Invisible

It’s a relief, almost

Being invisible

Floating around like ghosts

It kinda feels criminal

If my parents don’t notice

Then they will not scream

I hide in the closet

And let myself dream

If I keep my mouth shut

Unless spoken to

Then no one gives a flying fuck

Of anything I get up to

But now I sit at the local Tim Hortons

Staring at the window

The reflection feels foreign

I feel down to zero

Because I have cut off every person who cares

And I stalk the ones who don’t

I’ve never bothered to straighten up my affairs

Because it’s all I’ve ever known

This wasn’t supposed to be my damnation

Yet now I am chained in a dungeon

Invisibility is my liberation

But is it also my destruction?

[written July 31, 2021]

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-Luna

useless words

When you love, lay your heads on each other's shoulder, watch stars and breathe. You walk and gently swing your hand in his not using words to tell him how you feel, how much he matters, and yet he knows. You keep walking and smile. Then my love, you know words are useless.

When you die inside, it hurts, yet you suppress it all in, putting up a smile that doesn't reach your eyes, thinking no one knows but she sees and comes and holds your head to her chest and only then you let the dam of tears break free, sob and scream but not say, no words would justify your pain and just then, just then - you know words are useless.

When you shout, piercing your urge into their thick skin, ask questions you get no answers to, words denying to answer, letting the grievous silence wash over and you sink on your knees, head on the ground, saline water dripping from your chin, surrendering to the truth; the one you don't even know. Then you know words couldn't help you, did they ever?

When he leaves, and you want to ask why, but you don't. You have so much inside that you wish to say, plead, beg, cry but you restrain it all, gulping the scare of losing someone, pushing the tears behind the lids, putting up a broken brave face but don't say because you know they won't come to your rescue; they will transform into a sword instead, slash through your already weak heart instead, spill colorless blood from your eyes instead.

Then you know words are more than useless. Worse than useless.

So the only thing you allow to cross your lips is sigh, you sit and stare, think what went wrong and sleep.

But don't say.

Imagine we danced on a stage... There'd be 4 possibilities:

We don't dance for anybody

We dance for others

We dance for ourselves

We dance for both ourselves & others

Questions for the fanfic writers out there who put their Ko-Fi/Cashapp/PayPal in their bios:

Do people actually donate to you?

Do you make much money from it?

How many followers did you have when you started getting donations?

Do you give rewards to the people that donate to you?

I just have a lot of questions about the logistics of somewhat monetizing fanfic because my mum keeps breathing down my neck about how I'm not making any money with my writing and it would be nice to shut her up.

I re-discovered 'Achilles Come Down' by Gang of Youths and I feel surreal.

Between the unsaid words

And maybe one day

I might take this weight off my chest

You will listen

And I will say

All the words that were left unsaid.

~Shubhaa

And some nights

Your memories eat me up inside 🤍

That was my aloneness that didn't wanted to let you go,

But today its my love that is letting you go.

*starts smiling (romantically) at their notification or texts* Wow, this one is gonna hurt, isn't it?