Oh, and I love you so.
Oh, and I love you so.
Her fingers intertwined behind her back as she sighed,
“I think you should create art for your soul, not for others to see” she said looking at this sketch laid out in front of him,
“But with this I could be famous one day.” He said half joking.
“If it makes you twist inside because others will see it, then I think you will become famous.” She said taking a seat in the chair across from him,
“You are much too blocked off from the world to understand it, but I see you Kingsley. I see the damaged and frightened thing hiding in the depths of your mind and until you let it out, and show the world what he is, you will never be as good as your have the potential to be.” She said looking him in the eyes.
He swallowed staring at the sketch in front of him, she was right after all. All the hurt and self hatred he had pooling inside his soul was too much for anyone to see. This girl, who knew him barely a month could somehow pinpoint his misery with what little information she had.
“Why do you said things that ruin moods.” He said dryly looking back at her now,
“Because someone like you needs to feel it to let it out. To bleed it onto that page of yours. Until you do, you will be superficial and boring.” She blinked. She knew she was right, and she knew he knew she was right. That’s all that mattered.
So sudden we can’t even react.
Thats why they call life a roller coaster,
It twists and it turns
Up and down
Never sure which way is up
Unsure if you should pinch yourself or blink.
Life is funny that way
Learn to be okay with people not knowing your side of story.
For I get lost in his love.
Blookenine - 164
Bus Thoughts I Suppose
Other times I wake up aching at how real it all is. Everything I should be doing for the world flies through my head the whole day. I should be coming up with solutions. I should be fighting for major change on a well known platform. For a happier, better, more peaceful Earth than the one I was born in. That I should love and help every person because they are just that. People. I should be fighting wild fires, implementing sustainable energy to the worlds nation. Eliminating single use plastics. Protecting every single child who is scared to go to school. Nurturing and parenting every child who needs it. Solving world hunger and poverty. Fixing our broken government.
I suppose this could now be my bucket list. A tad ambitious dont you think.
But I implore you. Do your part. You dont have to be a billionaire (although that would help), or some world famous activist. You can just be you as you are now. But do stick your tongue out at babies. Plant a flower. Smile at all people. Hold the door, help the old woman. Help yourself. And the world will already be one person better, one person happier, one person kinder, one person more peaceful. Could you imagine if we all thought that way.
I spend my days, here and there.
Meeting women of different colors and hair .
Trying to see if my heart still works like it did when my life was like weightless air
I leave right before we get too close, because I can’t seem to allow myself to be vulnerable.
To let someone into my mind.
I’m too broken, yet I still try to find a love I lost so long ago.
In the souls of new company.
Crush Crush Crush. 💞💞
12 / 02 / 2020 • 15 / 100 days of productivity
• going to be travelling for some time so that also means I will be able to write loads more
♪ There For You - Nicklas Sahl
My molecular structure is spinning out of control, chromosomes are caught in a vortex of change, atoms are reforming, alterations are spiraling upward. Brainwaves are sending out contrasting impulses, my heart is pumping new blood, there’s a new genetic code coursing throughout my soul and light has overthrown darkness. The particles of life change is inevitable. Suddenly, I no longer exist. Inside my bodily composition lies another being… That I myself don’t know.
A little hope, a little further
To have a fruit we must suffer
Every little details that matter
Nothing that could be cured with only a healer
A little time, much more precious
Efficient could not be this genius
Struggling to stay above water
No words it could whisper
Drowning yet swimming
Not giving up this self-absorbed losing
You can’t say you miss them and then leave
That hurts like shit
That person that cares for you doesn’t want to be lied to
That person just wants hold you and love you
And you are lying to them
Making them believe they’re your forever
If you don’t mean the word “LOVE” don’t say it at all