santa baby n it’s beginning to look like christmas may be the best christmas songs ever idk
santa baby n it’s beginning to look like christmas may be the best christmas songs ever idk
I WAS GONE FOR A FEW DAYS AND NOW THERE'S NOT ONE, BUT TWO SPIDERVERSE MOVIES COMING OUT?!??!?!
the beach this morning :)
Will’s clothes should have so much more dog hair on them. I did not see a lint roller anywhere in that house.
So I was complaining earlier how my room was too cold, and then I turned up my heater and promptly fell asleep. And then my room got WAY TOO HOT. I literally woke up from a dream where i was standing in front of two heaters that were WAY TOO HOT and i was in the process of turning them down when I woke up. My left hand was crushed in a weird position underneath me, too, which my dreaming brain perceived as Being Burned. I guess it felt about the same, but was much easier to fix 😂 (I just took my hand out from under my body and unfolded my wrist and then it immediately felt better)
why is it dark at 5pm!!!!!! i cant even get out the house until like 2 on weekends :/ we live in a hell world
My parents noticed I'm in a better mood and mom was asking if anything good happened and I'm just like...I don't really know how to explain my mood right now?? How do you explain....like okay how do you say to your parent that lives with you and has lived with you for 23 years now that you've been in a depressed unmotivated haze with being low grade sick with no energy since august, you stopped writing (btw mom i write haha) bc no energy so that was an outlet taken away and then november hit and you had to force yourself to draw bc that was the last thing you had and if you're doing it for others for christmas that has to be okay right? And you thought your cat was gonna die and your brain wanted dissociate but you couldn't bc you were the only one taking care of him so you just kinda floated on autopilot and it was only the last few days of november first few of december you finally came fully back online with with no passive suicidal thoughts to be had and noticing pretty things around you again and feeling like life is okay actually and then getting overwhelmed and crashing and you falling into the weird brain mood of "which body parts are real and i now have to argue against my brain bc for some reason it refuses to connect to reality" and then everything clicks back into place and the depression is just a really quiet frequency which is really nice and there's no anxiety to be had and you look in the mirror and actually feel connected to yourself and recognize yourself for the first time since summer and how the actual hell, living with me, did you not realize how dead i was i would not move for hours was it really that normalized that you just glanced over it how the heck loud do i have to be????????
no offense but if i was a musician and i had one of my songs tagged as “dsmp” by spotify i would officially and legally call that a hate crime
Cancelled all my plans this weekend because legit I just… don’t want to have to do anything.
I just wanna sit around and play animal crossing and eat snacks maybe. Or read or write stuff. I just don’t wanna people.
We’re in this fun space where a re-recording has been released pretty recently, we’ve digested most of the content and are still discovering new things, but lurking in the background is the next re-recording, which we have no idea of when it might be coming or when she might tease it and that is ✨terrifying✨
IT'S RACE DAY!!!!!!
I'm so tired but I snuck an egregious amount of those little hotel soap bars into my bag so I've got that going for me
I'm back!!!!!!! I didn't have wifi for a few days so I just got SLAMMED with notifications lol
When I first read the original post from that last meme my brain thought, “December 4th, the 5th, the minor fall and the major lift.”
@xserawrites asked: I don't need no anon for this--
but anyway, I just want to say I'm so in love with all of the Schnee sisters fluff??? like omg. they're just. so adorable. I live for sibling fluff/family fluff & it's sometimes tough to find writers you click with in that respect.
Also, your aesthetics are gorg and still readable which is a point of contention i have for a lot of layouts on tumblr, reeeeeeeeeeee--
Hopefully I will get up off my booty and go haggle your Raven with my Salem, since that's... really the only rwby muse I'd have to interact w/ your Raven. Weiss is more likely to snub her and introduce her to the business end of Myrtenaster...
ANONYMOUSLY OR NOT, TELL ME SOMETHING YOU LIKE ABOUT MY MUSE/BLOG // accepting !!
I had a rough day and this was so nice ;;;;; but yes I am always here for the Schneeblings and all their soft chaos !! Winter is not always a good sister, but she does mean well and she does try. ;;
AND THANK YOU readability / legibility is a really important thing to me and I know a lot of people hate container themes by default so I was like "the least I can do is make it easier to read" because I... am an aesthetic hoe and cannot be stopped. >>
Raven is a feral bitch but I 100% welcome any interactions with her. Tbh even if Weiss wants to fight her, she'd basically be like "lol okay come at me bitch" so...!
Alright so my head was extremely spacey and unconnected today and NostalgiaTM was activated and it just eugh. So i went on an hour long walk blasting music bc it was cold and loud and it helped and i just- I'm so in love with people and places and things.
My neighborhood used to be not great. Kids were assholes and loud and bullies and sometimes drug dealers would move in and there were weird things at the park and one time the house beside us was a halfway house and we weren't told and it just- wasn't great. And I think I've posted about this before but it got better and it's greener and the kids grew up and the kids here now are polite and the parks really nice but now since it's the pandemic it's really quiet and sometimes since my house is really quiet you get really crushingly alone and quiet and you feel like you're the only one around. Whatever anyway not the point but it's nicer than it was is the point.
While I was walking there aren't as many stray cats around which makes me really happy bc people have started taking them to good shelters so i know they're getting in good homes and they'll be warm in the winter and making owners so happy and the cats are so loved. And there's dogs that are so sweet and friendly and their owners will wave at you and smile and you know they're taking care of their pets and that's so nice. There used to be an old man I'd talk to at one house who would sit outside with his cat on a leash and he'd let me pet her and we'd talk about i dont even remember. I dont see him anymore but his chairs still there and kinda dipped and worn from how much he sat out with her.
The roads are good and there arent as many cracks in it anymore and the trees glow red with the late fall sun now and there was flocks of geese flying a lot today and even though all the plants are dead people have their flower beds prepared for winter and christmas lights up and sometimes i find that annoying but today i just thought about how lights are up where kids toys are in the yard and how excited were the kids that christmas decorations were going up and how happy and exasperated the parents probably were. Leaf piles are flat from being jumped in and the ones on the road dont crunch but when they fly ik the wind they're so heckin pretty and the sky was that duller winter blue that's really calming and lovely and you can look at it without blinding yourself. My arms went a little numb bc my sleeves were rolled up but the air felt really nice and there's a really big hill i walked up that was hard on my cranky hip but the view is always so far and gorgeous i love where i live.
People used to give me shit for living in a trailer court. Trailer rat trailer trash I've heard all the stupid shit but the people are so lovely and smile and wave at you and i dont really talk to or know anyone anymore but its still friendly you just gotta know what houses to avoid bc there's hardcore republicans here but even they're pretty quiet. And its surrounded by trees and in a valley so we live in a big comfy bowl which i just realized today and was laughing over. I dont know im rambling but im really glad im still alive bc holy shit there's so much around yo look at and notice.
seasonal depression and allergies really teaming up to kick my ass this year
Have to go soon but quick thought: best part of chanukah for me is watching all the candles go out one by one. It reminds me of that poem about not going gently into that good night, and I like the imagery that everything we do as human beings is like the light of a candle burning so brightly while it lasts and then fighting so valiantly against the darkness, but blinking out is inevitable and just as much a part of life as anything else.
when will my motivation come back from the war. pls
....had a wave of nostalgia today and am now making a playlist on spotify specifically with all taylor swift songs in order from the first album and then like- probably nit picking from the newer ones bc i didnt listen much past red. Happy to report that i am thriving as marys song is still lovely, love story still activates my asthma, mean still fills me with child rage and innocent still makes the sad thirteen year old in my heart feel like things are gonna be okay.