everyday people ask me “are you two going out?” & you don’t realize how painful it is to reply no we’re just friends
everyday people ask me “are you two going out?” & you don’t realize how painful it is to reply no we’re just friends
The scary thing about meeting someone online, who lives thousands of miles away, is that with one click of a button it can all go away.
I just opened up to him about something big and I’m anxiously waiting for his response, hoping that he doesn’t just disappear.
You say it’s discontinued
So long it took for you to
Say something that you feel
I wonder which is real
Just once I wanted validation
Just once I’d like the vindication
Feeling I was imagining
Something between us happening
I still don’t know the situation
before the isolation
What were we culminating?
You’re too disconnected now
And I’m so disenchanted
I still look for you but I’m trying to heal.
I’m not mad you chose yourself
That’s fine if that’s your deal
Sometimes I’d rather if you hate me
But I’m unsure of that lately
Your friends made a good appeal
Why can’t you just say directly
What I mean to you
Please tell me
So I know where we stand.
It’s understated how confused
and frustrated I have been
heart heavy in my hand.
You speak in rhymes
and I’m shit at riddles
I don’t like these games
Too old and fickle
Please just state your intentions
Before my feelings dwindle
no hope for intervention
Single. Final. Without a doubt.
Abscission you to keep
Myself.
Your time is running out.
I have searched for my mother’s love in all corners of the world.
— I Remain In Darkness by Annie Ernaux
“A toast to Emily. Always the bridesmaid, never the bride,” be hitting a lil diff tonight.
Maybe love is coming over in the middle of the night when the power goes out because you know she is afraid of the dark. And maybe love is walking away because it’s the only way she’ll find the light again.
S //
She was the fire that lit up my life.
But the thing about fires is,
They have to die out at some point.
S //
I dont fall in love easily, but when I do it feels like I’m free-falling from the stars, the wind gently whipping my hair, flowing around my arms, clouds surrounding me. Everything feels so serene, so right.
I don’t fall in love easily,
But when I do, I love with my whole heart.
I’ve never known what it’s like to be loved unconditionally,
And I worry that I never will find out what it’s like to hold someone’s heart in your hands
Me and him just had a little quiz and as stupid as it sounds it just made me so happy. Happier than I’ve been in a while. It was so fun and we had cute banter and I’m pretty sure he lost on purpose because all of my questions were aimed at things he loves. Why can’t I just be with him instead of stuck in the situation I’m in.