TW: eating disorder
When you walk into the kitchen you feel both of their gazes fixed on you. You sit on the stool between Natasha and Wanda and look at the sandwich uncomfortably.
Wanda takes your hand and Natasha strokes your arm as soon as they feel your hesitation through your bonding.
It is light, you tell yourself mentally, you cannot disappoint them and you absolutely cannot be hospitalized. You grab the sandwich with your free hand and take a deep breath as you bite into the top. You chase away the nausea and then swallow the bite. You don't know how long it's been when you finally finish the sandwich. As soon as you finish drinking the water in your glass, your soulmates hold you in a hug
"You did a great job," Wanda whispers, leaving you a kiss on her cheek.
"We are proud of you" Nat strokes your hips and gives you a smile full of love.
Your heart warms as they hold you in a hug.
You hide your head in the crook of the former Russian spy's neck and continue to hold Wanda's hand.
The three of you stay like this for quite some time before J.A.R.V.I.S. speaks, it almost makes you have a heart attack.
“Miss Maximoff, Agent Romanoff and Miss y / n; Mr. Stark asks if you could kindly join the rest of the team in the meeting room. " Natasha barely restrains herself from snorting as she stands up before pulling you and Wanda up too.
"I don't want to hear Stark and Steve fighting for hours Nat." Wanda wrinkles her nose as she takes both of you by the hand and you walk to the meeting room exiting the kitchen.
"Maybe they won't fight?" You say and they both look at you as if a second head has suddenly sprung up.
You don't know Steve or Tony very well yet so you don't know how strong their rivalry is. It goes without saying that the look your soulmates give you is more than enough to underline it.
"I beg your pardon," an amused smile curls your lips before that
Natasha opens the glass door on your right and you enter what you assume to be the meeting room.
Steve and Tony are on opposite sides of the large glass table - at the "head of the table" - and the others are already seated and their heads turn to the three of you as you enter.
"Glad to see you weren't lost ..." Tony smiles at you before turning to the slide projected on the wall.
You refrain from rolling your eyes, the more the days pass, the more you know that you and that arrogant multi-billionaire will not get along.
"Good! Now that we're all here we can get started "Steve says and, after glaring at Tony, stands up and starts talking.
The captain says something about some kind of mission in London but you don't concentrate, you have no powers and you don't see just how you could be useful to the strongest people in the Universe. You're just a computer scientist after all. And a hacker, an excellent hacker.
Steve keeps talking and your gaze is fixed on your soulmates. Before you admire Wanda, her red hair strokes her face and her gaze is well focused on Steve and, most likely, on what she is saying.
Then you turn to Natasha, the blonde looks at Steve; her mask does not reveal any emotion but you notice that she too is very concentrated and for a moment you feel like you are back in high school: when everyone listened to the teacher that she explained while you were traveling with your mind.
You are distracted from your thoughts by a light nudge on Nat's hips. He gives you a look, as if asking if he's okay and you nod and give her a little smile.
Wanda turned to you as soon as she saw Nat trying to get your attention and she watched her scene before squeezing her thigh.
"Okay, so… here comes your part y/n, if you want to accept it," Steve says.
You see Wanda and Natasha stiffen and immediately put themselves in a "defense" position.
"No," Natasha says and is quickly followed by Wanda
"You will not take her to the field Steve"
The two Avengers immediately get on the defensive as soon as those words leave the Captain's lips.
A gray-haired gentleman, nearly seventy-something you hadn't even noticed before-stands up and begins to speak, his tone stern and unquestionable as he addresses your soulmates.
“Agent Romanoff, this is not a request; the mission is important and the involvement of a hacker is necessary. Agent Johnson is unavailable and Miss Taylor is your soulmate and we assumed that was the best option. We know her curriculum vitae "you try not to blush with embarrassment when his gaze rests on you:" and her involvement in the mission is of vital importance. "
Wanda's eyes glow red as her gaze rests on the man who introduced himself as Secretary Ross - or at least that's what you see written on her badge she hung around her neck - and you you hasten to take her hand from under the table. The traces of her circles relax on her palm with her thumb and you immediately notice that her shoulders relax and her eyes go back to that bright green that you love so much.
"Gentlemen, sir!" And popsicle ... "Tony smirks and if the looks could kill the billionaire he would already be dead, given the look Steve was giving him:" The mission is in a week and the baking starts tomorrow, until then enjoy your free time and go in peace. "
You all get up, you haven't figured out what you're going to do yet but if it has to do with pressing a computer key… well, you can do it.
You follow Natasha and Wanda and without realizing it you are out of the tower and walk the streets of Manhattan.
You feel their concern through your bond and you reach out and take their hands and stop them with a little squeeze.
The worry suddenly disappears from their faces and is replaced with smiles full of love.
“I'll be fine, I just have to stay in some van fiddling with a computer while you kick the bad guys' ass, right? I think I'm capable of it. ”You shrug your shoulders and give them a smile to try to reassure them.
Needless to say, it doesn't work, it just doesn't work at all.
"Honey, we know perfectly well that you are capable of it but you are going through a delicate moment-" Wanda glances at Natasha who beckons her to continue: "and we would not want the mission to bring you other worries ..."
You remain silent for a few seconds, you should have seen it coming.
Probably they are with you only out of compassion, soulmates can also be only platonic and maybe this is the case for you. You certainly don't deserve them.
Obviously your food problem has interfered with how they see you and what they think about you. You know, it has happened to you before, and yet you wanted to believe it wouldn't happen this time too.
You let go of their hands and try to ignore their hurt looks as you turn away from them.
"II have to check some things in my apartment, I haven't been in practically since we met and ... I have to go"
So y / n, run away like you always do; good.
She keeps going round in your head over and over as you sow the girls in the crowd and thank, for once, that New York is a very busy city at any time of day or night.
You ignore their screams as you run as far as possible. After ten minutes of non-stop running, you slip into an alley and lean against a shop wall to catch your breath. Tears threaten to roll down your cheeks but you push them back trying to calm your wheezing.
Your apartment is exactly on the opposite side to where you are right now and your urge to cry increases; you put your hands in the pockets of the sweatshirt and pull up the hood before you break away from the wall.
Your phone rings four times before you decide to pick it up and answer it without even looking at who is calling you. Big mistake.
"Now you tell me what the fuck you're up to!" Daisy's angry and at the same time worried voice makes you swear silently as you move the device a little away from your ear. You're pretty sure your best friend punctured your eardrum.
"Shit Dee, tell me next time," a sigh escapes your lips as you cross the street, the phone squeezed between your shoulder and cheek.
"Y / n Taylor, now tell me why you ran away from your soulmates, two Avengers too !, and you're not cuddling with them"
You rub your face with your free hand while continuing to walk.
"I don't want to talk about it Daisy" your tone fades a bit and your best friend can't help but worry, she hasn't heard that tone since that damned day.
You hear a sigh from the other side before Daisy speaks again.
“I'm not in New York right now, I'm somewhere in the Brazilian sky, don't ask, trust me; but I'm also very worried y / n- "
You are about to speak, ready to tell her that she doesn't have to worry about you but the super heroine interrupts you.
“No, don't try to tell me that I don't have to worry because you said the exact same words that day and your tone is the same; so NO, I can't help but worry about what to me is a sister when I'm terrified of you doing it again "
Your heart sinks a little when you feel how scared the girl really is.
"I'm sorry Dee," you whisper and can no longer hold back the tears.
“I know honey, I know you're sorry; I just need you to not do it again, never again. ”Daisy's voice trembles slightly as she speaks.
“Now call them, okay? They were going crazy and I'll go crazy too if I don't know you with someone right now. "A small smile curls your lips, you adore Daisy.
"I'll do it Dee, thank you ... I love you"
"I love you too idiot”
You end the call and put the phone back in your pocket. You won't call them, you “love” Daisy but you love Nat and Wanda and they'll be better off without you around. They don't need you, their relationship was going very well even before you arrived, you could see it with your own eyes.
In less than ten minutes, you are already entering your apartment. It's tiny, your room in the Avengers tower is almost bigger than the whole studio apartment but that's still your home.
You pull off your hood and take off your shoes before lying down on the sofa bed.
Your attention is focused on the small crack that runs through most of the ceiling, it has been there since you moved; the owner said it hadn't damaged anything but you had serious doubts about it.
The moving clock hands are the only noise in the apartment, not to mention the typical sounds of New York outside the window.
You just flinch when you hear someone knock on the door. You stand up and the weight that you feel your shoulders have been carrying since you left Wanda and Natasha on that sidewalk gets smaller and smaller as you get closer to the door. And when you open it, it disappears completely.
Wanda and Natasha are in front of you, worried faces filling with joy when they meet your gaze.
"She's here, thanks Daisy." Natasha ends the call, slips the phone into her pocket and then fixes her gaze on yours.
Damn, your best friend knows you all too well.
Before you can even think of shutting the door on the two girls, like any teenager mad at her parents, Wanda slingshot on you and hugs you.
"Thank god you're okay" a great sigh of relief escapes her lips and you can't help but return her hug.
You missed it like air, they missed you like air ... your body is as if it had been without a heart for the short time you were apart.
Natasha joins the two of you and holds you both in a hug.
"You made us worry about printsessa" Natasha leaves you a kiss on the top of your head as you let them into the apartment.
You kick a sock on the ground by hiding it under the built-in wardrobe and then close the door.
"I didn't want to do it, I'm sorry"
If only you had a dollar for every "I'm sorry" you've ever said in your entire life… you'd be richer than Tony right now.
Wanda shakes her head and approaches you again, taking your hands in hers.
«We have to apologize to you, I have to apologize. Before I didn't choose the right words »the Sokovian caresses your hands while Natasha caresses your back.
"I meant that your health is more important than any other mission, it is even more important than saving the world and that we don't want the mission to make you think that you have to neglect your health because you are doing so well and we are so proud of you. And-"
A smile you can't contain paints her face as you pull the Sokoviana by the hips and kiss her to stop her wandering. You let out a laugh before kissing Natasha too.
When you break away your breaths are heavy and all three are smiling like idiots.
"I don't deserve you," you stroke both of their faces and give them a small smile.
"We're the ones who don't deserve you." Wanda pushes a lock of hair from her face.
«You changed our life dorogoy, for the better» Natasha leaves you a kiss to mold and gives you a smile.
"So ... tomorrow morning training starts at five, you have to be on time; you both have to be »Natasha gives you an amused smile and you and Wanda open their eyes wide, moaning.
"Oh Nat, come on ..."
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