I would have loved you until my breathing stopped. I would have loved you until I had nothing left to give. I would have loved and loved and loved and loved.
omg so i totally forgot to post about this but i uploaded my first video the other day! here's the link, if anyone's interested :^). i think i'm gonna do a 3-day one next, just so it's a bit longer; this one was really more to just get an idea of how i want to edit everything.
https://youtu.be/bVD2kjs1gV0
Me over here worrying that my boss is mad at me for calling out sick for 5 days while I've had the flu, when in the meantime he and my coworkers were planning a birthday party for me 😢
people who fuckin NEVER have a thought or say a word on public current news really piss me off. stop fuckingn posting ur baby on facebook. literally i get wanting to share good news every now and then but if u literally never ever EVER share info on super fucking important things i literally cannot stand it.
"i'd rather focus on the good than the bad" is such a fucking privileged take to have, are u kidding? also i'm specifically talking about. like cousins/family i have on facebook that never utter a fuckin peep about any current events ever they just share fuckin. pictures of their babies every single day as if we forgot what they look like
If i had to pick my least favorite mental illness it’d be ptsd followed right after by ocd. Mostly because with ptsd i have to relive the padt and the pain over and over and over again. With ocd i have to watch the most horrific things happen in my head and try to remember that what im seeing isn’t real.
Once i almost killed myself after a really bad stream of intrusive thoughts. It hurts having these so much and it hurts so much. Please acknowledge the pain we go through please
I hate that some of my trauma??? Paranoia??? Comes from the internet and I can barley use it sometimes. I can’t even look at certain social media apps anymore. It sucks bc I kinda need the internet when regressed to play games and watch movies and stuff, but it’s scary to go on it. Tumblr has always been an iffy site for me and the fact I’m here and posting scares me every time, but if I don’t try I won’t get over the fear right?
I'm so stressed out and I haven't done my taxes or the census or renewed my parking ticket and my laptop just broke and I'm literally incapable of doing anything other than my two 4 HR shifts and I came to my parents who live 40 mins away because my dad deleted the mail app on his phone and I need to drive him to the hospital tomorrow and I'm just so fucking tired lmfao
I never know what’s really an issue and what’s not bc of bpd and the people around me will always chalk it up to bpd when I explain the situation to them so that’s no help either
Am I being gaslit by everyone or is the issue really not that bad???? I DONT KNOW
Ive been saying that i have so much ideas that i wished i could draw them at the same time, so ive started to.... kinda
I open up two canvases with two drawing ideas and i make sketches for both of them and start with one. Whenever i get stuck in a drawing, I switch to the second and work on it until im satisfied and continue with the first. I feel like this is more productive :] so like i never stop drawing.
