Weight Check ?
My boyfriend keeps randomly picking me up weekly and I just realized he’s been monitoring my weightloss … 💔this motivates me so much more.
Okay, so, as i read, the first 3 days are the worst, which makes sense, because usually i gave up after the first or the second day.
I have to be extra strong mentally especially in the beginning..
I already chose some series to watch during this time, and i’ll have to study a lot
Also, what i experienced (and others too) is time really slows down, which won’t help me either, but whatever
36 hour fast done!
broke it with green tea and canned peaches (87 cal)
gonna have some more fruit in two hours and then start a 24h fast
Calories burned: 1,331
Physically: Insomnia was rly bad last night and I ended up only getting 1.5 hours of sleep before having to go babysit. Babysat 3 boys so I was running around but felt like I was in slow motion just taking/doing everything a lot slower than I normally would. Took a 2 hr nap in the late afternoon bc I didn’t sleep well hoping that doesn’t mess me up tonight. Not physically hungry
Mentally: Pretty good. Watched a video of people trying different vegan junk foods which made me crave some but it was nothing too bad and like an hour after watching it my want for junk food was gone😂
I really need to STOP watching mukbangs !!!! ㅠ_ㅠ
✦ Day 1 weight - 80.3kg
I wish someone would tell me I’m so thin I could just float away
So, i ended up binging really bad these past 2 days, gained 3 kg (yeah yeah ik it’s water retention, but still) and i wanna compensate it with a 130 hour fast. I’ve been fucking things up for too long now and i need to change NOW. So, wish me luck you guys. I’ll update!
I want to prove myself, that i can do it.. however i’m scared of failing so much…
Does anybody wanna be friends on this hell site?
• Dont be over 20
• Dont be pro ana
So the weirdest thing happened. My period is always late or unexistent because of my ed. After fasting for this long my period came after I took a bite of a potato. THE SECOND I HAD THE BITE THAT’S WHEN MY PERIOD DECIDED TO SURPRISE ME BITCH WTFFF
Just some thoughts
I want to lose weight permanently and not have it come back everytime I eat something after starving for days, so I’m just going to start eating less, no rice or sweets and I’m doing my best not to binge it’s been a few weeks since I last posted here and I have just been trying to get better and forget my ed, I’ve been eating normal and when I don’t like the food I don’t eat instead of eating everything, I still starve sometimes but it’s not as bad. Honestly Tumblr fed of my ed and it got so worse when I was here that I would just go fucking crazy and I hated that so much and I can’t handle it anymore. I still want all these fucking weight off I’m just gonna do it without torturing myself, I’m just trying to get better and I hope every single one of you that I met here or talked to gets better to, I know it won’t go away like magic and I still feel itchy to my skin when I see skinny people, I still want to shave my skin off my body, I still want to die when I eat something big, I still think about calories, I still hate my fucking body but I want to get better and I think I’m slowly accepting that I connot be thin by tomorrow and that starving myself with only torture me mentally and physically and that all that weight would eventually just come back off when I binge or eat. I don’t know, I just can’t take it anymore what ed has done to my head, I honestly couldn’t even function when I first got here. I just want to be better and not make my ed and getting skinny my whole world. I hope you’re all doing okay. Take care! xxx
(12/13/19) fasting day 1:
im not hungry yet but my body is CRAVING food, i don’t currently have any specific cravings or anything but i keep getting these “i need to eat” feelings where even if I’m not chewing and swallowing food i need to at least chew on gum or chew on ice or chew ANYTHING and it’s getting stressful ): i just want to be at a point where food isn’t everything & eating isn’t everything.
Quick midday update
Physically: feel awful hands were tingling last night and feet went numb I assume it’s because I haven’t taken an iron or potassium supplement yet. Feeling in hands and feet went away when I woke up but now I am very lightheaded ( when up and moving feel like I’m going to pass out), my stomach is cramping and in a lot of pain, and I feel like I’m going to throw up like I have that salivating mouth you get right before you throw up.
Mentally: kind of peeved my mom won’t be home until five for me to go get my supplements and I feel too awful to even sleep (couldn’t fall asleep until 4 Bc of insomnia and then kept waking up Bc of the pain). Just trying to remind myself that days 3-5/7 are the worst and after that things should get easier.
I’ll do another update tonight just wanted to put this out there rn
a 24h fast completed!
I am doing one whole day of water fasting today and i am really thinking about doing it for 3 days. But i don’t know how to because my mom would for sure notice when i don’t eat and i don’t really have excuses to tell her. I am fucked
Btw i'ts 1 pm and i haven’t eaten yet so that is a big success
The ss speaks from itself ✌️
I don’t know if I should repeat day 4 tomorrow or just keep going
I was left alone with a ton of sweets, chips and stuff I like 🙃🙃🙃
My belly is waaaay too big
sometimes I remember just how many cokes I used to drink a day, and all the faces and looks I’d get from my family. i am utterly disgusted with myself
Day 1 of my water fast tomorrow
Shooting for 13 days (will end on Christmas Eve - the event I have to be skinny by)
(I’ve done 21 days & I’ve done 14 days in the past so I’m used to long fasting)
If I’m not at least in the 120’s (129 is acceptable in this short time constraint) by Christmas I will be so depressed. 😞