September 22nd, 2020: Psychiatrist Appointment: Journal
Today was my psychiatrist appointment. Here’s how it went.
I talked to my doctor. In 2 weeks or so we’re going to lower the Invega back to 9mg and keep lowering it. She said we haven’t noticed any benefit on the high dose so we may as well take me off of it.
She said she’s still looking into Clozapine programs and she’s not sure if it’ll even be accessible to me because I’m not in the programs. She said she’ll keep looking into it.
I told her I planned to drop the semester and she asked me what I plan to do with my free time and I said that I plan to find volunteer work if there’s anything available at the moment.
I told her the voices are constant and that I feel monitored and stuff like that. I said I hear people talk about killing me and that going outside can be hard because I feel like I’m being followed. I also said I still think there’s devices in my medication and stuff like that.
So we’re trying to see if the 12mg starts to work (which it probably won’t). But then we’re lowering it because there’s no benefit. The appointment was 10 minutes. So that’s what it’s about. I see her next week.