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U can’t be my little moon when everyone’s looking at you.

You’re more like earth’s moon not saturn’s.

Wanted by so many .. angel here beautiful there .. they’re not wrong and i am happy for you but i don’t feel like I’m enough . I couldn’t care less for others but what pains me is who i am to u, how u handle me. Because even after all my love we should act upon how we get treated right ..?

We had openness,truthfulness and all around cute,flirty and funny vibes ..Our transparency and honesty was nice and so what i get hurt, it’s worth it when u know u hurt for important shit but if u take that option from me what’s the point

U owe me a date. Ah yes a date..

Honestly.. i dunno anymore

I’m sorry for what I’ve said and what I’ve done to you. To us. Our last argument taught me what losing somebody means. And I don’t want to lose you. My heart felt like it was slowly burning and ripping out of my chest. And my mind was so full of your image. I couldn’t have 5 minutes without thinking of what I’ve done. This time I’ll change everything. I can’t risk once again. I won’t do that. You’re the most precious person I’ve met my whole life and I love you.

i check your instagram to see if you’ve been online when you haven’t text me and it makes me go a little more insane everytime i do it

i need you to fucking understand that im not christian without trying to convert me during every goddamn conversation we have. please

I’m saying dude a lot but you get it. like ik [his gf] wants to spend a lot of time w you but if you ever need a break man just tell her something bad happened in my family or smth so you can get a break

Me da miedo querer porque yo no sé querer poquito

god i hope nobody ever has to date you. whoever they are, theyre definitely too good for you

So… this is it, just like that.
:(

• new voicemail: 12:44 am
• *click*
• hey. it’s me. you uh - you probably already knew that. *sigh* i wasn’t even sure i should call you. it’s just that i’m sitting outside listening to the river and the trees and i am so alone. *pause* not alone emotionally, but in the sense that the night air at my back feels like a yawning void. i texted you about looking at the moon but what i didn’t say was my parents bring out the worst in each other. and i’ve never been good at love. but i want so badly, so wholly to have someone. they pick and bicker and always know just the wrong thing to say but i still believe. i still believe that someday i’ll have a love that feels like coming home. if you’ll let me, i want to love you the right way. the way i know we’ve both dreamed of. *pause* you said you’d rather have one or two great loves in your life. if you’ll let me, i want to be one of them. baby, i wasn’t sure if i should call you, wasn’t sure you’d want to hear any of this. but the truth is, i miss you in my very bones. *sigh* my natural inclination is to say i think we must have known each other in another life. to wax poetic about the mysterious motion of fate. but in truth this is my first time in so many ways and i pray you won’t break my heart. in truth i feel as though the stars are going to swallow me whole. i can almost taste seattle and with it, you. almost. *long pause* baby, please tell me if i’m out of line. um, 'bye. i love you.
• *click*

tw: death
i don’t want a future i want to die. the idea of living to be an adult genuinely terrifies me

i had a great time at the park with u :DD

ya entendí que tú no eres el amor de mi vida

May I hope you hug me on my birthday? Please…?!

don’t reblog
It’s the 5th of August today. Exactly one year. I can look at the kitchen knives now, I can breathe a little bit easier. I didn’t think I’d make it more than two days, but here I am after a whole year. I’m going to last another year, and so many that day becomes a distant memory. I’m not going to break any promises.

tw: eating disorders
you knew i had problems w my weight/body/eating but you still told me my calves looked swollen only to deny it later. youve complimented my appearance too and ive never believed you. you have disordered eating habits too, how do you not get it? asking if i think youre fat bc were similar in weight isnt fucking helpful. telling me to eat “for you” isnt gonna do anything. ive lost weight since the beginning of quarantine and i cant stop thinking about how youd react to knowing.

will u smile when u see me? can I just please have a guarantee that we can be in the woods together again, and I can make u smile? I don’t want to not know anymore. can I bring you joy? can I kiss u?

i miss you.

I dont want anything serious with you. I want to flirt, joke, be friendly, fuck maybe if you want, and just get closer. Why are you so far away. I don’t want anything serious. I just want you

i feel so hurt by you. you cheated on me. i don’t want to leave you. i want to stay with you but i have no assurance you won’t do this again.

do you think about me? do you miss me? do you still love me? do you still hope, deep down, that some day we’ll meet again? are you happy?