy and ask, “Are you sure you’re ready to go there?”
“Yes, please,” he moans into your lips. “i want to make you feel good too.”
“Then hands off. i have to show you how first.” You sit up and throw your shorts and underwear to the floor. Kai stares as you lay back down. He’s never seen you naked before— scratch that, he’s never seen anyone naked in this context before. As his eyes go wide he reaches out to touch you without thinking.
You grab Kai by the wrist. “i said, i’m going to show you how first. Hands behind your back,” you command. Kai crosses his arms behind him but not without whining first.
You touch yourself as he watches in awe. You tease, “Way better than porn, right?”
Practically drooling, Kai replies, “Much better.” He keeps squirming, like he wants to move his arms but you’re not sure if he wants to touch you or himself. Either way, it’s not time yet so you leave him twitching.
“You know where the clit is, right baby?” You emphasize your words by circling your clit with two fingers and devolve to some pretty embarrassing involuntary moans. Trying to regain your composure, you say, “See that— that’s the good spot. You try.”
Kai squeaks out a “Please,” and you guide him by the wrist to touch you. Eagerly, he latches on and tries to copy what you were doing to yourself. It’s sloppy and heavy handed but he’s trying so hard that it feels good anyway.
Still holding Kai by the wrist you bring his fingers to your entrance. “Want them inside me,” you moan. He slowly enters you, with one finger and then two he explores your body.
Kai is transfixed, it’s all magical to him. “A—Am i doing it right?” he asks.
“You’re doing great,” you say, cupping his cheek in your hand. “Try curling your fingers a little bit to find my g-spot, okay?”
“O—Okay.” You’re not confident he knows what a g-spot is exactly, but he curls his fingers anyway. His hands are much bigger, thicker than you’re used to. You can’t help but imagine how good his cock would feel if just two digits fill you up so well.
“Fuck! You found it, baby. Right there, please,” you beg Kai with a tight grip on his wrist keeping him where he is. Your other hand rubs on your clit and you roll your hips into his touch as you feel your orgasm creeping up on you. It’s not even that he’s particularly gifted at fingerbanging, in fact he’s bad at it, but the physical sensation pales in comparison to raw arousal brought up from seeing your sweet, innocent Huening Kai knuckle deep in your pussy. Those puppy dog eyes staring back at you in wonder and awe, the lovely noises he makes on every heavy breath, his neglected erection straining against his jeans. It’s all too much. “You’re gonna make me cum. Oh baby, i’m so proud.”
Kai speeds up his motions and places one sweet kiss to your cheek. His voice is shaking as he says, “Please, c—cum. Wanna make you feel as good as i did.”
With that your orgasm washes over you like a tsunami. With the explosive pleasure you scream and make an uglier face than you can even think to care about right now. You fuck yourself onto Kai’s hand as you ride it out.
Once you’ve settled down and removed Kai’s filthied hands from you, his mouth runs a mile a minute, “i did good, right? Well you— so that’s why— then yeah, but still—“ Stutters, shaking hands, and a wavering voice and all, his jitters are palpable.
“Baby,” You frown. “You did amazing for your first time. Let’s just go get cleaned up.”
Kai just stares at you for a second and brings his hand up next to his face. He conjures up his small voice to say, “Can i… first?”
You furrow your brows at him, unsure of what he’s getting at. “Can you what, honey?”
“i— i wanted to taste you.”
“Oh!” you exclaim, taken aback by Kai asking permission for something so silly. “You can lick your fingers clean, baby. And next time you can taste me for real, okay?”
Kai flashes a pure smile and admires the wet and sticky mess all over his hand before lapping it up like icing. “It doesn’t taste like how i thought,” he says, giggling. “It just tastes like… a person.”
You smack his shoulder, laughing. “Well, i am a person, silly! There’s nothing special to it really. Cum is what tastes weird.”
Kai shakes his head, smiling awkwardly. “I wouldn’t know.”