First picture is from June 2018, on vacation at my heaviest weight and feeling so self conscious about how much I let myself go in college that this was the only photo that survived my deleting spree. I was humiliated. I went from “that super fit girl” in highschool…to this.
I made it through my college program, I passed my licensing exam, I made it through the post college period of waiting at home praying for anyone to call me back for an interview as I watched all my friends get jobs, I made it through the depression I struggled with when all I had to motivate me to get out of bed (at 3pm) everyday was a coffee and fast food run, and then my anxiety upon starting that job and focusing all my efforts into my career…to the point where my diet consisted of anything I could grab before a shift.
Through all these major changes in life, and the very confusing period of going from being an effortlessly perfect 17 year old girl to 22-23, I forgot what it really meant to take care of yourself as a WHOLE, I forgot how much health and fitness always did for my body AND mind. I not only lost my body, but a huge part of my identity.
The second picture is from July 2019, down 45 lbs. I’d rediscovered my love for the gym and all things fitness, started running again, and started fueling my body with the things it needed all this time. Don’t be fooled, I fell off the wagon several times, but my end goals remained so I came back and kept at it harder then before and eventually it just became habitual. It’s done wonders for not only my self esteem, but my overall mental heath. I’m sO happy I stuck to it.
I think a lot of us can relate to having been extremely active and fit in highschool and somewhere along the path of becoming adults and trying to find our place in the world… we focus all our energy elsewhere and forget what it meant to us to take care of our bodies. We don’t have the dance classes or sports teams we once did in school, and now we have maybe some injuries on top of it all. And one day we just except it and say “this is it, this is adulthood, this is my body now.”
The best thing I did for myself over the last 2 years is realize I DID NOT “peak in highschool” and I still have the power to CHOOSE to do better for myself. The best thing I have done is refuse to settle on myself. Enough excepting things as they are. Start making those changes you’ve been meaning to.