when you wanna make more friends but you don't know how to talk to ppl and you don't wanna annoy them so you just kinda sit there
happy bi visibility day! nickel is bi :D
i love when people give david a shitty mom. like yes give him mommy AND daddy issues i’m living for it
— dogboy dream <3
Okay hardly anyone is online to read about it BUT THAT’S OKAY I need to explode about two (2!!!) TWO!!! TWO CAMEOS I got as surprise gifts for my bday 🥺🥺
My gf and a very sweet friend of mine both each individually bought me a cameo from steve asking for a st//rscream birthday video. and. neither of them knew the other person bought me the same thing. and steve’s reaction to getting two requests for the same person at the same exact time is. kind of funny LOL
anyway I’m gonna explode under the readmore as usual:
!!!! AH okay!!! OKAY SO my first cameo (from my gf) he said “Hello Keri!!” Then he softened his voice and whispered “My little Starflower” like he always does o my god 🥺🥺🥺
and then he said some stuff about birthdays and how they (meaning Cybertronians) don’t celebrate them on Cybertron and how time is kind of “immaterial” for him, so that was his “apologies for wishing you a belated birthday” and then!! He!! Stopped himself, his voice cracked a bit when he said in a flustered tone “and... ah, well—“ softened his voice again and said “thank you... for loving me... when most people don’t.” and then he smiled and THAT REALLY. SENT AN ARROW THRU MY HEART. Thank u for loving me??? Oh my GOD 😭😭😭😭😭😭 any fucking TIME starlight I will ALWAYS love u!!!!!
Aghh that also made me feel better about the whole thing that happened last week where like... I was just so upset that ppl treat this character so poorly whether it’s canon or within the fandom... and when I made a few vent posts about it I had a few nice ppl tell me “aw st//rscream would appreciate you sticking up for him” so to hear the voice actor actually say in the actual stsc voice “thank you for loving me” my GOD I appreciated that so much. What the fuck. then he did a tiny little “happy birthdaaay” at the end with a little wave and that was SO cute///// Happy birthday Keri INDEED
But then not even 20 minutes later my friend texts me saying “heyyy I have a gift for you! Happy late bday!” And she sends a cameo with steve’s thumbnail and I’m like WHAT. WAIT WHAT?? ANOTHER ONE?? and I opened the video and it was a bit longer than the last and he says “Hello Keri, it’s me, St//rscream-?” pause. blink. “...again?!”
And he said that my friend wrote in the request box that I was going thru a rough time, and he said in the stsc voice SO matter-of-factly “you’re going to get through this!” like it was such YOU WILL GET BETTER, YOU HAVE NO CHOICE energy and normally he’s very gentle w/ those kinds of things but starlight’s PASSIONATE starlight’s TOUGH starlight’s got a THINGS WILL GET BETTER, PRIMUS DAMN IT ALL TO THE PIT, I’LL MAKE IT BETTER kind of attitude!!
And he gave more encouragement for about 20-30 seconds and one part was very funny because when he started to [in character] vent about megatr//n exasperatedly, his voice craaAAacked an entire octave higher than I’ve ever fucking heard even in canon he was so exasperated
One touching moment was him saying very matter-of-factly again “you’re going to be okay, Keri, I mean look at me! I have to deal with - with trials, and tribulations, and... and Megatr//n... and... Cybertron, and... ah, um....” and he started just. mumbling. so low. and fidgeting w/ his hands (I think it’s neat when Steve gets so into character that he fidgets while voice acting for St//rscream) “decepticons... auto...bots...” then he growls an octave lower than normal (hoo) “everyone is so mean to me.” complete silence for at least 5 seconds. then he SHOUTS: “BUT!!!!! I’M HAPPY!!! AND YOU SHOULD BE TOO, ESPECIALLY BECAUSE!! IT! IS! YOUR! BIRTH! DAY! AND I AM CELEBRATING RIGHT ALONG WITH YOU! HAPPY!! HAPPY!! BIRTHDAY!!!!!”
Then he flashed a smile, his voice dropped back to its normal pitch/volume, and he said in a happy-go-lucky tone “all hail me!! :)” which was. so fucking cute. I’ve never heard him say that in any of my other cameos before!! Normally he ends a cameo with “don’t tell megatr//n we’ve had this conversation” but he probably thought to himself “hm I just said that 20 minutes ago in her OTHER birthday cameo so I should switch it up a bit”
Anyway that was very nice of Steve to do both of them for me and very nice of my gf and my friend to get those!!!! For me!!!! 🥺🥺🥺 I still cannot get over the “thank you for loving me” and aghhh god the way he said “you’re GOING to get THROUGH this” was so confident,,, makes me think I might really be okay. even for just a few hours. but especially the “thank you for loving me” I’ve been sniffling and crying over that soft-as-a-melting-marshmallow line delivery for the past thirty minutes now
DNI people who are rooting for Melbourne for this years grand final
oghghg my gOD. OH MYGODDD I’m. I’m finally home and able to turn on my computer and it’s MIDNIGHT. MY SWEET COMPUTER, MY BELOVED. MWAH. HELLO TABLET. I WILL FINALLY GET BACK TO WORKING ON COMMS... I have time to finish one and line another and then I’ll have about 12 left... and then SATURDAY I’m actually OFF because by some miracle of the stars SOMEBODY must be looking out for me,,, I’ll use that time to finish MORE comms and hopefully I’ll have them all done by the end of the month so then I can open SERIOUS comms by the end of october!!!
okay with how crazy things were the past couple days and me accidentally sleeping til 3 today... i accidentally didnt eat for 24 hours. not good in general, but i have hypoglycemia so guess who had a seizureeee
please tell me im not the only one who looks up outfits to better envision yourself in certain fics 😩 like when reader is described as wearing a black dress to a club i will stop reading to look up black dresses and find one i like to imagine myself in lmaolaksbsbsnjsjs
anger cures so many things <3 such as my daydream about coming out to my dad Yet Again
im thinking abt streaming wld ygs rather see me draw or play deltarune