“ The gods grant nothing more than life ;
So let us reject whatever lifts us ;
To unbreathable heights ;
Eternal but flowerless . ”
( Pessoa Fernando )
0There’s something about you that I can’t explain. But whatever it is, it makes me want you in ways I can’t even describe.
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DAY 8: what do i do to take things off my mind?
according to my therapist, anorexia is a coping mechanism to take my mind off my anxiety/depression so i guess there’s that. it manifests itself in things like over exercising, tumblr, being so hungry i can’t concentrate, sleeping all day, etc.
my more healthy coping mechanisms include artwork (i love sketching), reading, video games, and a sane amount of exercise
0There have been instances in my life where people have judged me without even actually getting to know me, without even sharing a conversation with me or just because someone had some kind of fall out with me. And you know, that’s alright. Maybe that’s how your life works but the version of me that you’ve created in your mind is not my responsibility.
1Waking up
A ray of sunshine breaking through hollow glass. Making time shine in a dull light. Unbroken but diffuse, missing it’s connection to memory. Giving a chance to think, a glimpse of free thought. Lost in the continuum of moods where reason does not apply.
It comes back. Slowly. Like a clear realization, walking out of the mist. Step by step, it’s shape becomes clearer, until we can look it straight in the face. A face created by the viewer, showing the lines and plots we call yesterday. A friend to stay by our side, guiding us with purpose like the sun. Until we part again in fading red light. Until we decide again, on who will be with us tomorrow.
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thoughts
i hope in this life my partner does not learn loss from my passing, ive always struggled to be alive but i want most to spare him suffering. if i could just be here to make his life bearable i would choose to stay by his side night and day.
by far the strangest way for me to admit im really in love with a human being.
i know its going to be okay but i cant help but worry the universe will call me home sooner than him, i cant bear to leave him alone.
0when you doubt your strength, remember that no one else is holding the weight on your shoulders other than you.
-ahlwords
3People who say frnds on social media are better than people in real life, haven’t tried ever! These thoughts are really toxic, these are the signals that depression will take its roots soon and you’ll be lonely. Social Media is not real life. Go and interact outside your house! Don’t make a life inside this mobile phone! Go out! You’re gonna die a never - lived life! How can you possibly do that to yourself?
0Tim: What exactly is happening here?
Jason: I refuse to talk to that heathen
Dick: Really? You’re starting to sound like Dami
Jason: Replacement, tell him to stop talking to me
Tim: What he do?
Dick: Honestly, get traught
Jason: I SWEAR TO GOD-!
9belphegor1982 replied to your text post:
A turning point indeed. (Poor Hartley ;__;) I do like that he makes the point of telling them “you’re still my family and I love you, but we won’t be working together”, because I like to believe that yes, they are still family (because they’re Rogues, dammit). And I love the little chat at the end with JJ :o)Honestly, I’m pretty sad that they ended up so estranged in the comics, even though there’s plenty of room for adults to agree they’re moving in different directions but still get along. I have to wonder if some nasty things were said, possibly on both sides, when Hartley reformed. Or maybe there was just general bad blood from years of people not really getting along. Either way, I’m happiest imagining they still care about each other even if they don’t always seem close.
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